This is my 1st ever story. I hope it's ok. I didn't really know what to write about... it just kinda happened!

I hope you like it !

Sometimes I feel a bit lonely. And sometimes a bit sad. But eventually it goes away. At night, I get this feeling, a feeling of insecurity, loneliness. A pitiful feeling, I know. But I can't stop it, however hard I try!

Over the years, I got better at controlling it. Now, I don't get that feeling every night, sometimes only once or twice a week. But my fears come too, so I had to learn to keep them down as well.

And now I'm hidden.

No one knows me - the real me, because I manage to hide myself well. My 'wall' comes up automatically, I don't even realise it. And sometimes, it makes me sad because I have no one to talk to, I don't trust easily, and I wish someone could help me get out of this place, because I want to 'look up' and see the world as it really is. I don't want to see it how I see it. And I want the glass to be half full, and not half empty. I want to feel free, instead of confined to my 'prison'.

I wish it could be easier. I want it to be easier.

It took me almost 7 years to get to this point, where I don't have that felling so often, but when I do, it all comes crashing down.

During that time, I've made friends, lost friends, had responsibility thrown on my shoulders and then BAM! I'm 13 and I have to do everything perfectly...

And then there are problems at school, more weight put on my shoulders, everyone seems to trust me, and I don't know why. I wish I did. Because then I could make them stop trusting me for a while, while I regain my balance in this world. And then, it all comes crashing down, in one big pile and I have to put it back up again. It gets so tiring, but it hurts all the same.

I wish the glass was half full, not half empty.

I suppose what I am trying to say is...

I wish...

I wish...

I wish I was ...

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