Author: So here goes my oh so suicidal fic… ehmm… This is the third fic that I have posted here (I have some unpublished works that I really have no intention of posting…) I hafta work on them first!
Nyahahha… So enweiz, I don't know if this fic is that good… You'll be the judge! Love to read you comments and suggestions!
Disclaimer: Haaahh!! I wish I own them but I don't!!!! I don't even have any of their mangas!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahahahahha!!!!!!
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IM STILL HERE By KaiYa
So I stood there, not minding the world around me. Not minding at all. With my position right now, there is no one. Nobody cares for me, nobody wants me, nobody loves me.
I think it's better to die.
It'll be easier to live, no appointments, no rules, no responsibility. It'll be easier to die.
I think that's better. With no one, I can die at anytime.
No one will have to know.
Passion
Love
Understanding
Care
Peace
Nothing matters now
I'm all alone.
It's easier that way.
"Hey Tsuzuki! What in the world are you doing??! You better get in here or you'll get sick!"
He heard that voice coming from behind and he didn't need to look. He already knew who it was.
"Hey! Tsuzuki! Are you deaf or what?! Come inside before you get sick!!"
"Wait… Be there in a moment…" He whispered. Not moving an inch, he looked up… He remained that way, and closed his eyes. He can feel the droplets of rain falling to his face, to his body.
Hnn… It's like the sky is crying and I can feel its pain…A shiver.
Like it's crying with me.
"Hey Tsuzuki!!"
And he snapped back to reality and turned around. He looked at the blond haired boy standing impatiently at the doorstep.
"Well?! Do you plan to stay there all night?!"
Tsuzuki started walking towards the house and approached Hisoka. Standing all night there in the cold rain, he felt numb all over.
Cold.
"You better tell me what in the world were you thinking!" Hisoka gave him a sharp but concerned look.
"Don't worry I'll be fine. It's just rain." Tsuzuki answered as he combed his damp hair with his fingers to let water drip.
"Well, wait till you wake up with a nausea tomorrow!"
"I said I'll be alright…" The taller shinigami assured the boy with a smile.
A smile.
So false yet deceiving.
They entered the house and Tsuzuki stopped.
"Hey? Are you alright?" Hisoka looked back and stared at his partner, confused of what might this amethyst man was thinking.
"Hnn.. Oh, it's nothing.It's just the warmth I guess." Tsuzuki smiled again. Hiding his thoughts with his smile.
Hisoka looked away and left him. Tsuzuki, still, remained there.
It'll be easier to die
The words kept running in his mind.
"Funny…" And he looked at his wrist, at the scars covered by his watch.
Shinigamis don't die…
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so…nonsense right? Coz I was so hungry when I wrote this so all I can think bout was rubbish.. enweiz… chapter two might take a long time coz I got no clue what will I write next.. any suggestions?!? Hehe.. and since school is coming up, itll take a lot longer!
Reviews! I'll love them! ^_~