As I Am Fading
As I fade away, I can only see you. You're my best friend, and I could never speak my mind. I could never tell you my thoughts, my past, my feelings. Now it's almost too late. I'm fading into the darkness of death, with nothing to fear, but you never knowing. Perhaps my loving you is simply me living a lie, but I do.
I'm tired of your silence, I wish you would say something to me. Your tears hurt me. They make me ache far more than whatever physical pain I am currently enduring could ever possibly feel like. There's nothing I would like more than to feel you hold me, hear the words I dream of hearing escape from your lips. I know it never will though.
Because you love him.
There I admitted it. You could never love me, not in the way that you love him at least. Perhaps that hurts even more than the flow of your silent tears. I hope you know that I died for you, to ensure that you would survive.
I can feel my heart beat fading as I lay here. Black spots are beginning to infiltrate my sight as I stare upward at you. Even after knowing you all of this time, you're still the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, you still take my breath away with every step that you take. Your auburn hair shimmers as the lights above hit it, and your eyes betray your fear – and your pain. You were always strong, but I was always the one who could read you like any basic homework assignment thrown at us. Eyes hide nothing, or so I've heard, and I believe it with every part of my being.
You stand over me now, and warm moisture splatters against my cheeks. My vision is beginning to blur as I fade away. This is my last chance, but I'm not sure if I can do it. I'm not sure if I can tell you.
Barely audibly, I manage to choke out my last words, "I love you, Sora."
The last item I taste is the blood in my mouth from the blow.
The last sight I see is your shocked expression.
My eyes fall shut.
The last voice I hear is your voice, "I love you, too, Tai."
The last thing I feel is your lips against my cheek, and a smile spreading across my face.
After that, I know nothing. I awoke in this place and I am watching over you, after I faded away.