In and Out of Love

By Any Unborn Child

(A/N: After the events of Tokyo Revelations. Kurogane tries to come to grips with his feelings towards Fai – whatever they may be.)

See the mirror in your eyes;
See the truth behind your lies.

What is up with you?

Seriously?

What is going on?

Why are you the way you are?

Just what the fuck happened to make you who you are now?

I think you'd be one of the first to know that not everything's all sunshine and puppies.

Take it from me.

You've been talking shit about yourself, saying that you want to die.

Fuck that.

We've gone too far for you to be dying now.

Your lies are haunting me
See the reason in your eyes.

So you have to take my blood every now and then.

Big deal.

So

At least I'm not trying to die.

I don't want to die.

I don't see why you'd want to.

You have no idea how much this group needs you.

How much Syaoran needs you.

How much Sakura needs you.

How much that fur ball Mokona needs you.

How much….

Giving answer to the why:
Your eyes are haunting me!

Fuck it.

I don't need this.

I don't need any of this bullshit.

You don't want to see anyone get hurt?

You don't want to feel any pain?

That's fine.

That may be fine with you.

I don't care.

Fuck everything.

Fuck it.

Fuck you for trying.

Fuck you for trying to make me happy, sad, suffer, and feel any sort of emotion you want me to.

If you want to die, that's fine.

But you're not going to die.

Not on my watch, anyway.

Falling in & out of love
in love, in love

You're going to live.

Whether you like it or not.

Because no matter what you may think, you do matter to people.

You do make a difference in their lives.

How do I know?

I've seen you do it.

As much as I hate to admit it, you have made a difference.

In…In my life.

You should know that.

Even at times when you drive me absolutely nuts.

Up the wall, even.

But you should know that.

You really should.

I'm not really good with words, but I do know this.

I don't want you to die.

Fin

(Lyrics from "In and Out Of Love" by Armin van Buuren fat. Sharon den Adel – a pretty good song, if you want to take a listen.)