Saturday, May 8th, Midnight

Just got back from Michael's dorm. Luckily my mom and Mr. G were already asleep, and didn't hear me come in.

Because I am in no fit state to face them right now.

I barely even acknowledged to Lars on the way home, besides to say goodnight. Not that he seemed up for a conversation anyway. Seeing how he was super tired from spending the past 17 hours with me today.

Grandmère wanted me to meet her at 7:00AM today to have breakfast with the Grand Duke of Luxembourg. SEVEN AM. ON A SATURDAY. Lars wasn't too thrilled either. If the sunglasses he was wearing and the six coffees he chugged on the way to breakfast were any indication (I'm pretty sure he and Wahim were up drinking last night).

And afterward he had to stand guard outside of Lilly's apartment until five, while Tina, Ling Su, Perin, Shameeka, J. P. , and I helped Lilly film and edit the last bit of next week's Lilly Tells It Like It Is. Lilly was grounded for a month after attacking Andy Milonakis with a Dojo's side salad, during which time she wasn't allowed to film Lilly Tells It Like It Is. Instead, channel 5 has been showing reruns of her show the past month. Which I didn't know public access channels did.

Lilly is dedicating this week's episode to exposing the truth behind MTV's 'reality' shows. She believes everything is scripted and nothing on those shows are actually real. Which I don't think anybody would be surprised by. I mean, have you SEEN an episode of Date My Mom? Who in their right mind would let their MOM go on a date with a boy that might possibly be their future soul mate? And what Mom would want to hang out with a teenage boy anyway?

It's pretty obvious that Lilly just wants the whole episode to be about exposing Andy Milonakis as a deceiving, talentless, 20 something hack, especially after she heard about him going to Genovia to film the My Super Royal Sweet Sixteen edition of My Super Sweet Sixteen. Which will air the same day as this episode of her show. She's been carrying a camera with her everywhere, hoping to get a shot of Andy Milonakis coming out of a bar again, like we did a few weeks ago. No such luck.

Anyway, afterward Lars and I grabbed some lunch and headed over to Michael's dorm. Where we were for 5 hours. I hope Lars was at least able to grab some sleep on the couch in the dorm TV room. That thing is comfy.

But not as comfy as Michael's bed. Which is what I REALLY wanted to talk about.

Things got pretty hot and heavy. There was some under the shirt action. UNDER the bra this time. And it felt good. Really good. We've done over the bra before. Plenty of times. But I didn't know it would feel this much better under.

It was so good I moaned. MOANED. At first I was mortified. But Michael didn't seem to think it was bad or anything. And I kind of forgot about being mortified when he started kissing my neck, and I smelled his hair, which smells like his neck.

His other hand trailed down a little bit, but I eased it upward, and he got the message that below the waist was a no go.

And then I kind of climbed sideways into his lap (I wanted to get little closer to his neck), and I felt...HIM. Yes, I fully realize what it was. And I'm not naive enough to think that he's never gotten them before. He's just good at maneuvering our make out sessions so I never really noticed it much before.

I thought I would freak out, but instead I kind of...wanted to jump on him. As if I wasn't already as much on him as I could possibly be. Well. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

That's when Lars knocked on the door and said it was time to go home anyway. And Michael nearly dropped me as I tried to scramble into a standing position (while adjusting shirt). So I didn't have much time to think about it then.

BUT I HAD PLENTY OF TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT IN THE LIMO. And right now. Which is why I am so glad my mom and Mr. Gianini aren't up, because I do NOT think I have the strength to talk to them right now. Not when my mind is filled with...feeling Michael.

Which brings me to this question.

What if guys aren't the only ones that get "backed up"?

Because right now I'm feeling like the freaking Vesuvius on the day before volcano day.

But how do I get UN backed up?

I know the obvious answer would be sex, but I am so not ready for that yet. Even if my hormones are seriously crowding my judgment right now.

Well, there's one other way. But I don't know very much about that.

Maybe I should ask Tina about it tomorrow.

NO. NO NO NO. WHAT AM I THINKING!

This DEFINITELY falls under the TMI category.

It might be better to do some online research instead.

Using the Private Browsing option.