Disclaimer: I do not own South of nowhere or the characters Spencer and Ashley... I also do not own the song I Love You, Goodbye by Celine Dion and Nina
Ashley's POV
As I sit on the corner of the bed and watch my Blonde blue eyed goddess sleep, I think of everything we been through in this past few months and how much I wish I could stay. But, I can't. I can't be the person she wants me to be. I can't promise her forever. I told her that the day we realized we had feeling for each other. I told her I was no good for her and that I didn't want to hurt, she just smiled and laughed and told me that I could never hurt her, because she knew I loved her.
"Ashley." I hear her murmur softly. I smile softly and lean over and kiss her on the lips on last time before I leave. I have to do this now or I will never be able to.
" I love you, Spence Goodbye." I whisper leaving a CD on the dresser as I grab my bag and my guitar leaving the room not looking back.
Spencer's POV
When I woke up I felt around for Ashley, only to find she was gone. I frowned sitting up looking around the room for her. That's when my eyes fell on the CD propped up on top of my dresser.
Ashley's POV
I grabbed my guitar from it's case as I sat under the pier where Spencer finally told me she was gay. That was the day I realized I was in love with her, but I knew I could never be the one she needed. I should have turned away from her that day and not look back, but I couldn't stay away from her. She was like a drug, my addiction. Slowly and quietly, I began to strum my guitar and sing a song that broke my heart even as I wrote it. I felt tears burn my eyes as I sung softly.
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart
I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Spencer's POV
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
After the song came to an end and Ashley voice faded, I realized that she was gone and never coming back. I wiped the tears from my eyes and sunk to the floor as I read the letter she wrote.
Dear Spencer,
I told you the day you said you fell in love with me, I couldn't promise you forever and that I wasn't right for you. I love you, I do, with all my heart, but I can't stay and try to be something I'm not. Something I wish I could be for you. Walking away from you is the hardest thing I've ever had to, but I know it's for the best. I'm sorry for hurting you.
I love you, Goodbye
Ashley