AN: My first Once Upon A Time fanfic, This part is about Neal and how he reacts Rumple "dying". Remember to REVIEW!

Neal watched as he saw his father plunged the Dark One dagger into Pan's back. He wished this all his might that he could turn around and close his eyes, he didn't want to see this, to see his father... But he was, and Neal nor anyone else could stop it.

"Rumple...Please" The now Adult Pan rasped out. "You can stop this...Remove the dagger! We can start over...We can have a happy ending..."

"Ahhh, but I'm a villain. And villains don't get happy endings..."

Papa...No...

Rumple twisted his knife deeper into Pan. A bright yellow, ball of light started to envelop his father and Peter Pan. Then they were gone... Regina's scroll that contained the curse, fell to the cement ground. Pan's freeze spell was lifted, they could all move again. He slowly took a few steps forward, he bowed his head. He gulped and then repeated it. His vision started to blur.

"No! No...! Rumple!" He heard Belle sob. He closed his eyes and sniffed quietly. "H-He's gone!". It took everything Neal-no Bae had not to break down.

He felt Emma touch his arm. "I'm so sorry.." She said. Bae lifted his head up. "My father did what he had to do.." He said with a fake smile and a small laugh, trying to hide the hurt and the tears. Bae paused for a second to swallow. "He saved us... Regina don't let him die for nothing." Bae told the "Evil" Queen. Don't. Please Regina, if you have a shred of respect for my father, don't let him have died in vain.

...

Baelfire cried out as he jerked awake. He sat straight up, panting and gasping for air. Bae could feel sweat dripping down his forehead, he whipped it away as he looked around the dark room.

Nightmare. It was just a nightmare. Bae realized. One he feared of coming true even after Rumple let him go through that portal, even now. He was being silly, His father couldn't die, not if someone had his dagger, which he kept hidden, (very well he might add) somewhere, not even Bae knew where it was. And he was okay with that, he didn't need that knife to know that his father had changed, what he did for Henry and him and everyone else was proof enough.

And that proof made him feel like he was on cloud 9, after his father had let him go, Bae thought that there was no chance in hell that he would forgive Rumple for what he did, when he got stabbed by Hook and Bae saw how fragile he looked, how human he looked, he realized deep down that (though he denied it to the Dark One) he wanted so badly to give his father a second chance. Cause though he was hurt and betrayed by the man, he missed him than anything. And now he was able too do just that, he got him back, it took a long time, but he got his Papa back.

Bae smiled. No longer panting from his nightmare. He suddenly got the urge to go find his father and just talk to him, to see him. God knows he hasn't had that feeling in a long time, and damn it felt good to feel that need for his Papa again. Bae tossed the covers off himself and...froze when he felt the door knob wasn't even a knob. In fact the door itself, didn't even feel like the one's that were in his father's house.

He threw the door open: No... No no no! He thought horrified. The hallway he was looking at wasn't the one he was use to walking down, or seeing. It was a castle, The Dark Castle, his father's castle. In that moment he remembered; Regina telling them the only way to save them was for her to give up the thing she loved most, Henry. Telling them they all had to go back to the Enchanted Forest, all except Emma and Henry. Telling the one he loved and his son goodbye as he watched them drive away as the purple smoke engulfed himself and everyone else, Arriving back home, everyone going there separate ways, except for himself and Belle...

Bae couldn't believe it, that nightmare wasn't a nightmare, it was a horrible, horrible memory. Rumplestiltskin was... "No!" He said, it wasn't true! It couldn't be! "Papa!" He called out, running down corridor after corridor. He can't be gone! Not now! Not when I finally got him back! "Papa! Where are you!?" His father had escaped death before, he was the Dark One for god's sake, he had to be okay!

Baelfire opened up door after door, not caring in the least if he woke up Belle. The next door he opened was his father's dining room. He looked around the room, turning his body in circles

"This is not funny, Papa. Stop hiding." He announced, when he was young, Bae remembered (before Rumple became the Dark One) his father playing hide & seek with him, Bae would always win though, every time he would call out to him, Rumple would give away his position and scoop up his boy in a hug, he just couldn't be apart from his son, even if they were only playing a game. Maybe that's what he was doing now... But then if that were so, how come he didn't show himself the first time he called for him, he would always come out the moment he called his name. He never kept him waiting before, why now? Unless he in fact was, that the reason he wasn't right in front of Bae was because he was...

"PAPA!" he yelled slamming the side of his fist against the wall, it shook and from the corner of his eye Bae saw something lightly fall to the ground, he walked over to it before he knew what he was doing. It was a picture, or in this case a drawing, they didn't have photographers here, so someone drew this, the drawing was of Rumple holding a much younger, probably five or six years old version of himself, his younger self looked to be giggling, a huge smile on his face, finger tips lightly touching his father's face, who had his forehead pressed up against his small one, a small but happy grin a crossed his tired, wrinkled face. The look in his eyes, how he gazed at the young Bae, it was the same gaze he noticed his father giving him after they arrived in Storybrooke, after he realized his son was alive instead of dead, and even more so when Baelfire finally forgave him.

He absolutely adored him, Bae remember moments of his life where he'd wake up and see his Papa laying down beside him, staring at him, smiling. He'd run a hand through his hair and that motion would make him fall back asleep, he'd do so even after he obtained his magic. He always tried to give Bae every thing he didn't have growing up, he tried so hard. Every day and night his Papa would try and give Bae happiness, always promising that he would never leave him. But feeling fear for the slightest second had broken that promise, and he had to grow up without a father anyway.

Baelfire notice there were words up on the top right corner of the paper. They read;

To my beautiful, Bae.

I maybe a coward

But I will fight for you, always

You are my world, son. All I want is your happiness.

I love you. And always will. ~ Papa

His vision blurred over and he could no longer see the words. He's gone... He thought and his heart broke. Tears fell from his eyes as he came to this realization. He hugged the drawing to his chest.

"Papa...Papa!" he sobbed. It wasn't fair, they had just found each other and now... "C-Come back, Papa...Please!" he sounded like a child than an adult. Most people would be embarrassed, feel foolish, but right now Bae couldn't care less.

"I need you, p-please..." and it was true. He did, he had no one now, except for Belle. Of course he'd comfort her and she'd do the same for him, but it wasn't the same. It will never be the same, as much as he wished it was. She could never replace his father, and he thinks she knows that and is okay with it.

It's not fair! None of this is! Why!? Why'd did I have to lose him again!? Why!?

"Why!?" Bae sobbed out falling to his knees, he hugged the paper tighter to his chest. "Papa! P-Papa!"

His father has sacrificed so much to find him, to bring Baelfire back to him, to see him, to apologize. And had Bae done? When he saw him for the first time since that night in the forest? He rejected him, told him to leave, like he did last time. Sure, he had every right to be feel the way he was toward his father. But now? Knowing that, though everyone could see plain as day (including him) the angry Dark One and sometimes that's all they saw, but Bae, in the right light, could see him. The man he once was. The good, sacrificing man, he loved so much. He could see his father. His Papa.

Baelfire wished he could turn the clock back to that moment, and had done things differently, but he wasn't magical like Rumple was, like Regina, Hell like Emma. He was just... ordinary. His father was gone, for good this time. And when that realization wormed it's way into his thoughts, it only made his heart ache even more.

As Bae sobbed and cried for his papa, he couldn't help remembering that day.

And everything else...

AN: SOoooo! Whatcha guys think? I was literally shocked when I saw there was barely if none at all ficlets on Bae's reaction to seeing HIS FATHER "die" after they all went back to their world, I mean wth? Do people dislike Neal Cassidy that much?

As you can probably see I LOVE Rumple and Bae's relationship, every time Bae said 'Papa' I wanted to hug my TV. And when they hugged in "Save Henry"? I frickin melted with happiness! I was all "THIS IS THE MOMENT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR!" XD

Each chapter will be about different moments in Bae'a life, past and present day. All centered around and his wonderful Papa!

So I hope you all enjoyed this! Remember to REVIEW! And I'll see you guys in the next chapter!