All of the characters belong to E.L. James as do parts of their back stories. Some of the quotes belong to Nicholas Sparks due to the fact this is loosely based on The Notebook. I'm not sure if I'll continue this story as I'm currently working on two other stories but I'll give it a try. I know 3 stories at once is a lot but due to my ADD and my overactive imagination I'm currently juggling all 3 stories in my head and I need feedback to keep me motivated to write so it's in your hands.

Summary: What if Christian met Ana when they were both 16? What if he isn't the only one who is fifty shades of fucked up? Could he save her? Could she save him?

-CG has already been Elena's sub for about a year now so you have to remember that. Ana has a different past than in the book and no she is not a virgin in this story when she meets Christian. BDSM does have a little to do with this story. Happy ever after will be a long ways away and it will be up and down for CG and Ana.-

-Every other chapter will alternate in POV. We will start with Christian.-

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Chapter I

Life is one big party while your still young,
but who's gonna have your back when it's all done?
It's all good when you're little you have pure fun,
don't be a fool son what about the long run?

Summer vacation could not have come sooner. I needed to get out of town and away from her. It had been a year since the day I signed that damn paper of Elena Lincoln's. Yes, I wanted help...control. Yes, she is a good fuck and a way to relieve the tension. No, I did not want to be her fucking toy but now I had absolutely no fucking say in it until she let me go. This summer, the next two months, would be different though. I wouldn't have to deal with her. I would spend time with my family and maybe I can even find some decent parties and get drunk. I put my headphones in and turn the music up as I lean back and Mia puts her head on my shoulder and falls asleep. I have missed my little sister. She's the only one who can get this close to me without me flinching away from her, what is it about Mia that's different? You've been asking yourself that forever Grey. Suck it up there is no answer for that other than 'she's Mia.'

We arrive at the lake house on the outskirts of Vancouver about 3 hours after leaving the house. Mia is the first out of the car and I watch as she skips towards the dock on the side of the house no doubt to "talk" with Ethan Kavanaugh. I turn off my mp3 player and go to the trunk to help Elliot with the bags.

"Well looks like the Kavanaugh's brought a friend this year."

I look up to where Elliot is gazing and that's when I see her. She's absolutely gorgeous even though I'm about a football field away from her. She's shorter than I am and has long beautiful brown hair. I wonder what color her eyes are, they're hidden by a pair of sunglasses I can only assume are from Walmart, not that I care I happen to like Walmart better than most designer stores. She's laying next to Kate and has a book open in front of her while Kate is reading some magazine it looks like. I have to know her. The realization hits me and it takes all my strength not to recoil from the intensity of the pain I know will come from Elena when I return home. This time Grey you can't get what you want unless you want to hurt her in the end. I drop my gaze back to the trunk and grab my bag and stomp inside the house. I walk up the stairs and I slam the door to my bedroom and plop face down on my bed.

"CHRISTIAN!"

I hear Mia's high pitched excited yell throughout the house and immediately know that she is planning something for us. She may not be my biological sister but I've known her her entire life and I can tell by her voice when she's got a plan in her mind. "In my room Mia!" I yell back at her and sit up on my bed waiting for her arrival. She doesn't disappoint within minutes she is throwing my door open and bouncing on the end of my bed.

"Okay so there's a carnival that's happening at the lake tonight and Ethan is going." I nod my head not following her plan so far. It's no surprise it involves Ethan Kavanaugh, her crush on the guy is about as apparent as Elliot's fucking crush on Kate Kavanaugh. "The thing is Ethan can't go until late this evening because his sister Kate brought a friend with her and her big brother tagged along, so we'd have to stay out late to hang out at all for it to count. I already asked Elliot and he's being a douche and won't come with me because he wants to hang out with Kate and not stay with me and Ethan all night even though I told him he wouldn't have to and mom and dad said I couldn't go unless-"

"Unless Elliot or I go with you right?" I finish for her and sigh as I figure out her plan. She wants to be able to stay out late so she can flirt with Ethan. Of fucking course Elliot would say no because he doesn't think our 13 year old sister should have any interest in guys yet, I agree to an extent. I don't want her to lose her virginity or anything and I will make damned sure thatdoesn't happen but an innocent summer romance what's the worst that can happen. "Fine I'll go. On one condition."

"What?!" She leans forward and claps her hands together.

I close my eyes and I can see Elena holding that fucking whip about to punish me for what I'm about to say much less think about within the night to come. "You have to find a way to introduce me to Kate's friend she brought with her this year." I open my eyes and raise an eye brow in a challenge to my condition and wait.

She purses her lips and then smiles. "Deal. Thank you Christian!" She hugs me lightly making sure not to touch my chest or my back only my shoulders and then pulls her phone out of her pocket and leaves the room.

I lay back on my bed again and the only thoughts that come to me are of the beautiful brunette that I so badly want to get to know. I've never been the guy who wants to get to know anyone much less a girl. In fact I'm pretty sure my whole family with the exception of Mia thinks I'm gay, which they could keep on thinking if it kept them out of my private life. There was something different about this girl though, fucking crazy that I knew that considering I haven't said one word to her yet but I could sense it. She was different, she was genuine. She's perfect. Damn it Grey. You can't do this, you have to be in fucking control and you can't bring her into your fucked up life. My phone buzzes in my pocket snapping me out of my reverie and I wish like hell I could ignore it but I know I can't.

I hope you're having fun on your vacation. Don't do anything stupid Christian. -E

Damn it. Wouldn't think of it Ma'am. -C

Now if only she will leave me the hell alone for two months. At least this time she didn't mention anything about surprising me with a visit to the family, I hate it when she does that. She always says she doesn't want to impose but she always fucking does. I groan again when my phone buzzes but then smile when I see that it's Mia.

Wear something nice to dinner big bro. We are having visitors. You will get to meet the girl and her big brother who is really cool because I talked to him a minute ago when I went over to invite them all. -Mia

Well Mia doesn't disappoint, it's only been about 20 minutes and she's already made dinner plans. Now what to wear when you meet a beautiful stranger. After thinking about it for a few moments I decide on nothing too fancy just a pair of jeans and a navy blue button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up to my elbows and a pair of chuck taylors. After getting dressed I walk downstairs and silently help my mom finish preparing the quick dinner that she no doubt had to expand for more people, because she like myself couldn't say no to Mia. Speak of the devil she was in the dining room placing the plates and silverware on the table and by the look on her face she was plotting out where everyone would sit. Damn girl had to plan everything, she's definitely a Grey. I go to join her in the dining room and I sit the salad at the center of the table.

"So where am I sitting Mia?"

She smirks at me and points to a chair on her right. "You're sitting here and then I'm sitting there on your left while Anastasia, Kate's friend, can sit here on your right. You're welcome big brother! Now sit they should be here soon. Elliot went to get them."

I do as she says and sits down at the same time she does. Anastasia. I repeat the name over and over it's beautiful. I barely notice my mom and dad come in and sit down one at each end of the table. I do look up when Elliot opens the front door and shows them into the dining room. Ethan automatically comes and sits next to Mia on the other side while Elliot takes his seat across from me and holds a chair out for Kate as he starts the introductions.

"Anastasia, Christopher, this is my mom, my dad, my little brother Christian, and you know Mia." He points at each of us and Mia smiles and waves at them.

Mom stands as does dad and goes to shake their hands. "It's so nice to meet you. Please sit down."

I wait for Anastasia to come sit next to me but instead Kate scoots to the chair across from me and motions for Anastasia to sit next to her while Elliot takes the seat next to my mom. Great. I get to sit by her brother. Well it's better than nothing. He sits next to me and I shake his hand just to be nice. We start eating in silence and I swear I can feel the tension in the room.

"So Kate, how do you know Anastasia?" I look up at her as I ask my question.

Belatedly I realize that in the 4 years I've known her I've never once talked to her. Her eyes widen in shock but she quickly recovers. "We've been friends for a while but we're closer now since she's moving back to Seattle. She'll actually be going to school with us next year."

I nod and turn to Anastasia. "So you've lived in Seattle before?" She looks at me briefly and nods her head then drops her gaze back to her food. "Well I can guarantee you'll like the library, they have almost every book from Wuthering Heights to Twilight." She looks at me in surprise and I meet her blue eyes again. Damn they're gorgeous. "You like books right? I saw you reading earlier when we get here."

"I love to read."

Damn that voice, it's damn near angelic. "What's your favorite book?"

She raises an eyebrow at me. "Anna Karenina and Jane Eyre."

"Hmm both good books. Gone with the Wind is my personal favorite though no one besides those in this house knows I read at all so shh." I put my finger over my lips and she giggles. Damn. I love her giggle.

She drops her eyes back to her plate and I notice that everyone has stopped eating, they're all just staring at us like we've never talked before. It's kinda true Grey, you don't normally talk to anyone but family and here you went and told the girl you actually read. I quickly put more food on my plate and watch Anastasia do the same, it's as if we are both trying to keep from talking anymore. I don't ask anymore questions but every now and then I do catch her looking at me.

"So...Elliot, Christian, do you play any sports?" It's not the angelic voice that spoke instead the question came from the guy sitting next to me, I had no intention of answering him.

"Nah. I like to draw though, actually starting college next year to be an architect." I hear Elliot answer the question and then I feel a swift kick meet my ankle under the table. I glare up at him and he nods his head toward Christopher subtly.

"I like sailing, kick boxing, and baseball and no I don't play baseball." I look at him as I answer his question and he nods at me smiling. Why the hell is the guy smiling at me? He didn't smile at Elliot, is the fucker gay?

"My dad like baseball and so does Anastasia. Right Annie?" I observe him as he looks at her and meets her eyes in what looks to be a pleading stare? Why would he plead with his sister? I see her nod and then look back down at her food. "So Christian who is your favorite team?"

"The Mets."

He nods. "Annie you like them right?" She nods and I could have sworn I heard him mumble the words 'he's not him.' Who the hell is him and why would he mumble that I'm not him?

No one talks anymore after that really and Anastasia seems to relax again but only a little bit. I can't keep wondering what her brother meant by I'm not him, did someone hurt her? I'll kill them if they did. Wait where the hell did that come from? After Mia and my mom clear the table all of us 'kids' as my parents said head off to the carnival on the other side of the lake. Elliot and Kate quickly go off on their own and I tell Mia to meet back up with me later but to text me so I know she's okay. I'm then left with Anastasia and Christopher who seem to be having a disagreement a few feet behind me but I can't hear what they're arguing about. I don't approach them, instead I opt to let them have their moment and pretend to be interested in something on my phone. I don't want to listen to what they are saying but then Christopher's voice raises and what he says makes me almost stop breathing.

"I don't know what that fucker did to you Annie but you're not the same. You went to live with mom and that dick 4 years ago and we didn't hear a peep from you until you showed up on our doorstep wanting to live with us again and showed us papers that basically said Carla was allowing Ray to be your guardian. I may be just your step brother or ex-step brother since they aren't married anymore but dammit I worry about you! You haven't talked to ANYONE in the 5 months you've been here. Not me, not Ray, not even Kate but you talked to CHRISTIAN! I don't know what it is Annie but I can feel what you feel, that connection you feel with him I can feel it to. Maybe it would do you some good to let him in. TALK to him."

I nearly drop my phone. She hasn't talked...I didn't talk for a long time it wasn't until they brought Mia home that I starting talking and even then it was limited. I remember one of the many shrinks mom sent me to said the reason I talked to Mia was because I felt safe with her, does that mean Anastasia feels safe with me? I pocket my phone again and then I see the booth in front of me with a dozen teddy bears hanging up and before I make the decision I walk over and pay the $2 to play. It shouldn't be that hard you just knock down the bottles. I glance over my shoulder and the scene hasn't changed. Anastasia is just standing there while Christopher is practically begging her to talk to him or respond to him in some way. I throw the first ball and it's a miss. Come on Grey you can pitch better than that. I take a better aim and this time the bottles come down and the guy stares at me with his jaw on the floor. Yep that's right douche. I knocked down the bottles now give me a damn bear for my girl. My girl? Since when is she my girl? Damn it, why am I feeling this way? Feelings aren't what I do, I do control and rules and sex. I point to the big pink bear and I take it from the man and start walking over to the girl who has me all fucking confused. I hear Christopher talking to her again and he sounds like he's breaking down.

"Annie please. Let me in. Let someone in. You don't have to be alone in this. Please."

I clear my throat and bring the bear out from behind me. "Anastasia. I won you a bear." I hold it out to her and she looks at it like she's confused at why I would give her anything. "It's pink and it's cuddly." Cuddly Grey, what are you a fucking pussy? "I guess if you don't want it I can give it to someone else."

Before I can even start to pull it back to my side she reaches out and grabs the bear from me. "Thank you Christian. I like it."

"You're welcome Anastasia." She's talking to me again. I glance over at Christopher and he smiles at me again and this time I have a feeling why. I'm doing for her what Mia did for me, I'm helping her.

"Ana. You can call me Ana."

I nod. "Ana. Would you like to ride the Ferris wheel, eat some cotton candy, play some games, or we could just walk and talk?" She doesn't look at me, she keeps looking at the bear. I watch her as she pets it and pulls it tighter against her chest.

"Can we do all those things Christian? Please." When she does look at me her eyes are filled with excitement and hope.

I smile and hold my hand out for her to take. "Of course we can. Would you like your brother to come?"

Before she can answer me Christopher makes her jump nearly 4 feet in the air. "No! I mean, you go ahead Annie. Carnivals aren't really my thing plus I forgot I have to call Heather, it's our 2 month anniversary and I know she'll be pissed off if I don't call so you go ahead. Have fun with Christian and I'll see you later."

2 month anniversary? I wouldn't know anything about that because I don't date. Ana puts her hand in mine and that electric feeling is there, almost like she's shocking me with electric cables but it's not hurting me, in fact it makes me feel pretty damn good.

We start with the walking and then I buy her some cotton candy. I'm not sure how long we walk around just talking and holding hands but I learn a lot about her. Her favorite color is baby blue. Her favorite movie is A Walk To Remember. She'd rather eat a big mac than a salad which I fucking love because I can't stand girls who don't have a hearty appetite. She used to be a cheerleader but doesn't have any interest in it anymore. She's never had a boyfriend. She likes chocolate cake and cookie dough ice cream. She doesn't have a favorite genre of music she listens to what she likes no matter what genre. She laughed and lightly hit my arm when I asked her if she'd ever dye her hair and flat out said 'no fucking way'. Yet the thing that still had me curious but I would never push her to tell me was the fact that she isn't a virgin. No boyfriend but not a virgin, something about the way she started to lightly shake had all kinds of red flags going up in my head.

We play almost every game and sometimes she wins and creams my ass. I can't help but smile and laugh at her little victory dance. She isn't anything like the shy innocent girl that was at dinner, she's more open and happy, she has the most beautiful damn smile. I win her a few more stuffed animals and she actually names the little gray dolphin Christian. I smile and lean in and press a kiss to her cheek. Grey! What the hell did you do that for?! I freeze once I pull back and swallow the lump in my throat as she looks at me. I could have sworn time stopped and the people around us moved in slow motion. The scared look in her eyes had me wishing I'd never kissed her cheek.

"I...I need to go. Thank you for tonight Christian. I had fun." She turns around to leave and suddenly I feel a stab of pain where my heart should be, would be if I had one. I reach my hand out and grab her arm to stop her and I'm nearly brought to my knees by her reaction. "NO! NO! NO! Let me go please! Don't hurt me. Please don't hurt me."

I pull her close to me and hug her to my chest. "Ana. It's me Ana, Christian. I won't hurt you sweetheart. Calm down." I stroke her hair gently and look around, luckily no one heard her outburst. What the hell was that about though? Who the hell hurt her and why did she freak out when I grabbed her arm? "Shh. Calm down sweetheart. Do you want to go back to Kate's now Ana?"

I feel her nod her head slightly. I don't remove my arms from around her and for now it doesn't seem like she wants me to. I bring out my phone and send Elliot a text to tell Kate I'm taking Ana back and I'll come back to get Mia after. He doesn't answer but my phones tells me the message was read. Before I can slip my phone back in my pocket though it vibrates and the text message pops up on the screen.

I hope you're behaving yourself at that carnival you're mother told me about. I'd hate to have to punish you when you got home. -E

I stiffen and push the phone in my pocket and growl under my breath. Damn woman is keeping tabs on my now by calling my fucking mother. I must have been stupid to think I'd get any time away from her. As we get closer to Kate's house I let out a breath and shake my head, I was stupid for thinking I could feel anything Ana. I won't bring her into this, I won't let Elena find out about her, the consequences would hurt her and I can't do that. I can't hurt Ana. I'm so caught up in my thoughts that I don't realize Ana is talking to me until I hear her say the words that put everything into perspective for me.

"I hated that too you know. The fact he always knew where I was, who I was with...I could never escape him. It took me 3 years to get the courage to leave but it still hurts you know?"

What the hell? Ana knows what that text was about, but she didn't see my phone. I was behind her and there is no fucking way she could have seen the screen. The only way she would have any clue was if...she was a sub once. I stare at her and she wraps her arms around my waist and then walks inside leaving me standing speechless on Kate's front lawn. Ana was a sub, the fucker hurt her, she left...it all makes sense. "Her moms new husband." I mutter the words as I walk up to the door and knock on it urgently. "ANA! PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR ANA!"

The door opens almost instantly and I'm met with a crying Ana and I pull her into my arms. I won't let her hurt anymore. I won't let her be alone anymore. I will save this beautiful girl no matter what it costs me. Most of all, I won't let Elena or anyone else lay one fucking finger on her.