//Part one of two, next will be Azula's side. This is just something I need ot get out of my system before I update Blood Bonds, but is in no way related to it, except that they're both Zucest Gah, I cant write het. lemon YY but here you go!//
Zuko
Even when we were children...I loved you.
You were graceful, beautiful, a prodigy. Special.
And the knowledge that you didn't love me, even as a sibling...hurt.
I would try to impress you, working to keep up with you and show you I was worthy.
It never worked.
So when you took me aside, with gentle words and soft caresses...I was afraid it was a dream, and I didn't want to wake up.
Sometimes, when I lie awake at night...I let myself pretend it's true...
The sweet nothings you whisper in my ear
and I let myself believe...
that you care.
Would you like to know a secret Azula?
A secret that would ruin everything we have?
I know it's a lie.
You don't love me.
You want to control me.
Use me.
Make me bow to you.
And when you lose interest in me...
When my purpose is fulfilled...
You will dispose of me.
A broken toy.
Obsolete.
Why do I stay with you, then? If I know?
Why do I return no matter how many times you lie?
Because I love you, Azula.
Even though you don't love me.
I want to be by your side.
I want to hear your voice.
I want to hold you close to me.
I want to make you happy.
And so I will be your puppet.
You're toy, bending to your will.
I bow to you, my frigid queen.
And play your painful games.
I give myself to you.
You don't have to love me.
Can you even feel love?
For anyone?
Or just the lust for power.
Coupled with a lust more carnal.
There are times I wish upon a star...
That I could hate you.
For what you do to me.
But I can't.
It's not your fault.
Sometimes...when it's late at night...
But neither of us are asleep...
...Panting...caressing...
My eyes meet yours and...
I want to tell you.
I want to tell you that I know the truth.
I want to tell you that it's okay.
You don't have to love me.
Maybe in another time...
another place...
Under different circumstances...
It could be different.
You could love me.
But I can't.
Because if I do...
The façade will end.
And this fantasy world...
will disappear.
You can't let anything jeopardize your plans.
I know that one day...
All this will fade away.
One day...
you'll reveal the truth.
And you'll discard me.
One day it has to end.
But if I tell you...
That day will come sooner.
So I'm silent...
And let you lie to me...
For one more night.