Disclaimer: I do not own Glee... If I did, a number of things would be different...
Authours Note: Just a quick one shot that came to me randomly... I just wanted to write this because of something that happened to me recently and it kinda helped clear my mind. The part where it says about what he once heard, I was actually told that by someone I worked with after my Uncle killed himself... So, this helped clear my mind and stuff... review if you want...
Blaine didn't know how he had gotten there but, when he awoke; he was on his bed, fully clothed and clutching a piece of paper in his hand. His whole body felt numb, except his heart which ached. Ached with the pain of what he had been told, ached with the knowledge he would never see Kurt again. He took a deep shuddering breath and tried to sit up, his mind spinning as he continued to clutch the note. He didn't remember reading it, didn't remember being given it. He threw his legs over the side of the bed, looking down and unfolding the note, taking in a deep breath…
Dear Blaine,
I love you which is why this is so hard for me to write.
I'm sorry I can't be brave anymore. I'm sorry I can't do this anymore. I know I told you it was over, that the bullying had stopped and that I was fine but, I never was. I just never told you because I refused to show you weakness.
I once heard that suicide is the coward's way out. That they bare no thought for the people they are leaving behind. I can't think of that when it is too hard for me to be alive anymore.
Don't dwell on me. Move on and find someone else. I don't deserve your love anymore…
I love you Blaine
Kurt
Blaine didn't know how it had happened but he was standing and the wall opposite was dripping with water onto the shards of glass on the floor. He sank back to the bed, tears escaping his eyes and flooding down his face, onto his knees his head pressed against them. He discarded the note to the floor and balled his fists… Why would Kurt leave him here alone? Why didn't care just tell him about the bullies? Maybe all of this could have been avoided, if only Kurt had have come to him.
Blaine nodded at his thoughts; a lot could have changed…. If Only….