Here's my newest fic, it was actually pretty easy to write. After months of not writing, usually I have a deluge of ideas attacking me. This is one of them. I definitely suggest listening to Someone Like You by Adele while you read this, it was my inspiration. I don't own anything, except a radio/alarm clock. Yeahh.

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Dear Lily,

It's spring again. Those tulips you planted finally bloomed, and I thought of you. The rain almost flooded the garden, but I put up a tarp to protect it. You taught me that trick when we did that Herbology project back in fifth year. You were always so clever.

It's been one year since we last saw each other, did you know that? It's been weird going on by myself. I think about you all the time. There hasn't been a day that I haven't wished I could've done something different that night, and maybe I could have saved you.

Your son is living with your sister, Petunia, now. Ha, I bet you never would've sent him there if you'd had the choice. Do you think she'll tell him about everything? About who his mother was, what she stood for? What she died for? I'll never forget that, Lily.

Did you know I haven't been able to make a Patronus since you left? There's nothing happy in me to choose from. The pain is dulled since a year ago, but of course it's still there, and it just overpowers every happy memory I had. It used to be a doe. Just like yours, did you know that?

I loved you, you know. Even after you left me for Potter. And I don't think I can ever stop. It hurts, because, for me it still isn't over. I often think you could have been more careful. I mean, didn't you know? That what you were doing would have ended this way? Didn't you care, that it was breaking me apart, that it was going to leave me alone here, without you? Don't you remember how I always needed you with me? Well it's still true! I still need you, Evans! And you left me anyways. And now you're gone.

So what do I do? Can I really go on without you here with me?

...Your son has your eyes. I always swore I'd live for you, and that was a promise. And now all I can do is live for your sacrifice in your son. I'll protect him, don't worry about that.

Take care, Lily. I love you.

Severus.