So here's a RakuxChitoge. I like this couple the best in Nisekoi and got the most random inspiration/idea ever to write this. Idk, I'm just bored and think it's whatever. Let me know if I should continue or delete this. Enjoy... I guess~
It's Always You
She didn't leave because she wasn't strong enough to fight for it; she left because, no matter what she did, she was just…never good enough…
Several people in fact, would say she did the right thing. Others would say she chose wrong. A few would even call her a coward and say that she never loved it enough to stay; to continue fighting…
But some...those some, that truly—completely understand: would actually ask, 'Just how, did you manage, to be so strong, for so long…?'
The funny thing…she doesn't even know herself…
From the time they met, (instinctively) she knew he was going to be a part of her life. She just didn't know how much…
Kirisaka Chitoge, the daughter & heir of the American gangster (mob) group, Beehive, was in all honesty & sincerity, in love with Ichijou Raku, her 'boyfriend'. Her 'boyfriend', who was the son & heir of a Yakuza group, were forced to be in a relationship.
See, their groups, were enemies. They despised one another. The bosses of each group though, begged to differ. They didn't hate one another. They could care less about the fact that their groups were now associated in the same territory. And though the groups should have the same attitude, (due to the fact that they must obey their boss, regardless of whatever he has decided) they didn't. They, for some reason, couldn't control their selves.
So in order to stop the unnecessary blood-shed, the bosses came up with a great, harmless, idea. They would have the heirs (who they love and would give their lives to protect) 'date'. This way, they would be forced to stop the fighting.
At first, it was all harmless, annoying, occasionally fun/funny, and honestly, quite enjoyable. The peace was kept in order. The days were filled with weird scenarios, friendship and laughter; the relationships between them all were becoming better and closer with one another…
Everything was fine; everything was great...
But soon, it all somehow just crashed and burned. Someone stopped having fun. Someone stopped smiling and hanging out. Someone even stopped talking. Someone, Kirisaka Chitoge, just finally got up and left. There was no warning either. One day, she just decided to give up. Because that day…that day, was the day she finally accepted that she would never be good enough for her 'boyfriend'.
It didn't take her long to realize it honestly. After being in a fake relationship with Raku for about 6 months—she just one day realized, that she indeed—was in love with him. Of course there was a bit of denial. I mean, it could've just been because of the fact that since they were together so much, it was about time she grew fond of him.
She's a really smart girl, so she quickly knew that to find out her true feelings, she would have to experiment, per say. And well, obviously you can guess where that had led to.
Chitoge of course was embarrassed, shocked, happy, and even a little disgusted; but in the end, she just accepted the fact and embraced that she will have to try and win his heart; quickly and for real this time.
There were other girls, who are also her classmates that were already in love with Raku from long ago. So she didn't have the time to take it slow. If she did, he could be snatched away and have her left broken-hearted.
In the beginning, Chitoge was very optimistic and happy to know that she indeed had a chance. After a while though, she realized…she never had a chance to begin with…
Chitoge never had a chance…because her 'boyfriend' was already in love. And he had been, ever since middle school…
He was in love with their classmate, his friend; Chitoge's very good friend, Onodera Kosaki.
To make matters worse, she was Chitoge's exact opposite. She was everything Chitoge wasn't and everything that Chitoge wanted to be. She wanted to be that, because if she was…maybe, just maybe…Raku…for once, would actually notice her.
Obviously she tried. Chitoge tried for (well about) 2 and a half years. Ever since they started high school, from when they started 'going out', Chitoge had tried… She had him call her by her first name and nothing else. She lied about Claude (one of her bodyguards/a top member of Beehive) becoming extra suspicious about their relationship, again; in order for them to go on more 'dates'.
She even changed her hairstyle, her attitude, her wardrobe…she practiced cooking, cleaning, etc., just to have him really notice her; to look at her as a woman & as a potential (real) girlfriend. She just wanted him to willingly & sincerely call her cute; that her bentos tasted great, that she looked different and that the look suited her… That she was a great friend, just fucking something…
Chitoge also cried a few times but got through it by reassuring herself that if she just tried harder, eventually, he will notice her. He will smile at her, laugh with her, think about her, and finally kiss her. Then he would tell her one day that he wants to break up; so that they can, right then and there, start over and become a real couple.
She wanted him to love her. She wanted to love him and be able to show it. She wanted to feel proud about her love, their love…
But in the end, it really didn't matter. No matter what she did, the result was the complete opposite of her goal. In the end, all Ichijou Raku ('her boyfriend'), saw, was Onodera Kosaki…
That fact was always there. It was proven time after time, day after day. She knew it, anyone would…
She really wanted to keep fighting and persevere through it, but she couldn't. She was tired of it all. They were all already 6 months away from graduation. Meaning she had spent about 2.5 years, every single day, trying to win her boyfriend's heart…
Funny on how ironic that sounded…
They started going out a week after school started (in their freshmen year) which was April 14th. After 6 months, she confirmed her love for Raku. During their second year, again on April 14th, after a week of school had already passed…she heard something she shouldn't have. She heard Raku talking to Shu (Raku's best friend) about Onodera and how much in love he was with her…
It took her almost 2 weeks to recover from just hearing/trying to accept that fact. It really hit her hard. I mean come on anyone would be devastated under these certain circumstances.
Life after that though, of course got harder. Everything was just harder. Eating, sleeping, concentrating, bathing, grooming, school, even breathing… She just didn't know how to handle it.
So she smacked herself good a couple times and had finally decided to just try. She didn't want to leave it as an what if; regardless of how hurt she could possibly be…
She had gone back to her usual, actual self. She got involved, and fought. She did what she thought she should, what she actually should, and what she possibly should; she tried, over and over again.
She created opportunities and sometimes, even the perfect settings. Just, it never worked. Someone would pop up and ruin everything or someone would call at the wrong moment; someone would intentionally 'cock block' her, consistently…
Fate just wouldn't let her win. And the one time she really thought she would win…well of course she didn't…
Raku had ended up in the hospital after a dangerous incident with some random thugs. They had tried to rob Chitoge and possibly rape her. So Raku had stepped in and fought the two guys off. One ended up pulling out a knife and stabbed Raku right in the back.
The guys ran knowing the police would show up; Chitoge obviously called for an ambulance. The wound was deep and for some reason, wouldn't stop bleeding.
Raku had gotten surgery and everything was fine; Chitoge, being his girlfriend and all, ended up being his first visitor after he had regained consciousness. She tried not to cry but couldn't help and ended up yelling at him for being such a stupid beansprout. She was angry yet so thankful that he protected her and came back alive.
He didn't move either. He only grabbed her hand and assured her he'd be ok. Chitoge on the other hand, ended up crying more and then leaving after a small conversation; unnoticed, she had dropped her house keys though and didn't realize till she was outside the hospital.
She quickly rushed up to get them but instead ended up standing outside the slightly opened door, of Raku's room. No one but her was there since the hospital claimed he wouldn't be allowed visitors till he awakened (which could've been at any time, so of course no one could wait so long, they have lives too).
But Chitoge knew she wouldn't be able to function till she talked to him again; so it didn't matter if she had to put her life on hold for a day or even a week. She will wait, because she loves him…
Hearing the voices, she concluded it was indeed Onodera Kosaki. Somehow Onodera was there, with perfect timing; Chitoge was happy and sad at the same time. She was thinking about why she felt the way she did but was immediately interrupted when she heard Onodera crying her eyes out.
Onodera had got up and yelled at him for being stupid, reckless and about how worried she was because of him. She didn't want him to die; she also didn't wanna sit at the moment and was quite far from the bed at this point. She was just as upset as Chitoge was; she was just more open about it…
So after not hearing the either of them say a word for almost a minute, Chitoge thought Raku would do what he did to her… But he didn't. He got up, while groaning in pain and walked over to Onodera. He hugged her tightly as if it were the last action he'd ever do. He cried with her and said he was so sorry for doing it. He didn't mean to cause her such sadness.
He hugged her with what little strength he had and even cried.
Onodera eventually responded by crying louder while also placing her hands around his shoulders. It looked as if they were about to kiss…
That… That really just sent Chitoge over the edge. That was when she knew that Raku would only cry in front of and make that extra effort, only for Onodera. It sickened her and made her almost want to vomit.
She didn't know why but she understood… He was in love with her after all, so it was honestly quite a normal response when taking that factor into consideration. That's probably why she almost wanted to vomit. She hated how differently he treated her and Onodera. She hated how she understood why it was done…
But most of all, she hated the fact that he will never, love her…