This is a letter that Carlos wrote to James, hopre you like it.

I know you care:

Even though sometimes you try to act cold, I know you care, even if you try to act like nothing really affects you or that you don't care about anyone, I know that's not true.

I have to admit that even though sometimes I complain about the way you are, it really doesn't bother me. That's the way I had known you and I feel in love with you being that way so I wouldn't change anything about you and besides I know that you do care, even if you don't show it in public I know that you really love me.

I know it because when we are alone, just you and I, your coldness and the wall that you put sometimes are totally gone, you kiss me and you show me how much you really love me, you hug me and I feel I'm in heaven. Every time you tell me that you love me I feel like the happiest man alive, however you don't say it often. Everything is just so perfect when we are together.

I know you care about your friends, I remember when Kendall had an accident, and you called me extremely worry because you didn't know if it was a serious accident or not, hopefully it wasn't, he just broke his leg, I also remember that you look so worried when I saw you waiting for him in the hospital or that other time when Logan was sick while we were on tour and you were worried because Logan was feeling bad not because of his performance on stage. Even though you try to hide it all the time I know you care.

Even though you hardly ever hold my hand while we are walking on the street or show much affection when we are in public and even though you are not romantic I know that deep inside you are pretty romantic.

I also know that you have a big heart and also that you have a big weakness for animals I have saw you feed some cats and dogs on the street and talking to them like if they were babies or little kids while you caressed them and even if you pretend to be a cold person I know you are not. Maybe one day I will give you a dog as a present, I know you will pretend you are angry with me but I am sure you will love it in the end.

I will always remember the day of my birthday last year that was the day of our second anniversary as well; you came to my house with my favorite chocolate in one hand and a picture of us in the other, and when I open the door I realized that you looked like a tomato, actually your face was even redder than a tomato, you looked so cute at that moment.

You were dying from embarrassment and it was so obvious, you looked so sweet and cute that couldn't help it and I laughed at you at first, your face was priceless, then I wanted to cry my eyes were full of tears; I was so fucking happy, and not because of the gift I was like that because I knew that was your way of telling me that you do care, that you do love me, the fact that you left your pride aside and did something so cheesy was the best way you could should me that you really care about me, it made me so happy. Your face said more than a million words at that moment; I know it hadn't been easy for you to buy the chocolate print the picture and came to my house, but you did.

I also know that you gave me the picture because you want everyone that enters my room to know that we are together and so I can have you close to me even when you are not. I remember your face when I turned the picture and read what you have wrote there, you were like a tomato again and you were looking at the floor, the picture said "Happy birthday! Love you, Carlos & James " and below that was the date of our anniversary, at that moment I hugged you so hard, you smiled and then kissed me with so much love and even though you didn't tell me "I love you" with words that day, you did a lot of thing that said those worlds, you show me that you love me. The picture and the chocolate weren't the only gift you gave that day, you also gave me a watch that we had seen together and I told you that I liked it, that's why I know that you pay attention to me when I talk to you, even though sometimes you act like you don't care and tell me that I talk too much.

I know you care because every time I don't answer your messages for some reason, you call me worried to make sure nothing bad has happen to me; however your excuse is always "I was tire of writing so I just called you" but I can hear the worry in your voice when that happens, you can't hide anything from me, Diamond.

I also know that you get jealous, even though you deny it all the time, every time a girl tries to flirt with me and you are there I can see that your face gets tense, you get serious and you get uncomfortable with the situation. I'm sure you can't stand seeing me with another person even when one of our friends hugs me or something you get jealous I can see it in your eyes and face, you may not realize it but it's easy to know what you are feeling just by looking at your face.

I also know it because once you told me that you were tired of girls flirting with me with the hope I will give them a chance and you told me you couldn't stand that because you were extremely jealous, we were in a bar and you were a little drunk but you said it, and then you denied saying that the next day, but I heard it and I even have witnesses.

I also know that even if you try to act serious sometimes you want to laugh when I am with the guys doing something stupid and acting like if we were children, I have saw you leaning against the wall looking at us and trying to hide a smile.

You always show me that you care every time we are fighting about something and you realized that you were wrong that time; you put your pride aside and say you are sorry, you have rarely done it, you only said it when the fight is out of control and you are afraid of losing me, but, believe me, that will never happened or at least not in the near future, I don't know how to live without you, I don't even remember my life when you were not there.

I know that you care about what people say, sometimes people is not very nice with us when they see us together and it might be true that you don't care about what people said about you but the problem is when someone said something about me you just get angry and want to punch the other person, hopefully I am always there to calm you down, your face is to beautiful to get hurt for an stupid fight.

I also know you care; you have always been with me and also the other guys when we needed you and I am sure you always will.

For these things and many more I know you care about me and other people as well even if try to hide it all the time. And I want to tell you that I love you with all my heart, I'm happy with you, happy than ever and after three years of our awesome relationship I keep loving you even more than before, I know that nothing is forever but I want this love to be the exception and if it's not I'm sure I will always remember the good time that we had.

I love you, Carlos

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