The world around me is none other than a prison with beautiful sceneries used to deceive people.
That's what I thought, but of course, our opinions differ greatly from one another. They say that happiness is the key of life. But I believe I have given up into doing this outrageous task. People find me a nuisance, after all. Still, there's a part of me that still continues to search, despite how impossible it is for me to happen.
At the night of 17th March, I have seen my sister stepping foot into this cruel world. I can hear the grandfather clock ticking, until it rang the moment its hands stroke 12. My face was dull as I waited for my mother in the room, until my grandfather called me to meet her.
Indeed, there she was. The sister I have always despised. She was sleeping at my mother's arms, covered in white cloth. Grandfather pushed me forward into the room until I reached mother's side, who gave me a gentle smile. "Look, Lovina..." She says, as she showed me that child. "Your sister is finally here... The one whom we have always waited..." She was deep in bliss, despite her weak condition. "Here. Hold her. So you can have a better look..."
I simply did what I was told. In my perspective, she looked like an angel as a smile creeped into her innocent face. Lovely child... Born happily, for she was favored by God... Yet here I am, suffering from a demon in the shadows. I sighed and just smiled at her. "May you be blessed.. With prosperity as you ascend into the world... Feliciana..." I whispered to her, in a melancholic manner.
I returned Feliciana to mother as I looked away from shame. Not too long, Feliciana became loved by most. I envied her. I deeply envied her. But I managed to calm myself down. Until I have unintentionally prayed for her to meet death.