Legends

"Talking," thinking

Rima's POV

It had been two years since we fought Easter, now; we all attend Seiyo junior high school. Everything changed, Utau was dating Kukai, Yaya was seemingly closer to Kairi it was only time before the two of them went out, Amu finally decided to choose Ikuto, and Tadase was receiving some practices to head Seiyo from Tsukasa. And Purple head came back from Europe a year ago.

Everyone was moving on, I sometimes wonder if I was, I always stayed on the same spot while everyone took a step forward, everyone had something to do with their life and I was just… well, lost.

I was lost ever since Kusu-Kusu came back to my heart, it wasn't like I couldn't make other laugh, it just made me realize that I didn't know what to do with my life, because Kusu-Kusu went back to my heart, it meant that one of my goals were accomplished, I just didn't know what was the next one.

"Rima, you're spacing out, what are you thinking about?" Nagihiko spoke while waving his hand in front of my face, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I looked around to examine the classroom; it seemed that while I was preoccupied by my thoughts, class was already over.

I turned my head to the oh, so annoying purple head, "Why didn't you tell me class was already over, you idiot?" I snapped at him.

He sweat dropped, "Ummmm, I did, it was just that you were lost in your thoughts, so you didn't hear me," The oh, so annoying purple head explained.

"Penny for your thoughts?" He asked me.

"In your dreams, purple head!" I answered him sardonically.

Speaking of purple head, I noticed something different about him lately; he seemed more… distant, I guess, like he didn't want to feel attached, slowly, but surely, he made a gap between himself and us, it was slow, but surely.

Was he going to-

My thoughts were interrupted by Purple Head yet once again.

"Rima~~," He said in a sing-song voice, "You're spacing out again," He pointed out.

"Thank you captain obvious," I mocked him, a little mad that he interrupted my thoughts twice, while organizing my stuffs.

"No problem Rima, it's always nice to be of assistance," He said smiling.

"Hmmph," I turned my head away from him while crossing my arms.

"Oh yeah, Rima, why don't we go out to see the Peach blossoms again today?" He asked me.

I blushed at this; did he just ask me out?

"No way, I've got things to take care of," I lied; obviously, I didn't have any plans for the day.

"C'mon Rima, you can do better than that, I know you're lying," He pointed out my lie.

I was really getting annoyed with his ability to point out my lies, I knew this fact or years, but I really never grew accustomed to it.

"C'mon, I promise you won't regret it," He said smiling.

"Fine, I guess I got time for you," I agreed to his offer, a little too easily to my dismay.

We got out of class and leave the school grounds.

On the way to the park, I couldn't help but wondering why the oh, so annoying purple head suddenly wanted to go to the park with me.

And so, I voiced my thoughts, "Hey, Nagihiko," Yes, over the years I had learned to say his name properly," Why this all of a sudden?"

He smiled faintly, "No reason, I guess. Do I need a reason to spend time with you?" He said the last part playfully.

However, I was not enlightened, I punched the side of his arm, but as usual, I couldn't do much damage to him.

He chuckled a bit.

"What's so funny?" I asked, obviously annoyed by his actions.

"Nothing, it's just, ….." He spoke the last part a little bit too quietly, so I didn't quite hear it.

"What was that?" I asked demanding.

"Nothing of importance," He answered.

"Obviously, since when did you say something worth listening anyway?" I asked sarcastically.

In truth, I was really curious about the last part of his sentence, it was just, when he said that, his eyes, were so full of sadness…

I pushed those thoughts away, and he also swiftly changed the topic of our conversation, we ended up talking about various stuffs on our way there.

"Hey Nagihiko, Do you ever feel, I don't know…. Lost?" I asked him, I felt so lost, that I ended up asking him, how great WAS my life?

"Forget I asked that," I quickly spoke.

"Hmmmmm, that's a hard question," He said to nobody in particular, he was talking to himself mostly.

"I think, at some point, everybody will feel that, I guess, I also did numerous time, it was one of the reason Temari went back to her egg remember?" He reminisced

"If you don't know where to go…" he placed his fore finger to his chin.

"Just follow your heart. Now, now, now, I know it is cliché, but it really is the answer, ask yourself, what do you love best? What do YOU want to do," He explained to me.

I hadn't thought of that, What DO I want to do?

"And if you don't know?" I asked timidly, afraid he was going to mock me for it.

"Then, just go on, in this path called "life", you will definitely be able to find it, "He turned to me, smiling brightly.

I was stunned by his answer, I definitely didn't expect THIS.

We continued our journey to the park, we kept silent. But not an awkward one, a comfortable one, I felt myself smile at this, but I quickly wiped it off my face, I didn't want to let him see it.

When we arrived, we played a lot of fun stuffs, we played her and there, and I actually laughed, I didn't know, but Nagihiko smiled at that.

We were now, sitting in a bench at the edge of the park, exhausted from all the activity we just did.

"How was today, milady?" He teased me.

"It was okay, "I answered, and I wanted to say that it was really fun, but my pride got in the way.

But I guess he saw through that since he smiled, but that was expected, he was always able to see through all my lies anyway.

"So, shall we go home? You don't want to make your mother worry do you?" He reached his hand to me, smiling widely.

After he said that, I just realized that it was already dusk, I better get home soon, or my mother will kill me.

I hopped off the bench, ignoring his hand and started walking to the direction of my house with him trailing behind me.

It didn't take long for us to reach my house; after all, the park was closer to my house than the school.

We reached the front of my house, I turned around to face him, and said my farewell, "So I guess this is it, the end of our little outing."

He smiled faintly, and spoke, "Yeah, I guess it is."

I walked through the fence and grabbed the handle to the front door, and suddenly, he spoke out loud, "Rima!"

"Yeah?" I asked half-heartedly.

"I…" He said rather unsurely, his eyes filled with doubt, but seconds later, it turned into determination.

"I Love you, Rima," He exclaimed.

I didn't know what to say, so I just stood there for a few seconds, desperately trying to find a word to say.

I should say something, say something you idiot! Say something!

Nagihiko just stood there, to my surprise, he smiled faintly, I thought he'd be mad, you know.

"It's okay if you don't want to answer Rima," He said softly, making me a little at ease.

But I WANT to answer, I just can't! Damn it!

"Goodbye Rima," He said in a sad tone, and walked away.

I didn't know why he sounded so sad, but I was going to learn it the hard way.

That night, I made up my mind, I was going to answer Nagihiko tomorrow, and tell him how I truly feel about him, I always made it seem like we were some kind of archenemy.

But in truth, I was just afraid, afraid that my true feelings would come to the surface, afraid that everyone would find out. But… He was brave enough to do so, than, so can I.

The next morning, I arrived at school, fearless and determined, determined to tell him how I truly feel, I opened the door to my classroom, but I was surprised, Nagihiko wasn't there, usually, he would always come early.

Maybe he's with the others. I thought, so I dropped my bag on my seat and search for the others.

I walked around the school, searching high and low for them, to my luck, I found them all sitting on a bench in front of the huge tree the junior high school had. Amu, Utau, Kukai, Tadase, Yaya, and Kairi were there.

But… They all looked so… sad, I wonder what's going on? I wandered.

I approached them slowly, they noticed me and their eyes got even watery.

"Guyss, ngggg, what's going on?" I wandered out loud.

They all looked at each other for a second, confused on deciding who was going to tell her the news.

Finally, after a few minutes on inner debating between them, Amu stood up and braced herself.

"Rima, you're going to want to sit down," Amu spoke seriously, at that moment, I knew I shouldn't take it lightly, after all, it was rare for Amu not being dense, so I did as told.

"Nagihiko…. He left," Amu said teary-eyed, "He-he left each of us a letter, and this is yours Rima," She handed me a yellow envelope.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, He just said he l-loved me yesterday, and how could he leave now!

I took the envelope and ran with all my might, I left the school grounds; I didn't care about school anymore. All I wanted was just to get out of there, where he and I shared a lot of memories together.

I just ran and ran with all my might, I stopped when I couldn't run anymore; I fell to my knees, tears leaking out of my eyes.

I looked at the envelope in my hand, "A letter? You gave me a fucking letter? Well, don't wish I'm going to read this crap!" I yelled, I brought the envelope to my other hand and ripped it.

But halfway through, I remembered his smiling face and the way he used to call my name.

"Rima,"

"Fake!"

"Looks like my secret was found out,"

And I stopped, I got up and went to a nearby bench, I opened the envelope and found the letter inside, thankfully, it was still readable.

I started reading it.

Dear Rima,

Sorry you have to find out this way,

I'm truly sorry, in truth I also found out no long ago, my mother wanted me to go back to Europe to continue my studies, of course, I actually don't' want to go.

I hate it, leaving my family and friends behind, and especially leaving YOU behind.

I'm going to miss you so much; I wish I can turn back the time just to be with you longer. I don't want the days to pass, I don't want the nights to go, and I just want the days where I'm with you last forever.

From the first time I met you, I realize you were special, that you were different from any other girl.

I don't regret a thing, because I met you.

I actually don't know how I'm going to live without you, I'm always going to dream your smile at night, and cherish the day I met you.

And about yesterday, it is okay if you don't feel the same way, from the start, I know the odds were against me, but I still want to say it anyway.

And one more time,

I love you Rima, I did, always do and always will,

Farewell my love,

Nagihiko Fujisaki.

I stared at the letter, did he really think that? Did he really think it was impossible for me to love him?

I cried harder and harder, just wishing that this was just a horrible nightmare. But it wasn't, it was reality, it is time for me to accept the truth and step forward. Nagihiko wanted to live in the past, but he knew he couldn't, so he stepped forward instead, so this time, it's my turn.

I placed the letter back in the envelope and got back to school with a determined face. With the courage he gave me, I will keep moving forward from now on. After all

"It's not tears that suit you, it's a smile,"

I wiped the last of my tears, and began to walk to school

My life was just starting, and this was a new beginning

The next time we meet, I won't hesitate to tell you,

The words that I couldn't say

I just want to write a one shot, the idea came from the song 1000 words,

so, what'd you think? This is my first Shugo Chara! onsehot

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