Waiting

Isaac's POV

Sitting on the front porch looking out towards the woods I can hear them. The entire pack in the house huddled in the kitchen. They were trying to whisper but my werewolf ears were picking up the entire conversation without even trying.

"Seriously something is wrong we have to do something." That sounded like Scott. I can tell he is trying to keep his voice down, but Scott always has this frantic, intense growl y thing going on. It was a direct contradiction to his puppy dog look, sort of like an adorable, less intimidating version of Derek.

" You don't have to do anything. Just leave him, he'll come around soon." Oh Derek was getting all growly, he meant business.

"Derek you know we can't just continue to leave him this way." Stiles sounds worried, in fact they all sound worried. I never meant for any of this to happen.

"Fine I'll talk to him, but the rest of you give him space until he's decided he's ready to talk, or until I say it's time, understood?"

After everyone agreed and gave their promise it seemed as though they were breaking up and going on with their day.

Thank goodness, maybe now I won't have to constantly worry about the rest of them giving me strange looks anymore.

"Isaac"

Shit, I did not hear the door open, and I definitely did not hear him step out onto the porch.

"Yes Sir?" I reply turning to face Derek.

"Let's walk" With that Derek began walking down the path not bothering to turn around. Like he knew I would follow him. Of course I would follow him; I would follow Derek just about anywhere.

We had already been walking for about five minutes and Derek hasn't said anything, I was starting to worry. I tried scenting his mood, tried to pick up any traces of anger, but Derek has been practicing suppressing his scent. We can still smell him, that will never change, but we can no longer tell if he's angry just by smell.

The longer we walk the more nervous I can feel myself become. Silence like this has always put me on edge. You can never tell exactly what the other person is thinking.

"Sir I'm sorry if I've done something wrong."

Finally Derek turns to look at me, and my eyes automatically drop to the ground.

"You haven't done anything wrong, but the last few days I have tried to give you space, I've held the others back, tried to give you time to deal with whatever it is that has been bothering you, but it's been long enough. The past three days you have spent every waking hour alone on the porch, not talking, not doing anything. I think it's time you tell me what's going on."

"I don't know what to say, I don't really know how to explain what I've been feeling. For the last few days I've had a really strange feeling, something I can't seem to ignore. It's like when you get that feeling in your gut that something bad is going to happen."

"So you think something bad is coming?" Okay so Derek doesn't sound angry, that's a plus. He actually sounded interested.

"I wouldn't say that it's something bad, but my wolf has been going a little crazy. It's like he's expecting something to show up at any minute." God I sound crazy. This is why I avoided answering any questions the last few days.

"Okay Isaac, I won't ignore what you're saying, I just wish you had come to me because sometimes our wolves can feel things that we don't understand. I'll allow you a little more space, but that's it. After today no more sitting on the porch in isolation, we're a pack, and the others will start to get restless with the separation."

"Yes Sir, I understand, after today no more."

Derek looked at me for a long while not speaking.

"Is there anything else that you want to tell me?"

"No Sir, that' about it"

"Okay, if you're sure"

"I'm sure" God I hope Derek doesn't hear how fast my heart is pounding right now.

"If you're still having problems after today we will deal with them as a pack"

"Yes Sir, I understand"

I stand there long after Derek heads back to the house. I understand what he is saying about the rest of the back becoming restless. I do miss them, and my wolf misses them too. He can sense them close, he wants to interact with them, but whatever it is that has him on edge is a lot stronger than the need he feels to interact with the rest of the pack.

I do feel a little bad for not telling Derek the whole true. I've never actually lied to the Alpha before and it didn't feel good. I'm a little worried about what he will do if he finds out I didn't tell the truth. Yes I am confused about what I am feeling, but I wasn't completely honest about everything. I'm beginning to freak out a little. My wolf is starting to get out of control and I don't know if I can continue to hold him back. The first day that I noticed the change it was very subtle, my wolf was a little more excited than usual, but the next day he was practically wagging his tail. Then today was the big change. The wolf wasn't angry but it felt like he was trying to claw his way out. Like he was tired of waiting for whatever it is he's expecting.

I've been so worried that I haven't been able to eat anything in the past twenty-four hours. That may not sound like a long time, but for a werewolf twenty-four hours without food is shocking. I think what worries me the most is that if Derek finds out that I'm having trouble controlling the wolf that he'll put me in chains. It was one thing to agree to wear the chains during the full moon, but I'm not sure I can handle them during any other time. I have spent more than enough time being locked up. I would do just about anything to avoid that.