I made a promise to you,
And I broke it.
I didn't mean to,
I didn't try to.
It wasn't my fault.
I had no idea.
I know you blame yourself-
You promised you'd never let that happen.
But it was out of your control,
Out of my control,
Out of anyone's control.
You know that.
You know that you don't have to blame yourself.
But you want to.
You have to.
You have to blame someone,
And you would never even dream of blaming me.
Do you ever wonder how it all happened?
I do, and I was there.
It was stupid of me to think myself invincible.
You'd warned me against places like that, people like them…
I didn't listen.
I should have.
But I acted like I walked a few steps above the ground
And that nothing could touch me.
I was a bird, flying free, never afraid.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
If anyone should be blamed, it's me.
For having such confidence,
For being so ignorant,
For letting my guard down,
For failing you,
For breaking my promise.
I hope you can get over losing me,
Because really, I wasn't good enough for you.
You deserved more than me, someone better than me.
I see that now.
I can tell you that you did nothing wrong
Because it's true.
You were perfect; I was the one who was so flawed.
The way you acted, you thought I was an angel:
"Part of the clouds."
Well, you got that part right.
I'm part of the clouds now, and part of the air, part of the trees, part of the water, part of the grass…
I'm part of everything around you.
Looking out for you, to make sure you don't hurt so much.
To protect you from a similar fate.
I haven't truly died; I'm still right here with you,
Just in spirit, not body.
I know your loss keeps you up at night, but you don't need to cry for me anymore.
What's done is done; you can't go back.
You can't stop those thugs from sneaking up behind me,
From knocking me to the ground,
From taking my money,
From shooting a bullet through my skull.
I promised you I wouldn't go out and get mugged and murdered.
I crossed my heart.
But I guess my heart wasn't in it.
I'm sorry I lied to you.
A promise is a promise, no matter how impossible it is to keep.
I'm so sorry, Batman.
I'm sorry I let you down, and I hope that someday you will forgive me.