Songfic:
A series of angst songfics, starting with My Immortal. This is mainly
inspired by demented_shoelace because I'm not actually into Angst, it's
just that my heart just about broke through her songfic so here's my
pathetic attempt at trying to write one. It's very AG. Well George leaves
Tortall and Alanna marries Jon and now she seriously regrets it, I wonder
why, and she sat down and wrote these songfics.
Btw you don't mind me stealing your song do you?
Alanna stared out of the window, at the setting sun. She loved the sunset.
How many times had she sat in the Dancing Dove, pointing out the sunset to
George and resting in his warm embrace?
'I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone'
She shook her head and tried to snap out of it. It's been years since she'd
last seen George, and it should have been long enough for her to get over
him. But Goddess, it wasn't. He was everywhere. She would constantly stare
into his face, hear his voice, feel his heart. Why did he leave? How could
he leave?
'These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase'
Goddess, they went through so much together. They were so close. All the
love, the pain, and everything in between. Is it even possible to put it
down and let it stay behind her?? Can she move on?
'When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me'
She remembered the first time she met him. The first time she'd set eyes on
him. His charm, his bravery, his wit, his love. Especially his love. She
didn't know if she could live without it, even after all these years. She
felt so empty.
'You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me'
A little bit of heartbreak, a small indecision, and she was married to
Jonathan. He was handsome, he was powerful, he was the King...but one thing
he wasn't, he wasn't George. He wasn't her soul mate. Maybe she did love
him, and maybe she always will, but never as much as she loved George.
'These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase'
She was so confused. She didn't know what she wanted. She knew that George
was long gone, that he wasn't coming back, but the memory of him wouldn't
let go, and let her be. Or maybe she didn't want to forget. Either way,
she's never been so alone.
'I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along'