A/N: Well it's been 3 years since I've last written a story, so forgive me if this first chapter is a little dumb. Trust me, it gets better lol. I don't own Instant Star (that'd be nice if I did though) or any of the characters used in this obsessed-fan's story. The title comes from a song by Boys Like Girls, and each chapter is named after either a song used in the chapter, or just songs I like :) haha.

Summary: Jude and Tommy were happy with everything. But someone comes in and wrecks it all, causing Tommy to flee, and leaving Jude alone with her secrete to deal with on her own.

Learning To Fall

Chapter 1: All Around Me

Jude Harrison woke up and glanced at the clock. Muttering to herself, she turned her head and looked at the adorable, sleeping figure besides her: Tommy. She smiled to herself, happy with the past 2 years of her life.

It all started a few weeks before her 18th birthday in the church when they kissed. It's what brought their love to life at last, it's what made her life complete.
Since the kiss, they've become very serious with one another, and they didn't care what people thought of them together. Well, most people, like Kwest, were happy to finally see them together. But people like Jude's older sister Sadie wanted them apart as fast as possible. Sadie wouldn't admit it, but she still was head over heels for Tommy. She still dated guys, but she always compared them to Tommy.

Sadie get even madder when Tommy asked Jude to move into his apartment with him after a year of dating. That pretty much put Jude and Sadie on no speaking terms until they finally rekindled a few months later. They we back to normal now, expect the inner anger Sadie held against Jude.

Tommy and Jude spent every single possible together. Either in the studio, in the office, or in between the sheets. They never got sick of each other, and loved each other dearly.

Jude sighed happily, slowly taking her time getting out of the warm bed. She loved her life now. She couldn't have been happier. She had the perfect boyfriend, and she was almost done with her 4th album.

"Jude?" said a groggy voice that was coming from under the covers. Jude smiled and stood up.

"Quincy it's only 8, go back to sleep." Jude said, adjusted the covers on him.

With a grunt, and mumbling, then silence, she took it that he did as she said and went back to sleep.

Jude put on a hoodie, and went into the kitchen to start the coffee for Tommy when he eventually woke up, and to make herself a bowl of cereal.

When Tommy did roll out of bed an hour later, he found his lovely girlfriend of 2 years on the couch, with her guitar and writing music. It was a usual sight for Tommy to see when he woke up. It was as natural for him as having licorice with his coffee for breakfast.

"Morning babe" Tommy said and kissed the top of Jude's head. Jude looked up and smiled at him. "Morning Tommy. How'd you sleep?"

"I slept good, but some annoying little blonde woke me up getting out of bed this morning." He said with a smile on his face. Jude laughed and shrugged.

"Don't know who. Anyways, we're expected at the studio by 10 to start recording, so you better get a move on." Jude said. Tommy looked at the clock and swore under his breath. Then grabbed his licorice and coffee to bring to the shower with him.

"My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing"

"Jude that was great, come back in to listen to feedback." Tommy said with a smirk on his face. It still amazed him that after 4 years of working with her that she can just write down all her feelings, and then sing them like an angel.

After they listened to the feedback, Tommy decided to give the crew a lunch break and went out to the kitchen to order a pizza.

Six hours later, Jude flopped down into her queen size bed and sighed. "Two songs down, 14 more to go"
Tommy laid down next to her in just his boxers. He kissed the top of her head. "You did wonderful. Next thing you know, we'll be having the release party."

Jude rested her head on her hand and looked up at him. "I don't know Tommy. I'm put under a lot of pressure for this album. It's my fourth album, and everyone's expecting a lot. A lot of people are expecting this one to suck ass, but I gotta prove them wrong, I have to prove that I'm always good at what I do."

Tommy leaned down and kissed her. "I think someone's stressed out, and I think I know a way to de-stress the rock star." He said with a sly grin on his face. He removed the rest of his clothing… and I bet you can guess what took place the rest of the night.

"Yo T, you notice Jude's been acting.. A little…I don't know… moody lately?" Kwest came up to him and said few weeks later. Tommy gave him a questioning look and reached into the refrigerator and pulled out a soda.

"What'da mean"
"You know how I'm producing her track Will You? Well I ask her to rewrite the 2nd verse because it didn't fit in with the song, and she got all upset and started crying, then ran into the bathroom." Kwest said and rubbed his forehead in frustration.

"She's under a lot of pressure for this album Kwest. A lot of people are counting on her to make this album better than the other three and she's having trouble dealing with the stresses. Don't worry, I'll talk to her later and have her rewrite the 2nd verse for you." Tommy said and Kwest nodded a thanks and went over to Sadies desk.

Kwest walked up to his beautiful girlfriends desk and kissed her on top of her pretty head. "Sadie, you have a second"
She looked up and smiled, while setting down her pen and removing her head set.

"For you, I have 2. What's up?"

"It's your sister.." He started.

"Oh jeeze, is she getting an attitude with you again? I told her to stop being Miss. Snappy." Sadie said with a frown.

"No, no, it's not that. She's just been acting really moody for like the past week." Kwest then proceeded to tell Sadie what he told Tommy about the rewrite of Will You.
Sadies face dropped once he ended the story.

"That explains it…" She said, more to herself than Kwest.

"What are you talking about? Right about what?" Said Kwest with concern.
Sadie looking all around her and leaned in towards Kwest. "Well, while I was cleaning the other day, I found something in Jude's room that might explain all of this." She whispered.

"What was it?" He asked as he and Sadie watched Jude come out of the bathroom, looking like she never had that mini-breakdown minutes before.

Sadie bit her bottom lip, and argued with herself on whether to tell Kwest now.

A minute later, she sighed and looked back up at him.

"It's not the time or the place, but after work we'll go out to dinner and talk. I promise." She said and kissed him quickly on the lips.

"Now go back to work, so I can get some work done." Sadie said, and put her head set back on. She internally sighed, knowing the drama that was about to unfold in her life.

He's been watching them for weeks. Envying their lust and love for each other.

Wanting what they had.

He knew one way to get it. It was the only way.

He had to get rid of Him.

'He's caused me so much pain' He thought. 'Now it's his turn to feel what I've gone through.'

'I'll do the worst thing ever.

I won't kill him.

I only want him alive, so all he can feel is pain.'