The way we live now.
October 1921
It has been a few weeks since their trip to the highlands. And what a wonderful trip it has been for the two of them. Anna felt such happiness in Scotland. Of course she couldn't share a room with her husband and she missed sleeping next to him. But it had been her first trip to Scotland and she loved everything about it the lochs, sharing a picnic with her husband and dancing the reel. Especially the look on her husbands face, while he watched her dancing, is something Anna would never forget. They were happy, in love and free. But then their trip had to end quite suddenly, when lady Mary had been feeling unwell. Very soon after arriving in Downton the good news came, lady Mary and mister Matthew had a son. And there was a new heir to Downton. However all the happines in the house turned into desperation, when mister Matthew died in a car accident.
Now Anna worked harder then ever, trying to do everything she could for Lady Mary. But no matter how hard she worked, she couldn't bring mister Matthew back and that is the only thing lady Mary wanted. Lady Mary did not leave her room much, she only wanted to see her lady's maid Anna, the one person she trusted the most now her husband was gone. Anna understood her loneliness. She knew how it feels to miss your husband, but when her husband was away she always knew he would come back. Mister Matthew would never come back. The only times lady Mary seemed less sad, was when her son George was with her. The only light in her live. And because lady Mary didn't like the idea of the nanny being in her room. Anna took care of George to. Adding this to her already heavy workload, and all the grieve in the house. It was no wonder Anna had been feeling unwell lately. Her workdays were very long and she would go to bed immediately, even to tired to make love to her husband. And then there was the morning sickness. She didn't tell her husband of all the times she felt poorly. But he knew enough to be worried. Sometimes she felt very agitated, scolding her husband for no reason and then feeling so guilty afterwards. Anna knew she still loved him, the only certainty in live was her love for him, a love that would never die. She just didn't like him being worried about her and fussing over her.
John lie awake, staring at the ceiling. Since he and Anna lived in the cottage he started to sleep better and longer. Especially since the nightmares about prison that had haunted him for months after his release, had gone away. The nightmares that had woken him up screaming in a cold sweat. But fortunately he had his darling Anna, who would hold him until he calmed down. So they could sleep. Some nights however his insomnia still got the better of him. This night worries about Anna filled his mind. She hadn't been herself since the trip to Scotland. The trip had been their perfect holiday, but afterwards with the dead of mister Matthew, Anna changed somewhat. At first his wife had been devastated and he had tried to comfort her as best as he could. But lately she was so tired and even short tempered. His sweet, loving Anna who was always kind to everyone. She also had been ill a few times this last weeks and she wouldn't tell him about it. And although she didn't want him to worry, that was exactly what he did. He tried to take extra care of her. Making her breakfast, helping her with the house chores and asking after her well being. But sometimes all he would get in return was her scolding. Then he remembered something his mother used to say, about how woman could change when they are with child. But John didn't think that could be the reason. They have been living together for over a year now and made love as often as they could. And there had been now sign of a baby. Now in the dark however, it all began to make sense to John. He could see Anna holding their first child, hopefully a girl he thought to himself. A girl with the same beautiful blue eyes and golden hair as her mother. A girl that he could spoil at every opportunity. A girl to read to every evening, before she went to bed. Or a boy a strong, quiet boy, who would be the spitting image of himself. A boy he could teach everything he had learned in this live. His boy would protect all his younger brothers and sisters. Because one thing was certain, if Anna is indeed with child, it would only be the start of their dream. A house full of children or even better a little hotel of their own filled with children, what a wonderful dream. And with this happy thought, John fell asleep again.
That morning Anna was a bit quiet during breakfast. "Is there anything wrong?" John asked. "I feel a little bit nauseous, nothing to worry about". Anna said, giving him a little smile. "Don't you think, you should see doctor Clarkson? You have been feeling unwell for some time now Anna and I do worry about you." John said, giving Anna's hand a little squeeze. "I am quite sure it's nothing but if you want me to, I will go and see doctor Clarkson this afternoon." Anna said. "Good". John smiled. With breakfast over John said. "Let's get to our work now Anna, mister Carson wouldn't be happy if we are late." Then we won't be late", she smiled. And hand in hand they walked to the abbey.
A/N: So this is my first ever attempt to write fanfiction. I hope you leave your review to let me know what you think about the story. This is also the first time that I write anything in English so hopefully you think it is ok. I will try to update regularly. So stay tuned if you want to know if Anna really is pregnant.