A/N: I figured I would put my collection of one shots up here, so enjoy if you so choose : ) By the way, Kibbles 'n Bits are fit for human consumption as well. Melt together ½ cup butter, 1 cup peanut butter and 1 cup chocolate chips. Then you pour it over 10 cups of cereal and stir until cereal is coated. Put the cereal in a sack with 2 cups of powdered sugar and shake.

Disclaimer: I do not own anything Castle.


Prompt: To write a page from Kate Beckett's Diary. I chose to show what she wrote following 3x03 as it has what I think has to be my favourite scene- "I was in love with you".


Mamma

I had to arrest Royce today. Do you remember me telling you about him? He was my training officer. I learned so much from him and I fell in love with him. He was the only one who really understood me. He took care of me, he guided me and he saved me. My heart hurts knowing that this man I once saw as so perfect could go down the wrong track.

When I saw him again a few days ago my heart leapt and I felt like I did when I had my first crush. Remember Eric in grade 5? I was so happy to see him and we went out for drinks. I have to admit I wondered if, maybe after all these years, something might have changed between us. I wondered if maybe he would see me as something more than a little girl...

But, it was then that I found out he was on the wrong side of the law. I called him the next day to get a trace on him. It was one of the hardest phone calls I have ever made in my life. I told him about how much he meant to me and that I had been in love with him just in case I never got the chance to speak to him again. I nearly broke down in front of the boys and in front of Castle, but I held it together. I held it together later when I had to point my gun at him, the gun he had helped me learn how to master all those years ago. I held it together when I had to put the handcuffs on him. When I got home though, I just wanted to curl up at the end of your bed and have a good cry. I missed him so much and when I did get to see him, he let me down.

I miss you Mamma, especially after days like today.

Love, Katie.