Hello,
This is my first Blue Exorcist story on this account but I have a joint story on the account TheSorcerersMedallion where I have started a Blue Exorcist story on there with them.
This contains spoilers for the manga series so if you are reading or wish to read the manga come back when you have read it, but there aren't many spoilers.
Manga events are followed up to the beginning of chapter 73 where the story goes on a different route to the manga.
I do not own Blue Exorcist.
Warnings for the whole story- Language and violence
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Yukio's POV
The metal railing was icy cold and bit into my hands as I hoisted myself over them. I batted a coal tar away which milled around aimlessly which was attracted to the dark damp atmosphere of the abandoned building I stood upon the roof of.
I need circumstances that make me fear for my life. That was the only way the flames would show. I need to know true fear and be prepared to die.
I looked down to the ground. It sure was high up. "A fall from this height is sure to kill me."
If the power in my eyes doesn't awaken...I'm dead for sure.
Adrenaline pumped through my body and my heart thrummed and throbbed in my ear.
Definitely.
Sweat dripped from my face and my hands clasped around the pole of the railings. My body was screaming at me to stop but my mind was already set.
It's been days and I still don't have the courage and I might not even come back again.
The wind had picked up and blew my hair around wildly.
Do I want to spend my whole life in fear of my origins and the Illuminati?
"No!" I ground my teeth together in determination and took another look at the sickening drop.
So prepare yourself!
Do this. You must... I must.
I lifted my foot above the eight-story drop and let my body fall limply forward.
My breath was stolen from me as I plummeted quickly towards the ever growing ground.
No!
I'm scared. I flailed around uselessly as if it could stop gravity from carrying out its duty. I'm scared... I'm so scared! I don't want to die!
Images of all my friends flashed in front of my eyes and my heart raced, then, something seemed to click in my mind. I looked fearfully at the ground which was feet away and suddenly I was blinded by a blue light.
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"...Ungh"
I pried open my eyes and lifted my head which pounded painfully. The world was out of focus, my glasses must have fallen off in the fall, but I was able to see the crater I lay in the middle of. Like the crater of a fallen star. Fire danced around the inside and the edges of the craters lighting up the sky, taunting me. Blue flames.
What... what happened? Was I unconscious? Why?!
I pushed myself onto my hands and knees and smashed my fist into the hard packed earth and stirred up a cloud of dust. "Dammit!"
But, something definitely happened. My eyes protect me! Knowing that makes risking my life worthwhile.
Pushing myself up to rest on just my knees caused a weight to slide out my pocket and clatter against the floor. My breath hitched in my throat as I turned towards the familiar object wide-eyed. My heartbeat throbbed in my ear once again as I snatched the cool metal and pushed the barrel of my pistol against my head while straightening up to kneel on just my knees. My breath came out in short pants and I paid no attention to it swirling away in mist form as it reacted with the cold air.
I should have done this from the start. Now show me your true form!
"Show me your true form you monster!" I screamed, eyes wild and lost.
As my finger twitched on the trigger I heard the faint sound of running footsteps slowly getting louder and I felt my resolve waver.
"Yukio!"
I knew the voice belonged to my Nii-san and I couldn't stop my hand shivering and it fell to the floor. The footsteps came to a halt as Rin approached like a human would approach an animal while trying not to scare it. When Rin was close enough he kicked the gun away and wrapped his arms around my chest. He couldn't help himself as he started to sob. "How c-could you d-do that? H-how could y-you d-do that to me?"
I couldn't help myself either as I started to break down into tears and soak my brothers top in them. We knelt there in each other's embrace for a while until the tears subsided and I found the courage to make eye contact with my big brother.
"I'm so sorry." I could only manage a whisper.
"You're meant to be the smart one. You're so stupid."
The rest of the evening was spent in silence as neither Okumura had the courage to speak to each other. The only sound was the sound of a page turning as Rin read manga on his bed and Yukio sat at his desk studying. Every now and then Rin looked over the top of the book to look at his brother. Yukio was hunched over his books with his body slightly turned away from Rin. Rin took in his small frame and noticed he was a lot slimmer than he last remembered.
"Have you been eating right?"
Yukio flinched slightly from his sudden question and just shrugged in response.
"It doesn't look like you have been," Rin placed a piece of scrap paper on his page and placed the book on his bedside table. His tail hung over the edge of the bed and swung lazily. "What do you want?"
"What?"
"To eat,"
"No thanks." Yukio turned back to his textbooks.
"That's not the answer. You will eat." Rin stood up quickly causing Yukio to flinch again. "What do you want to eat?"
Yukio shrugged again and Rin went down to the kitchen to make something of his choice anyway.
The younger twin watched with a sigh and pushed his chair away from the desk and got to his feet slowly. His brother really was insufferable. Flopping onto his bed Yukio tossed his glasses onto the side and buried his head in his pillow and welcomed sleep when it took hold of him.
When Rin came back up with an omelette in hand he looked down his brother and huffed before looking at what he had made. Well, it's too good to go to waste. He proceeded to split the omelette in half and gave half to Kuro who ate it gratefully and finished the rest off himself.
The next day
"Yo four eyes!"
Yukio looked up from clearing away his stuff from his lesson and looked over at the pink haired women who leant against the doorframe. "Shura-san, can I help you?"
"I made an appointment for ye," Shura came and plonked herself on the edge of the desk.
"Right..."
"Yer got a problem," She reached up and patted him on the head. "Yer not right up here."
"Excuse me?" Yukio spluttered and batted her hand away.
"It's not exactly normal to be trying to kill yourself," Shura said solemnly. It was difficult to restrain herself but she managed not to scream at the top of her lungs how stupid he was and how selfish he was for thinking about leaving her, oh, and everyone else.
"That bastard told you," Yukio growled and clenched his fists.
"That 'bastard' is your brother and he is worried about you, and so am I."
"Cancel the appointment I won't be going and there is nothing wrong with me."
"I thought you'd say that." Shura then wrapped her arm around his neck in a headlock and pulled him stumbling along after her. "Guess I'll have to drag you there."
"Shura!" Yukio snarled which was muffled from the face full of cleavage.
"That's my name!" She chortled and shoved him into a waiting taxi and slid into the seat beside him. "Step on it."
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Yukio refused to talk to Shura for the entire ride, opting for crossing his arms across his chest and staring out the window. When the taxi slowed to a stop he unbuckled himself and got out while Shura paid for the fare.
Perhaps I should make a runner... Yukio surveyed the area and was just about to leg it when a hand came down on his shoulder and started to push him inside.
"Shura-san we don't need to do this, I don't want to do this."
"You're not scared, are you? Is little Yuki afraid of a little doctor?" Shura had stuck to teasing Yukio to keep down the emotions she felt over the whole event. Deep down she was extremely upset and worried sick for him. How can someone smart be so stupid?
As soon as the pair walked into the waiting room 'Yukio Okumura' flashed on the screen.
"That was good timing, I'll wait here, remember I'm here for you." Shura smiled softly and ruffled the brunette's hair. She observed the fear in his eyes and the shaking of his hands. "Nothing bad is going to happen."
The young boy nodded and went through the double doors.