Why did I have to exist? Why? Why was I born? Why?
Ever since I was a child, I was told I wasn't wanted. That I was a mistake. That I was the result of something that never should have happened. And that made me something that never should have happened.
No matter how many times Mother and Father would tell me that I was wanted, the words of the village bullies would stick.
At a very young age, I had a warped state of mind, and broken self-esteem.
I wanted to die.
Yet I couldn't. Even though I looked human, I was still half vampire. Half sin and half purity. A clashing creature. I could still heal. And I was still scared to die. It seemed painful, and I didn't know if the world after would be any better than it was then. There may not have even been any world after, just a painful void.
Yeah, I was scared.
Years passed. Blood was shed. Mother died. Father turned against her ways, and in turn, turned against me.
My urge to die grew larger, needier.
But then, I met two unique souls. Two souls that just made everything a little bit better. Two souls that I trusted with my life, or what little remained.
But then, even they betrayed me.
And I lost all hope for a better life.
New questions flooded my head.
Why did they betray me? Why must we fight? Why does this world hate me? ...Why am I crying? I knew this would happen eventually.
But the thing was, I didn't want to know. I wanted to believe that they would stay with me forever. That they would slowly but surely drive out the demons eating away at my heart and mind.
Why must all good things come to an end? I don't know. But I wish it wasn't so. This way I could be happy. We could all be happy.
But I soon came to the conclusion, that reality wasn't like that. Reality was cruel. Reality was merciless. I didn't want to be in reality.
I wanted to die. I wasn't scared anymore.
That's why, deep in the woods, I decided to kill myself.
This way, the world would be rid of a burden.
Hi, Majesty here! I started a new story. If you read my other one, in the latest chapter I said that I'd start this and it would be an Alucard centric AlucardxTrevor fic. This short prologue starts our beloved vamp's journey to something I can't say because of spoilers. There will be another chapter later on in the week, maybe within the next three or four days. So until then, bye and enjoy!
