Lost & Found

Summary: This story takes place in the current season of Greys. The only difference is Teddy and Addison are a part of the Grey Sloan Team, simply because I love them, and they will be needed throughout this fic. Everything else happened the same. Sophia has just come back to live with Arizona. Callie has not been in very good shape since she left Seattle, but having Sophia leave only makes things worse. This will hit on several serious topics such as depression, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. I suck at summaries but read along. This will be Calzona!
AN: I don't own the characters they all belong to Shondaland and I'm just having some fun with them. I always appreciate and love feedback. This will have several trigger warnings, and I do apologize in advance. Let me know what you think! The idea for this story came to me in a dream and I am unsure of how it will end.

The first few chapters will be told from Arizona's POV

Chapter 1

I am beat. This is the first time I've ever having Sophia all to myself. She has all the energy as any other eight-year-old. Between school, dance and soccer I'm exhausted. When it was three of us it was convenient each of us taking shifts. She was only a tiny baby then. After Mark died and Callie and I divorced we had a good set up going. Switching days and each taking on an activity. Now it's just me and I need to start working out again. As I walk into the cafeteria I spot Teddy and Addison at a table I wave over to them. I'll join them after I grab my food.

"well does Arizona know?" Teddy asks

"I mean I haven't talked to her about my best friend if that's what your asking, it's not really my place," Addison says. As she pops a tomato into her mouth "you and I are the best friends of those two, so I thought it only fitting that you and I become friends."

"well are you actually worried or are you just venting? I mean it's completely understandable that Callie would be sad now that Sophia is back with Arizona full time. I can't believe she actually agreed to it myself" Teddy says disbelievingly

"Yea, well Callie hasn't been quite herself." Thinking for a second "I mean yes, she misses Sophia, but I think that she was sad before this thing with Sophia and now I think this will push her into a full-blown depression. The last I talked to her she sounded a little strange"

"Well if you are really concerned maybe you should talk to Arizona and see if she noticed anything," says Teddy

"Talk to me about," I say as I approach the two women. The two of them came back to work here around the same time and seemed to have formed somewhat of a bond, over what I'm not entirely sure. As their departments rarely overlap. I sit down with the two of them. "so, you guys gonna fill me in or what"

"Addison here was just talking about your ex-wife" Teddy Says

I stop mid-chew "what about Callie?...if she is having second thoughts about Sophia being here, well that's just tough. I had to be without her for a whole year." I feel myself becoming angry.

Addison reaches over and puts her hand on my arm "Calm down Arizona, it's nothing like that. She hasn't mentioned anything to me about Sophia….Come to think about it I haven't heard from her since Sophia moved back here"

I start to calm myself down. "ok, then what?"

"I was just worried about her is all. She wasn't doing so great and I just wanted to know if you knew anything?"

"oh wow," I'm caught off guard with the question "our conversations on the phone are always pleasant, about Sophia, our days and she seems fine, why? what did she say to you?" I become a little concerned. Callie and I, I would say we are at a good place in our current relationship as co-parents. We have finally put everything behind us from the trial and we text on and off throughout the week. Nothing to serious just about what Sophia's been up to, how we are and if we had an exciting surgery. It almost feels like we've become friends over this year and a half.

"nothing, like I said I haven't spoken to her since Soph has been here, but I know before she was a little depressed and she's had a very had time to adjust to the New York life"

Thinking back over our many conversations, she never did mention any hospital gossip or hanging out with anyone. Which is unlike her she kinda draws people to her.

"well, it does take time when you move halfway around the world. It takes time to adjust. Time to make friends. Now that Sophia is here. She and Penny have more time to themselves" Teddy says as she joins the conversation

Addison laughs a little "yea I guess that could work if she and Penny didn't break up months ago" she looks over at the shocked expressions on Teddy's and I face. "what…you guys didn't know." She looks to me "she didn't tell you?"

I shake my head "no, she didn't tell me. I wonder why. Things have been good between us." I'm starting to lose my appetite.

Addison leans back in her seat a little and crosses her arms over her chest "well I didn't mean to spill the beans. I honestly thought you guys knew, it's been what… almost 8 months or so since they called it quits. Well, …that's just when she told me. So, I don't actually know when it ended."

I only have one question on my mind "why is she staying out there all alone now? She sent Sophia back to me, why doesn't she just come home herself?" I look over at Addison.

"only she can answer that, I have already said too much with my big mouth. Please don't tell her I told you about her and Penny"

I shake my head. I hope she's not, not coming home because of me. It would be great for Soph to have both of her parents in one place. I'll have to ask Sophia some questions when we get home this evening. Honestly, I haven't really noticed any big changes with Callie. I mean when they first left we barely spoke. Then when I got Sophia her own phone it went to even less than that. It was around last Christmas that we started speaking on a friendlier level.

We had decided to spend Christmas together in NY. It was the only thing that Soph wanted and I was so happy when Callie had suggested it. Penny was away visiting her family and it felt really nice to just be with my girls. After that Callie's and I, relationship kept going in a positive direction. I would hope that she knows that she could always talk to me about anything.

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Sophia and I are just finishing up our dinner. She's been back for two weeks now and while I couldn't be happier. I can tell that she is missing her mama. They do face time every night and that seems to get Sophia throughout the day.

"Hey, Soph"

"yes mommy" she looks up at me with those big brown eyes, just like her mothers. I see Callie every time I look at her.

"how were things for you and mom when you guys where in NY? I know you were having trouble making friends. But was your mom able to make any friends, did she go out sometimes?"

I see her squinting her eyes thinking. She is so cute when she does that "well when we first moved there, Stacy used to come sit with me, but then she didn't come over anymore"

"did you like Stacy?" I already know the answer. Callie found someone that Sophia really got along with and it was great for her.

"yea, Stacy was the best we would run, color, play hid and go seek and she would take me to the park," She says finishing up her pizza

"did your mom say why she couldn't come over anymore?"

"mama only went to work and then she came back home. She would always pick me up from daycare and then we would come home, sometimes she would take me to the park"

"did mama seem extra happy or extra sad lately" I try to ask her as subtly as I can.

She looks up at me from her plate "mommy why don't you just ask me what you really want to know"

Too smart for her own good, I give her a smile "fine smarty, well was your mama sad sometimes. Did she seem sad that she and Penny broke up?"

Shaking her head, no "she wasn't really happy or sad, Mama didn't really get sad again until later…don't tell her I told you," she quiets her voice like there is someone else in here with us "but I could always hear her crying in her room."

A frown forms on my face "why would mama cry, did she cry a lot?" Callie has always been a little emotional. Never afraid to show exactly what she's feeling.

Shaking her shoulders "I don't know, she just wasn't happy like she was when we lived here" she gives me a strange look "I'll just ask her when she calls me tonight"

"oh no baby, you don't have to do that. I'm sure it's nothing." We are interrupted by my cell phone ringing, I look at it and see it's Carina calling. I ignore it and decide to call her back after Sophia goes to bed. "how about after you talk to your mom tonight, I'll talk to her and see how she is"

"ok mommy, now can I have my ice cream?" she gives me that big smile

"of course, baby, now what kind do you want?"

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"Hey Soph, it's getting late. Let me talk to mama while you get ready for bed" I say.

"ok mommy" she looks back at her screen "mama talk to mommy while I go put my pajama's on but don't hang up you said you would read me my story tonight," Sophia says.

"of course, baby, now do what mommy says," Callie says

Sophia hands me the phone "Hey, Callie" my eyes go wide, we haven't seen each other in some time. "wow… you…you cut your hair?" I say utterly surprised.

"oh yeah, you haven't seen me" I can see a light blush creep up cheeks "do you like it,?" she asks me.

"you look beautiful," I say honestly. She does it's different but totally hot! "what made you decide to do it?"

"I just wanted a change." She says "how's Soph been doing? I know she is happy to be back with all of her friends"

"yes, she is having a sleepover at Zola's this weekend and she really can't wait. She is super excited"

"I'm sure she is. I hope Meredith has some back up for those two"

"yea me too, so how are you doing Callie, Addison said you haven't called her in a couple of weeks, she wanted to know if you've gone MIA," I say laughing a little.

"Tell Ads, I'm ok. I just haven't really been in the mood to talk"

"yea" raising my eyebrow "are you sure you're ok?" she gets a serious look on her face, "you know I'm here for you if you ever need anything right?"

She stares at me for a few moments and shakes her head "I know Arizona, and thank you" She gives me a tight smile, but it's not a real one. Her eyes don't light up as they used to. As I look at her more closely, she looks really tired. Heavy bags under her eyes,

"Are you sleeping ok?" I ask but before she can answer a smiling Sophia comes storming down the stairs.

"mama come on I'm ready" I pass her back the phone.

"Alright, but I want you asleep in 15 minutes young lady" Sophia nods at me and takes off. I hear them both squealing with excitement over the book Callie is about to read with her.

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IN NY

Callie POV

I lay back in my bed my conversations with Soph always bring a smile to my face. She is so much like me and so different from me as a child. Honestly, she is what I imagine Arizona was as a child. They don't share DNA but she is more Arizona's than mine at times. I lift the whiskey bottle to my mouth and take a nice good gulp. It no longer burns on the way down, I've been used to it for a while now.

I could tell in Arizona's eyes that she was worried about me. Addison had better not be running her mouth. Granted I know that I need to give her a call. Maybe tomorrow. It's not like I have anything really stopping me. I spend my days drunk or high probably both, but you can do that when you're unemployed and have a ton of money at your disposal.

I pop a pill in my mouth and take another drink. I feel myself falling asleep. Sleeping is one thing that I still love. I get to escape what my actual reality is.

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