Hello people, here's an all new casualty fanfic, as with the others this is just setting the scene, hope you enjoy it!

The dark side

Nick lay in bed with his hands behind his head looking round at the four walls surrounding him, there were pictures of him and Zoe covering them, this brought a smile to his face, he and Zoe had been through so much together, so many ups and downs, some how they had always managed to come through the hard times and be greeted by the shinning light of joy at the end.

Unfortunately this time it wasn't to be, Nicks smile faded as he remembered the events of just 3 days before, Zoe and he had had a huge row and she had stormed out, he had tried calling, texting, emailing, paging the only thing he hadn't tried was owl post!

He couldn't even remember how the row had started, or who started it, all he knew was he'd never been so harsh and cruel with his words to anyone in his life, he blamed Zoe for him being alive, for not being able to give him a family, for drinking, smoking, mistakes at work – everything.

As he ran through the evening in question in his mind he could only see and hear himself, his own voice screaming bucket loads of abuse, that and the door slamming as Zoe left, apart from that his mind seemed blank.

Normally Zoe would have gone for a few hours and let him calm down, but this time she hadn't come back nor had she been in work.

Nick was worried but he didn't know what to do, he had no one to turn to, the staff didn't know about their relationship, they may have suspected something but no one had mentioned anything, all he knew was she had called in sick the day after their row, he had driven to her house a number of times only to find it in darkness.

He took a deep breath and grabbed his phone 'Zo please come home, im really sorry for everything I said, I miss you. Love Nick xxx' he read the message back several times before pressing send.

He dragged himself up and got ready for work, all he could hope for was that Zoe would be there and he could take her in his arms and tell her how much he loved her.

Upon arrival at the ED all was quiet; he scanned the reception and waiting area for any sign of Zoe but nothing.

He didn't bother greeting anyone; he just went straight to his office,.

He was slumped in his swivel chair staring at his phone when Adam knocked the door "come" shouted Nick.

"Nick, Zoe just gave me this admin work to give back to you, said she didn't have time to get it done"

"Zoe? What? When? Where is she?" questioned Nick jumping out his seat.

Adam gave him a strange look before replying "um she just left"

"Oh no" yelled Nick rushing from behind his desk and bumping into a near by plant "ahhh fucking cheese plant" he screamed holding his leg and limping out.

Adam shook his head "good morning to you Adam, how are you, im fine Nick yourself" he muttered to himself before leaving the office to tail Nick.

"Zoe" screamed Nick as Zoe's car sped out of the car park, he dropped to his knees "Zoe please!" he screamed, just then he felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Nick what's wrong?" it was Adam, he and Adam were good friends, just like him and Zoe they been through a lot, Adam had had a harder time than most, his brother had died, he'd lost his son plus his wife had left him.

Nick often wondered how the man held it together.

He stood up tears filling his eyes and collapsed into Adams arms "Adam iv been so stupid" he sobbed, he was never the open type normally but recently being with Zoe he'd learnt some important lessons in life.

"Nick has something happened? Are you feeling unwell?" questioned Adam holding Nick by his shoulders "its Zoe, Zoe and me" stuttered Nick.

Adam released his grip and narrowed his eyes "oh aye" he mumbled with a grin.

Nick nodded his head "yes it is what your thinking"

"Well congratulations" smiled Adam putting a friendly arm round Nicks shoulders "come on il buy you breakfast" he said leading him off towards the hospital cafeteria.

They sat in silence for a few moments watching people come and go, the cafeteria was a strange place to be at times, there were people in there that had just lost loved ones, people who were waiting to lose them, people who were ill themselves.

The place had an eerie atmosphere about it.

"So you and Zoe" started Adam biting into his egg roll getting the yoke all over his chin "yeah me and Zoe" repeated Nick placing his hands on the table.

"We started spending more time together about two months ago" explained Nick "we were getting on great, she had practically moved in with me, we had a row and she stormed out" by this point he was almost crying again, all the nasty things he'd said rang in his ears, he took a sip of coffee before continuing his tale of woe "I said some terrible things Adam, I really fucked things up that night"

Adam sat back and folded his arms mulling the story over "what was the row about?" he asked intrigued, Nick shook his head "I don't know, I cant remember, it was just after a bad day and I just started coming out with stuff"

"Hmmmm"

Nick looked up 'hmmm' wasn't quite the response he was looking for, here he was pouring his heart out and all Adam could managed was 'hmmm' "Well what you think I should do?" he questioned sounding desperate.

Adam tilted his head and leaned forward, he could sense Nick's desperation "I could talk to her for you I suppose" offered Adam "but she seemed in a pretty off mood this morning"

Nick gave him a sharp look "what makes you think she will listen to you?" he asked "Hey I only offered" answered Adam with his hands held up.

Nick thought about it for a moment "Nick iv not got all day" informed Adam standing up.

"Um right" said Nick holding his head, his vision became blurred "Adam I " he stuttered standing up, sweat began pouring off him, his heart raced.

"Nick" cried Adam trying to steady him "Nick sit down before you fall down"

"Don't feel well" Nick slurred as everything faded to black….

'I hate you Zoe, iv never loved you, your dead to me "ahhh Nick no please stop, don't do it….."'

Nick bolted upright as he felt cold water being splash over his face, he shook his head and looked up, he was now sat upright on the cafeteria floor, a growing crowd of people circling him "come on lets get you out of here" Said Adam helping him up, he was still very unsteady so he leaned on Adam for support as they left the area.

"Adam I think I was dreaming" Nick stuttered sounding confused and disorientated "Dreaming? You fainted Nick, give me the number of your neurologist you need to get checked out" demanded Adam almost dragging him along the corridor.

Nick stopped abruptly turning his head towards Adam.

"Adam I remember something" he claimed, fear spread across his face as the events of that fateful night came flooding back ….

Ohhh so people what really did happen that night?

Can Adam help?

What's wrong with Nick's memory?

Exactly what does he remember?

As always thank you for reading, please comment or review if you have the time.