Preface
mErcy
"You're such a good girl, Miki."
"Miki's the sweetest girl you'll ever meet."
"I bet you never think a single bad thought about anybody, huh, Miki?"
A doll dressed in a pretty white dress. That's what I was. But it was okay, because you were there with me.
"He's everything a mother could ask for."
"Kaito's so perfect, isn't he? You're so lucky, Miki."
"Geez, Kaito, can't you at least pretend to have a fault so the rest of us don't look so bad?"
You wore a pretty white suit, so prim and perfect. You and I were one in the same. We were so wonderfully suited for each other, both so pure and white. We were everything we were told to be, never doubting, never questioning.
Then, one day, you broke, and you did so without me.
I didn't notice how you'd slowly, slowly changed. Your suit wasn't black anymore. You'd managed to change it without them noticing. I wish I'd been so brave. I wish I could've worn a black dress, too, but a beautiful white dove is nothing like a crow, no matter how it wishes to be. I thought that you were just like me, destined to forever be that dove yearning for darkness ofnight, but you broke free, you saved yourself.
You lashed out. It was too structured, too perfect, too bright, too much for you to handle. You couldn't keep wearing that white suit everyday. And, before my eyes, a dove became a crow, a crow covered in red, a crow feasting on crimson.
I wouldn't have seen it, either, if I hadn't come to your house to see you. But I did see it. I saw you in your black suit, covering it in red as you lashed out, able to do something I never could. You turned yourself into a black I'd never dreamed of, not until now, and you looked at me, holding out a hand invitingly. I want to take it, I truly did, no matter how it terrified me. But they never gave me the chance.
They took you to a world of white, hoping to change you back. But you could never be changed back. Why would you want to change?
And in your darkness, I wanted to join you. In fact, it made me want you even more. To see you so terrible struck a chord in me, filling me with horrible yearning. They tried to tear me away, but I wouldn't let you go without a fight. They forbade me to even speak of you, but the forbidden fruit is too sweet to resist. If you don't have to be white, why do I? I hate it, hate it. I need to be black, like you, so we can both be together. Will you let me lay in your arms, falling into that abyss forever?
If I forget the world of reason, a dove can become a crow, right? Let me come to you, to shield you from that white they've surrounded you with. I'll be the darkness around you.
A shadow dances on my wall, a man's shadow, as I give up my purity. I must be rid of it. If I give it away, I will be black, like you, and I can come find you. Turn me black, destroy all that is pure, take me into your world so that we may both be free. Don't show any mercy. I don't care what the consequences are. Please, free me. Save me. Allow me to be with you, forever. Paint me the black so we may once be together.
May I be with you forever, my beloved crow?
Author's Note: I know I should be working on my other stories but I've been doing research for this fic for a while and I had a few chapters written already so I figured I might as well post it. The preface is based on Circus-P's song mErcy sung by Miki. This is just my interpretation. If you don't understand all of this, don't worry, it gets explained later. The entire fic is based on Miki and Kaito's iNSaNiTY. Anyway, reviews are greatly appreciated! Oh and, disclaimer, I don't own the songs, obviously.