Title: My Angel, My Savior
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I own nothing, blah, blah, blah....
Notes from Nori: Hello, this is Nori back to bring you more drama and
angsty goodness! ^^ With my writer's block with my other fic, I decided to
try something new. This is a little teaser for a fic I'm formulating. Its
Ryuichi's PV so...yeah. Enjoy.
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I'm one of those doomed people who aren't capable of finding true love. I'm surrounded by love from all of my friends, but it's not the same. I want--- no, I -need- true love. Behind my facade of childish innocence and naive behavior I've yearned for somebody to share my soul with. Somebody to complete me, to console me, and just loves me for me. Most people would laugh if I said this of course, they'd say,
"Oh Sakuma-san! You have the choice of any person in the world! Everybody loves you!"
"No," I'd say sullenly. "They love my music, my body and my money. They don't love me, they can't. They don't even know me."
And of course, that's true. Sure my music gets me attention, but it's all perpetual or financial. Nobody knows the real me, the me that needs love and devotion like everyone else. I'm surrounded by love wherever I turn and it's only a constant reminder of something that I'll never be able to find. Tohma has Mika, Shuichi has Yuki, Noriko has her husband to love-- why isn't there anyone for me? I've tried so many times to find a soul mate. A companion who won't desert me, no matter what happens, but it seems as if that person doesn't exist for me. I'm alone in this world, there is nobody who can save me. I often ask my self why I was put into this lonely existance, but reliaze; though I lack love, my life isn't pointless.
I'm doing what a I love with people who I can trust. Noriko and Tohma have always cared for me and I hope they always will. I love them both more than anything, but it's still not the same. At the end of the day Saki still skips up to her mother and they leave hand in hand, Noriko's husband greeting them both with bear hugs by the car and then driving away; each day Mika still calls Tohma to check up on him, tell him she loves him and express her thoughts of the day, wishing him well until he comes home that night. They're so happy with the ones they love. I say my good-byes and head to my lonesome apartment, my most trusted friend, Kumagoro, with me. He's my only comfort. No, I'm not bitter, I'm truthfully happy for all my friends. They deserve happiness in their lives they deserve it all. I wonder though, why don't I deserve it? Why can't I be happy too? I've tried, honestly I have, but it's always useless in the end. There's nobody in this world who understands the real me. Maybe I'll just spend my life alone.. __________________________________
I was going to continue and have an OOC (I don't think she's that Mary- Sueish!) come in. No she won't end up in a romantic relationship with Ryu- kun if my fic goes according to plan, but she will help him. And everyone wants to see Ryu happy right? ^^ Anyway let me know if I should continue! -Nori
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I'm one of those doomed people who aren't capable of finding true love. I'm surrounded by love from all of my friends, but it's not the same. I want--- no, I -need- true love. Behind my facade of childish innocence and naive behavior I've yearned for somebody to share my soul with. Somebody to complete me, to console me, and just loves me for me. Most people would laugh if I said this of course, they'd say,
"Oh Sakuma-san! You have the choice of any person in the world! Everybody loves you!"
"No," I'd say sullenly. "They love my music, my body and my money. They don't love me, they can't. They don't even know me."
And of course, that's true. Sure my music gets me attention, but it's all perpetual or financial. Nobody knows the real me, the me that needs love and devotion like everyone else. I'm surrounded by love wherever I turn and it's only a constant reminder of something that I'll never be able to find. Tohma has Mika, Shuichi has Yuki, Noriko has her husband to love-- why isn't there anyone for me? I've tried so many times to find a soul mate. A companion who won't desert me, no matter what happens, but it seems as if that person doesn't exist for me. I'm alone in this world, there is nobody who can save me. I often ask my self why I was put into this lonely existance, but reliaze; though I lack love, my life isn't pointless.
I'm doing what a I love with people who I can trust. Noriko and Tohma have always cared for me and I hope they always will. I love them both more than anything, but it's still not the same. At the end of the day Saki still skips up to her mother and they leave hand in hand, Noriko's husband greeting them both with bear hugs by the car and then driving away; each day Mika still calls Tohma to check up on him, tell him she loves him and express her thoughts of the day, wishing him well until he comes home that night. They're so happy with the ones they love. I say my good-byes and head to my lonesome apartment, my most trusted friend, Kumagoro, with me. He's my only comfort. No, I'm not bitter, I'm truthfully happy for all my friends. They deserve happiness in their lives they deserve it all. I wonder though, why don't I deserve it? Why can't I be happy too? I've tried, honestly I have, but it's always useless in the end. There's nobody in this world who understands the real me. Maybe I'll just spend my life alone.. __________________________________
I was going to continue and have an OOC (I don't think she's that Mary- Sueish!) come in. No she won't end up in a romantic relationship with Ryu- kun if my fic goes according to plan, but she will help him. And everyone wants to see Ryu happy right? ^^ Anyway let me know if I should continue! -Nori