So, after you read this, tell me what you think and if I should go on with this. Otherwise, this is just a one-shot.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Twilight. If I did, I wouldn't be writing on here for y'all. You'd be reading my books. I also didn't write the song. That is from this amazing movie American Mall. Good movie. You should buy it. Its a musical though. Ha.
Sorry's Not
Enough;;
Chapter One - Broken
My heart was broken in two when he left. He's back now though. Its painful still. Everything he said to me, it all cut like razor blades on the skin. I felt like every word he spoke, was just another lie. That's exactly what Edward was. A beautiful liar. How anyone could see past him, I would never know. I sure couldn't. Though, then again I never really loved anyone before. Especially not a vampire.
Edward and I sat in front of the television in the living room. Charlie wasn't home at the moment. Edward channel surfed while I had my face in my Calculus book. I was never good at it, and even though he offered, I wouldn't allow him to help me. I wanted to do something on my own. It was what I needed. I didn't know if at any moment, he would leave me here again. Alone, and wanting to die.
I'm sorry I can't
save,
My heart when it breaks
And scatters in the wind.
How can two words,
"Bella?" I heard Edward's voice over the music. The music played in my head still. "What's wrong, love? Are you getting frustrated? I hate it when you cry."
I didn't know that I was crying. I swiftly wiped away the tears. I didn't know what made them form. I never heard a song almost as beautiful as the ones that Edward would play for me.
Cover the hurt
The others we live in?
Oh, I never
believed
I'd ever need
Anything than I ever did before.There
was something that was with this song. I'd never heard it before, but
it was like it was close to home. It was like I knew the words to the
song.
I tried to keep my concentration on my Calculus homework. My concentration was far too easily distracted, when an ice cold hand touched my face.
"Bella, you're pale. Are you feeling ill? Do you want to go lay down?"
"No. I'm fine, Edward. Really."
"Then why are you still crying?"
Dammit! Stupid traitor tears got me again. I swear one of these days, I'll get them back.
"Just happy." I lied. Edward knew this, but he didn't press the subject any further.
When sorry's not enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Tell me where is the
answer
How do you find the strength
The strength to let it go
The need to just to
live
When sorry's not enough
Life can fall hard...
"Dammit, Bella. Stop hiding whatever it is. Just tell me what is wrong."
I looked at him and wiped the tears that I could now feel rolling down my face. I took a deep breath. "This song. Its painful, but it fits."
He looked at me like he didn't understand. There was silence between the two of us. The song continued on.
Even the sky
That remembers
How bad it burns
We won't pretend
When
next time begins
Because it makes us
Live and learn
Edward was listening intently to the song. His jaw dropped, which wasn't a normal action for a vampire. I understood the movement all too well. I started to sing along with the song.
Further now I
believe
If I'm gonna need
A little more than I did before
When sorry's not
enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Edward cupped his hand around my face. I shivered, but it didn't bother me much. I rubbed my cheek against his hand.
"I've told you before, Bella. I'm not leaving again."
"You don't know that. You can't see the future. I sure as hell can't, so how can you promise..."
The television was turned off and I was being carried to my room. Edward laid me down gently on it.
"Charlie will be home soon. Tell him you feel ill. I'll be over at seven."
I nodded gently and closed my eyes, retaining the beauty of the man...vampire standing before me. It was a sight, that I wished that I could see for eternity. Even if, those sorry's weren't enough.
