Hello, this is the author speaking. Welcome to my story LETTING GO !

This is as you can see a Reader/- story, but this is not an insert.

The main character will be you my dear readers, but I have already went ahead and made up an alias. I don't hope this is dissapointing, I just work the best this way. So go ahead and read of your new you ^^

Name: Michelle Ryann.

Nickname: Miki.

Age: 19.

Hair: Middle back long, Light brown with darker hues.

Eyes: Burgundy - A reddish brown.

Weight: 55 kg.

Height: 160 cm.

Personality traits: Like most girls you hate spiders, but you are not afraid to pick them up or show them hell. You don't really have a favorite animal, but respect all living beings. You love the legends of your tribe and got several books about them. You are only half Quileute which makes your skin a softer tan than the others. You're a friendly being who tend to become a little too overly happy and hyper to times. Your history case of love is pretty wide and you got decent knowlegde in sexual terms as well, already have had your fair share. You are not really looking for mister right, but like most girls you dream of true love too.

That was what I could give of informations about your Alias. Again I hope this do not leave you dissapointed ^^ Please enjoy the story and leave a review (Or four) ; Those makes me happy ;D

Btw: Seth is 17 in the start of this story and Embry is 21.

Letting Go.

Is never easy.

Seth/Reader - Embry/Reader

Summary: It's summer and Seth is not spending it in La Push for a change. He is with an old friend who just got her own appartment. Falling in love with her wasn't planned, since she is not his imprint. But she knows the stories and secrets of the Quileutes and they agree she can take it when it happens. But little did Seth expect that he is the one who has to let go of her.

Chapter One:

All grown up.

It was just a usual day in Seattle. A little cloudy outsite, but the sun would shine trough once in a while. The weather reports alerted rain later in the afternoon, so you got the feeling it was better to start early. Just to get it over with. You had just left home a few days ago. Saying bye to your parents for the first time. Your appartment wasn't really that fancy or big, but it was home. You had a livingroom with a kitchenette in the farest corner, a bathroom with a tub, very important and the main reason you chose this place, and two rooms, the biggest now officially your bedroom. The other was still stuffed with boxes you had yet to unpack. And that was what you were doing. You had an appointment in a few hours and you hoped the rain would wait til you got back home again.

You rustled trough the remaining boxes, picking out the most important and put them in their rightful places. You had to see if you could empty this room enough to make place for a mattress. You were quite excited, it had been a while since you had spend more than a day with your best friend from Junior High. Two years to be exact. But you both had vacation and he had agreed to come and stay over.

Seth Clearwater was only a few years younger than you. But taking it you both lived in the reservation of the Quileutes and the classes were limitted, you both entered the same one. You still remembered the fuss there had been, since his sister Leah had been in the exact same class as well. Though she was older than you too. You liked Leah. You and her had been friends first, until her brother came along. Seth was easy to be with, someone you felt completely relaxed around and you couldn't say you ever discriminated between friends. Girls and Boys could be just as good friends as Girls and Girls or Boys and Boys. Of course it was always a bit different and to times even akward. Funny enough that wasn't the case with Seth.

You remembered when you lost the contact with him, it had been shortly after you left the rez with your parents and moved to Seattle. The drive was just a little above Three hours in car and Four with train, but Seth just stopped calling and he wouldn't pick up when you did. Non of them did. Leah or their mother Sue. Later you had learned of Harrys departure and then you understood. At least that was the conclusion you had made, one which was good enough for you. You knew how it was to loose a parent. Your mother no longer resided among you anymore, of course you had been but a little girl when the accident stroked. And your parents had been seperated, you father already remarried. His wife was now your new mother. You couldn't help it, you really loved her. But that aside, Seth even joked a few times he would have to find someone for his Momma as well. Which wasn't hard when Chief Charlie came around.

The sharp chimming of the door bell brought you out of your little daze. You realized you had been to engrossed in your memories when the chimming got worse. The person had probaly been standing outsite for a while and was growing impatient. You shouted a "Coming!" before you shoved your stuff aside and hurried out of the room to the little hallway at the entrance. Not bothering to check the door hole, you unlocked the door and swung it open, almost stubbing your toe in the action. A way too familiar grin and two strong arms, as they wrapped around you into a tight hug, greeted you. Your eyes widened in disbelief, but the need or air was a little more important and you were placed back, safe on the floor.

"S-Seth?" Just a little confusion laced your voice, but the apparant happiness was more dominate and the boy in front of you chuckled low. Speaking of which, his voice was definitely deeper than you remembered. You had also noticed in the telephone, but above such a distance you knew you couldn't rely too much on that. However it was obviously not the only thing changed about your friend. You clearly remembered the last time you saw him. He had been just 15 and almost two heads lower than you. His body was lean and he looked just like every other kid on his age. Aside from his dark red skin and almost golden brown eyes and mushy black hair, everything about Seth now had changed. Before you stood a.. god. Okay scratch that. But there nearly did! He was over a head taller than you, his body not lean but.. Buff! Like he had been taking way too many steroids, which you were a little afraid was the case. It wasn't unpleasant to look at, hell. The boy was wearing a casual white T-Shirt, but the muscles were shining trough way too aparant, and his jeans were a little too tight in the right places.

When the boy- sorry- Man, suddenly grinned even wider, his white teeth almost glimmering in contrast with his dark skin and his brows ached in a playful way, you realized what you were doing. You were ogling. A furious blush sprang to your cheeks and you were almost positive drool was running down your chin. Quickly whipping your mouth just to be sure, you stepped aside just barely avoiding to crash with a wall as you stuttered, since that was the best you could muster at the time being.

"I.. I w-wasn't expecting you s-so soon!" Hell, you weren't expecting him at all, hadn't the deal been you would pick him up at the train station in... An hour from now? Seths clear laughter echoed in the hallway for a while as he shook his head and stepped inside. Effortless closing the door behind him and placed a warm hand on your shoulder. Woah, make that a hot hand. He was still grinning as he spoke, that deeper strong voice almost send shivers down your spine and you felt like backing up against the wall or fleeing to your balcony - cause you had one of those too.

"Yeah I know, but I was able to catch an early train and thought; 'Seth, lets track Miki down and surprise her!'" There was clear amusement in his tone and you almost got annoyed just of that. If it hadn't been for his warm eyes locked on yours you would definitely have smacked his arm.

"And how did you find my adress? I don't remember I-" He cut you off with a shake of his head.

"No prob! You know that Adress books are invented? And you still got that same boring name; Michelle Ryann." You narrowed your eyes of him, but decided it was best just to sigh it off. Though it was a little hard for you to imagine Seth had searched trough Adress books just to find yours, and hang on a sec- ... You just moved, it wasn't more than 2 days ago since you changed the adress, there was no way that- Hm, maybe it was best not to think too much over that. Expecially since he was still grinning and you didn't expect even if you asked he would tell you the whole truth anyways. The warmth from his hand left you and when you actually registered he was already of of the room and inside the next. His eyes was wandering around, like he checking for possible dangers than looking at your home. Wow, great.

"So, what do you think? Quite a great place eh?" You shot him a grin of your own when he decided to look your way. One you immediately regretted when he ached a brow again, his smile way too seductive for your taste, but you did good in hiding it. You never wished he ever had to see you ogle at him again, though he was extremely hot, and he knew it. Shoot.

"Hm, 'S not that bad, but..." You eyes narrowed just even more as he gave you that suspicious look, his hand raised as he waved it around. Looking like he was calculating something, his lips pursed.

"But?" You voice was almost too icy and definitely immiting danger, just a small warning for him not to speak bad about your precious first home.

The way you glared at him made him laugh, his body shaking soft with vibration as he held on to the window sill for balance.

"Oh relax! If you like this place, there's nothing wrong with it. You shouldn't care bout what I say, right?" His eyes were gleaming playful again, his brows still ached and that annoying irresisteable grin played across his lips. Well he had a point, but you just pursed your lip and gave him your best pathetic pouty puppy face.

"Alright, alright! This place is awesome, absolutely perfect!" The sarcasm wasn't hard to detect, but you let it go and clapped your hands almost in a silly way, now smiling and beaming at him.

"Yay! I think so too!" That was when you both broke out in laughter, Seth grapping your hands to scoope you in or another bone crushing hug. But to your surprise his embrace was gentle and you felt his nose in your hair. Almost as if he was inhaling your scent. You was a little tense, yes you had hugged like this before, a little longer than usual. But that was before his body made you think dirty thoughts. Something that made you look at him slightly different than before. You felt his hand play in you hair, curling some locks around a single finger before he let it fall back down again in a soft bouncing manner. You hands were itching, you wanted to run them all over his back, and his chest, to feel him up and- Shock replaced every emotion when you felt his hand on your lower back, dangerously close to your butt for your taste. Not that this didn't cause ever so sweet sensations, it was just.. So wrong. Clearing you throat as to tell him this was quite enough, you heard his soft humm before he pulled away, both his hands on your shoulders instead and he was still just smiling at you. Much kinder now than before though. Even his eyes.

You felt your face heat up again and pushed away from him before it got noticeable. You had already turned you back to him and held you hand against your chest, desperately trying to calm down your racing heart beat. You almost jumped when he laughed again and spun around to look at him. He hadn't heard it right? D'oh! Well of course he hadn't, that would require super hearing or him being way too close, which you wasn't planning anytime soon.

The next few hours went without that much trouble. There was a few more embarrassing situations, but you were slick enough to get out of them or turn them around. It was just insane how he made you feel. And once in a while he would make sure his body brushed against yours some way or another. It was getting hard to avoid those fantasies that started to form around him. It was like this was a game. Like he seriously enjoyed drawing these reactions from you alwhile he acted innocent and obvlious. And he probaly did enjoy it, if that permanent grin of his was anything to go by. You just didn't understand, maybe you didn't want to understand. Understand why he did this. Was it really just a game?

Seth had been nice and helped you pack away the rest of the stuff. Now only a few more boxes remained in the room as the two of you had brought the empty ones down in the cellar. You got your own lockable store away room and you were using it nicely. Now you were sitting in you oversized fluffy couch, Seth had been naughty and convinced you there was enough room for the both of you - which there was - and made you sit in his lap. His big arms wound tight around your waist as he looked around you to watch the television. The show that was playing was one of your favorites, a comedy show with lots of laugh, but you couldn't concentrate to say not at all. The vibrations Seth gave you from his soft chuckling was only adding fuel to the just started fire. You didn't feel like two friends hanging out at all. Not only because you was seated in his lap with no moving away possibilities at all. Not only the way his arms held you close, but also his legs where more or less entwined with yours. It caused you to gulp lightly, which luckily went unnoticed or he was either just keeping up the mask of obvliousness. It was really starting to get to you. You wanted to be annoyed at him, and push him away. But it was hard when all you could feel was the sweet arousal forming in your lower abdomen. It was too much. He was your best friend and you weren't supposed to think of him in this way. But if he knew, he obliously didn't seem to mind it much the way his arms just tightened further around you and forcefully dragged you down until your back were flush against his chest. His warm fingers were trailing a slow path from your lower arm to your upper and down again to your wrist, before they just did it all over again.

The TV show had long stopped now, not that you could brag about noticing. Your thoughts too far away to stay coherent. He was playing a dangerous game. You had to fight the urges to spin around and crush your lips to his. Rejection was the last thing you could handle at the moment. If there just was a way to find out what he wanted, a way that didn't cause you to have a heart break the day vacation ended and he had to leave. Seriously, what was he thinking?! Touching you like this, in a so not innocent way.

It was already dark outsite. The dull noises of the still awake city sounding in the distance and sometimes too close for your liking. Though to be honest, all you could concentrate on right now was the soft sound of his breathing, and the uneven of your own. When his hand clutched your tigh, you had to fight back a moan. He started to caress the clothed flesh a little too intimate and you started to tremble. He didn't seem to notice that either, cause he kept going. His other hand joining on the other leg and subconciously you rested your head back on his shoulder. A gasp tore from your lips when you felt his warm lips on your neck. You was about to burst forward in an attempt to get off of this too tempting young man, but his hands held you in place and he suckled light on your skin. Your heart was treathening to burst from your chest and your breathing became soft pants. You wanted to smack him when he smirked, his lips curling against your skin and his carressing hands increased in their molesting. Moving further down your legs, massaging trough the fabric of you light blue jeans only to go straigth back up way too close to your center. You wanted to tell him to stop. To stop before this became something neither of you would be able to stop. But your words betrayed you, no sound came out from your parted lips beside soft moans, which only seemed to eager him on.

His hands left your tighs and volunteered up higher to the hem of your shirt. Of course this was the perfect day not to wear a bra, oh yay.

The ringing of the phone saved you, and you were so happy and so relived you had taken your time to connect it though it had taken you almost half a day to get the shit working. Your reason to get up and answer it seemed good enough, because he had no choice than letting you go. You swore you saw the disapointment on his face and the way his lips became a thin line, but you was too busy to leave the room and thank your savior. Had you and Seth been on a different level and not just friends, this would have made you angered, but you grapped the phone and pushed the green button.

"Hey its Miki!" Okay, maybe you sounded a little too eager, but you were finally able to calm down your beating heart and cure the flush from your features. Not to talk about your body, you could still feel the burning from his lips.

"It's Leah." Seths sister sounded beyond pissed and that actually made you blink a few times. Normally you would greet someone politely, or well. This is Leah we talk about.

"Oh hey, what can I do for you?" You noticed when Seth came up beside you, but honestly did your best just to ignore him completely, secretly wishing he would keep his hands away from you. This was your safe spot, and he better not invade it.

"Seth promised to call when he got there." She only spoke what was needed, which was a typical Leah trait and you shot a glare at Seth. Okay it wasn't completely his fault, you had both been engrossed in talking about the old days as well had you forced him to help you out with what was left to do. Without further words you told Leah bye and handed him the phone. It was his lecture and to be honest you didn't want to get involved. He gave a sigh before he greeted his sister and you hurried out of the room. Determined to find some peace on the couch now you could enjoy it alone.

Half an hour was what it took before Seth returned. There had been a bit yelling, but it was mostly trough the phone. You had ditched the TV shows and instead played a DVD. It was a sweet movie of friendship and love. But also comedy. Humor was very important. At least for you. The way you took out all the space on the couch, or at least most of it, was indicating enough for Seth and he got the hint. With a scowl he sat down in the chair across from the table, not even bothering to look at the screen as his attention was completely on you.

"Michelle..." Uh oh. Everytime Seth used your formal name, it always meant trouble in some kind of way. You pretended not to hear him as you laughed along with the movie in a silly way. But again he said your name, this time louder and more annoyed. Sneaking a peek at him, you blinked your eyes innocently. Which only caused him to glare before he heaved another sigh.

"Maybe I should have stayed home. You act more or less like I am a nuisance." Wait, what? What was he saying? Well he was a nuisance, or no. He wasn't. He was just hot and hard to ignore. Expecially when he kept getting a feel on you everytime the oppotunity proved itself. You eyes widened as you stared at him, disbelief covering your whole face and you shot up from the couch before you knew it. Staggering over and probed down on his lap. Your legs straddling him as you pushed him back into the lean of the chair.

"Look mister. You are the one who has been coming on at me ever since you sat your damn foot inside my door. Touching and licking and I dunno what. If your sister hadn't called I would probaly be screaming your name by now as you pound me into obvlion." The way you said that just caused his eyes to widen ever so slightly, his hands tightened on the arms of the chair all by themself and his mouth fell slightly agape. It didn't help that a soft blush was adorning your cheeks, it was hard even for you not to be affected by your own words and for a moment you regretted saying them. Regretting you ever left the couch. A smile broke from his lips as he ached one brow, his eyes immediately gleaming with playfulness. And now you completely regretted ever being born.

"Who is coming on at who now?" That damned smirk never left and his hand gots bold as they dissapeared from the chair arms and wound around your waist, pulling you up closer against his chest. Taunt marks almost popped from your head as you groaned agitated. Damn. Damn. Damn. If you had just staid put on your lazy bum by the couch, you wouldn't be in this position, and clearly you just lost the upperhand in this situation.

"W-Well..." It didn't matter, nothing you could say now would remove that grin from his face and he would just turn around your words for his own good, you were sure of that. As his hands graced your hips, you knew the point of no return was approaching fast. It was hard not to notice Seths bulgding arousal, seeing it as you were almost grounding against it. When he rolled his hips into yours a hot moan spilled from your lips and you nearly lost your balance. Your grap was tight on his shoulder, but ever so slightly you moved your arms to wrap them around his neck as he rolled his hips again. The friction was delicious, you both wore jeans but you could feel him so easily trough the fabric you could as well had been naked. Oh god naked. With Seth. Your stupid heart was acting up again and you rested your head close to his neck, his own face diving into your hair as he continued the sucking on your skin from earlier. A Soft humm left your lips. You couldn't believe yourself you were giving in. His hands were massaging the small of your back now, one of them moving to your butt and gave it a small squeeze. Of that you gasped, and he smirked against your skin again. A soft rumble left his chest, its sound almost feral, you couldn't exactly place it, but all of that mattered less when he grapped your hips roughly and buckled up against you. His crotch grounding hard against your own and a needy groan spilled from his lips. Okay that was it, you couldn't take it anymore. He was arousing you to a point nothing mattered anymore, nothing but him. Your own lips descended upon his skin, nibbling sweetly and swooning in the soft moans he let out. So he liked it. He better do now when he made you go to such lenghts. Not that you were really that much against it anymore. You both sat there for a while, assaulting each other in sweet touches and kisses on skin that was exposed. Neither of you sharing a real kiss. You liked Seth, that was something you couldn't deny, at least not for long. And he had really surprised you, he was so grown up it make you fel like you had missed more of his life that you had first presumed. His lips left your neck and you pulled away as well to lock your eyes with his. He was still smiling, a sweet genuine smile instead of his silly superior one. It made your heart skip a beat and you couldn't help but smile back.

The silence was comfortable and his hand had stilled, now placed soft upon your hips, just holding you there. The silence were only broken when Seth spoke.

"Hey Miki, want to go out with me tomorrow? You could show me the town." It was not like he hadn't been in Seattle before, but spending some time with you was his main priority, and he could as well use it to get to know the city as well.

"Sounds innocent enough." Was your short reply, the smile was still adorning your lips and it seemed to make his eyes soften a bit. He gave a sharp nod then, his sweet smile becoming a huge grin and his fingers rubbed against your jean cladded skin.

"So tonight, wanna have sex?" You smacked his arm, pretty hard too, but he didn't seem to be the least faced by it as he just laughed.

"Just kidding, just kidding. But you are really sexy, you know that?" The sincerity of his words made you blush, there was no doubt he meant what he said, but you just stuck your nose high and snorted playful.

"Of course I am! My absolutely stunning body leaves many men hunger for me!" You both laughed again, chuckles and giggles filling the room, before the comfortable silence fell once again. You were locking eyes again, his soft golden brown seemed to make you drown the more you looked at them. A loud growl broke your both out of your dazing and you were surprised to see Seth blush for the first time this day. The sight reminding you he was just human, no matter how much he resembled a god.

"Whew, I hope you have stocked up enough food, cause I am starving!" Laughter erupted again and you made your way off of him so the poor man could get up and stretch his legs. You weren't that heavy, but being in the same position for so long was doomed to make the muscles sore. However he seemed to be an exception.

"Let's go make some." You said as you grapped his hand and hauled him towards the kitchenette. The TV was still roaring with the ending of the movie, but neither of you noticed as you took pleaure from each others company.

End of Chapter One.

A/N: Thank you so much for reading first chapter of my story. Please let me know what you think ^^ Flames will be laughed at before deleted :) But feel free, always cracks me up. Particular good ones might be saved hahaha :P I love Seth and I love Embry. Who has yet to appear. But next chapter is going to be quite surprising ^^ Though it will take a while before Embry make his apperance. Yaa for now ;D

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