I don't remember walking out of the on call room; I don't remember Alex telling me they need me in the NICU, all I can think is what I have done. With the storm now calming down I head towards my wife's office and with every step it feels like pieces of my heart are breaking off. How do I tell my wife, the love of my life, that I slept with someone else? As I reach her door, I slowly open it and see Callie and our daughter sleeping on the sofa. I try to step forward and enter her office but I can't, I am frozen, I just stare at my family knowing that this is the last moment we could truly be a family. I am shaken out of my moment when I hear Sofia starting to wake up. I step forward to get her so my wife can sleep a little longer. As I pick her up she looks at me with those beautiful brown eye she got from her Mami and I cant help but break down. What have I done? Sofia sees my tears and tries to wipe them away which only makes me cry more, this innocent tiny human who I love with all my heart, is about the lose the only family she has left. I have destroyed my family and in the process I have realized I am not who I was, I don't know who I am anymore. I look over to where Callie is laying down and I see her starting to wake up and my stomach drops as she opens her beautiful eyes and looks at me. She sees my tears and quickly gets up to see what's the matter and all I can do is shake my head. She takes Sofia from me and places her on the ground and gives her some toys all the meanwhile I am trying to find the words to tell her what I have done. When Callie looks back at me with so much concern and worry in her eyes I take a deep breath and just say it "I slept with Lauren". The look on my wife's face is heartbreaking; her once magical and soulful eyes turn to ones full of sadness with a touch of anger. I try to say more but no words will come out so I just stand there and watch her try to process the 4 words that have now ripped our lives apart. After a few minutes I finally find the words and say "I'm so sorry, I can't explain why it happened, all I know is that when it did I felt like my old self again, that I wasn't the doctor who was in a plane crash and lost her leg, I was me." I watch the emotions run across her beautiful face as I try to explain why it happened and my heart breaks even more. She looks so sad, confused and angry and it's all because of me. After a few more minutes she hasn't said a word so I ask her to "say anything, please just tell me what you're thinking". I see her right hand grasp her left and as I watch her take her ring off her finger I start to cry. She goes and picks up Sofia and as she walks by me she hands me her ring and walks away.