New Beginnings – A Psuedo-Essay
By Neal C.
The
church was empty. Everyone who wanted
to had already paid their 'respects'.
There weren't many, but there were more than she would have expected. She lay there, looking much like she did in
life. There was no makeup to give the
pretension of life, as she had requested.
There was no beautiful gown, she wore what she would have had she been
in attendance at the funeral. Her boots
were firmly on her feet and her jacked was zipped halfway up. She looked like she was sleeping. But something was missing.
Out
of the darkness on one side of the church stepped a young man. He was her age, or thereabouts. At first glance he may have been mistaken
for her best friend's older brother.
But if you looked closer, his hair was purple and his eyes were intense
behind his small wire rimmed glasses.
He wore a black t-shirt, blue jeans that had obviously seen better days
and heavy Doc Martin work boots.
Topping it all off was a large leather trench-coat.
With
a determined stride he approached the pulpit and the casket it contained. Looking down on her his eyes misted
slightly. He steeled his gaze and
silently reprimanded himself. Then he
reached into the inner pocket of his coat, and pulled out a pair of glasses
with thick round black frames.
Carefully and gently he set them in their proper place on her face.
"There."
He said quietly in a tired voice. "Perfect."
Then he turned to face the empty pews.
"Were
you all so blind?" He sneered, quietly.
"If you had stayed and listened she might still be with us. But no. You say it's time to pack up and move on. Well, I can't argue with that logic. But we don't have to completely abandon her. I have a life, with other things to do. But.
I'm. Still. Here!
Beside her. Where are
you? She's only truly gone if we don't
take the time. To watch and to write."
"I'm
as cynical as all of you. I know that
once 'Is it College Yet' rolls its ending credits it's the end. After that we have slightly less than a snowball's
chance in hell of seeing her on television ever again. But here."
He pulled out a notebook. "Here
she still lives. And she will live
as long as we want her to. I know I
came into this," He points at the
notebook. "Pretty late in the game. And
I'm not saying we shouldn't move on.
But I am saying we can always come back, always visit. It's not hard and it doesn't cut in to our
time that much."
"I'm
also a realist, however. And I've
accepted the inevitable loss. I know
that most of you will run like roaches with the lights on as soon as the series
ends. On to Bigger and Better
things. As will I, but I'll remember
and I will watch and I will keep writing.
And for me, she'll always be here.
To those of you who will leave and not look back, I say goodbye, I'm
disappointed but I didn't expect any better.
To those of you who will come back and write some when you can, I'll see
you around. And finally to those who
don't want to change, who want to stay instead of just visiting. We do have to move on, just don't move too
far or you'll lose sight."
He
looked around and shook his head at the silence. He sat on the pulpit steps and hung his head. Emotionally exhausted. Then he looked at his notebook and tilted
his head in thought. Producing a pen
and opening the notebook, he wrote a few sentences.
The
clapping startled him. Looking up he
saw her. She was sitting in the front
pew and smirking. He smirked back and
stood up. Sitting down next to her, he
looked over at her.
"So, how did I
do?"
She gazed into the
middle distance, deep in thought.
Finally she answered. "I don't
know, but I'm up and talking. So it
couldn't have been bad."
He shook his
head. "Yeah, but how long will it
last?"
"How long will you
keep writing?"
He shrugged. "As long as I can, I guess."
She nodded. He stood and offered her his arm. She stood and took it. Together they walked towards the door.
"C'mon," He
said. "Lets get you some sunlight, you
look like a ghost." He smirked
She quirked an
eyebrow. "I'm not sure I want you
writing for me if all your jokes are as bad as that one."
He gave her a
lopsided grin. "So, you up for pizza?"
"Always."
"Good, then go
meet Jane. If I'm not mistaken there's
money in your pocket."
She reached into
her jacket pocket and pulled out some money.
Then she looked up with dawning realization. "Aren't you coming with us?"
He looked down at
her a smirked, sadly. "Nah. I've said what I had to say, so I can't
really hang around much longer. Besides
don't you want to know what happens when you get to the Pizza King?"
She nodded. "Yeah, but don't you?"
He nodded. "That's why I have to go write it."
She looked
thoughtful. "So who's writing now?"
"I dunno' my
subconscious I guess."
"So you're
dreaming."
He seemed to think
about it. "Yeah, I guess that's as good
an explanation as any."
She shrugged. "Then let your subconscious do its
work. Hang around as long as you can."
He sighed. "Okay, I'll meet you at the Pizza King, but
I have to do something first."
She fell into her
usual affable sarcasm. "It's not
another woman is it?"
He looked at her,
then quirked his eyebrow.
She smirked. "Okay, I'll see you later then… right?"
He nodded. "I promise."
She nodded and
walked up the street. He turned back
toward the cemetery and looked for the grave marker. When he didn't find it, he walked into the church. There was no casket, no trace anything had
happened. He nodded his head subtly.
"Perfect." He turned and walked out of the church. He had to meet an old friend for lunch and
he wasn't going to be late. "Hmmm. Better end things right here." He mumbled to himself. Then stopped and pulled out his notebook and
pen. The two words wouldn't come. But nine others did.
"What have I
gotten myself into?" He looked down at his notebook and the nine words. They were at the top of the page and written
boldly.
Stuck in Lawndale
By
Neal C.
TO BE CONTINUED
Author's Notes: I
wrote the beginning of this in response to Ruthless Bunny's essays. It wasn't supposed to go where it went but
my muse hit me in the head with a shovel, now I'm stuck in Lawndale. This could be interesting. As for me looking like Trent, SBBED .D
suggested that I did when I did my Daria Force poster. And I suppose I do, whatever. But watch out for the next fic in this
series and Dega's Irregulars #2. Please
E-mail me at NetUrza@hotmail.com because
I Really, Really want to hear what you have to say about this
one
As always Daria and any other Daria cast member belong to
Mtv which belongs to Viacom which belongs to Satan. So Please don't sue me, I don't have anything to make it
worthwhile anyway.
