Disclaimer: I do not own any Twilight characters and all credit goes to Stephanie Meyers.

Barren

Prologue

'Breathe. Breathe. Dammit Bella breathe!' I scolded myself as another painful keening wail echoed off the bathroom walls. Here I was again. Fetal position, door locked, bawling myself into a state of sickness. How could this have happened? How could I have let myself get worked up to this point again? I had been a solid rock for all these months through the whole battle. Now this. A blow so powerful that in one fell swoop it knocked me clear back to square one.

"Bella?" Shit Edward. "Yes?" Jeez Bella you sound pathetic even to yourself. "Babe are you ok?" He worries about me constantly when this crap comes up. I hate myself even more for making him worry so much. "Yeah I'm fine just taking a moment to myself." My voice started to crack. If I had to speak again I wouldn't be able to hide the tears from him. Thankfully there a long pause as I quietly breathe out my sobs to not alert him. "Alright. Mom and dad will be here soon. I'll come get you when they pull up. I love you " With that his foot steps echoed his retreat. I sighed shakily, my emotions once again gaining control over me. Another painful sob slipped past my lips and my body shook incontrollably.

This wasn't supposed to happen. I had worked so hard to make a shell of iron around my heart. To not let any of it get to me. My iron clad facade had cracked under the heat and pressure leaving me defeneless once again. I can't see Alice anytime soon. I can't even speak to her now. My best friend is now my enemy to my perfectly built wall and I can't let her destroy it. The worst part is she isn't even trying to and it will be very painful to avoid her until I get myself under control again.

'Don't think about it. Control your thoughts.' It wasn't working. It usually did. My mind raced back in time through everything we've been through. All the beautiful and tragic moments since I had my heart stolen by the man outside.

Hello! I have been an avid fanfiction reader for years and decided to take a leap of faith at long last. This is my first fanfiction. I am editing it by myself so please be merciful on the grammatical errors. I hope you enjoyed this short intro. Please leave me helpful criticism and comments!

On the flip side,

Elisa