A/N: Hello people, I've decided to review and edit this fic. I've added some scenes and tried to fix typos and what not. Hopefully the story has more depth and is better rounded. For those of you who've been with me from the beginning, I'm sorry. I know I've been terrible when it come to updating, but I plan on finishing this story. Anyway, hope you enjoy. Please REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW!

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Chapter 1

"I have to go," He said. His fingers ran lazily through my hair.

"I know," I whispered back, silence engulfed us. I gazed into the darkness trying to find the courage to tell him what he needed to know. My stomach was knotting and twisting in unknown patterns. I felt his arm tighten around me. 'You have to tell him' continued to repeat in my head, but if I did he wouldn't go, he wouldn't fight this battle that has held on to his soul for over a century. What I had would have to wait. I could not be selfish. But what if he didn't come back, he would never know and I would be to blame, I had to tell him.

"Vash?" his name danced on my tongue and tickled my lips as it always did. He responded by rubbing his thump across my belly. "I need to tell you something." 'This is it; I have to get it out, no turning back.' I felt him flinch; he moved away from me, he was scared.

"Vash?" concern hugged my words. I set up behind him grabbing his shoulder in concern. I felt him begin to quiver under my touch. 'He's crying again.'

"What's wrong Vash?" He did not answer. He suddenly turned and wrapped his arms around my waist resting his head on my chest. His tears rolled down my torso; he hugged me tighter. 'I wish I could take the pain away Vash, but only you can.' I laid my hands on his neck trying to remind him that I was there for him with out words. We stayed this way for a while, his shaking began to subside, but the tears continued to stream down his face.

"Not now Meryl, it can wait," He unwrapped his arms from my waist and looked into my eyes. "Tell me when I come back Meryl, I don't need anything on my mind while I face Knives. Promise me you'll tell me when I get back, please?" I nodded trying to hold back the tears that were burning my eyes.

"Vash, I will only promise you that if you promise to return to me, please I need to hear you say that you won't abandon us please." The tears began to stream down my face. He wiped them away.

"I would never abandon you, you know that, but I can't promise you that I will come back." He did not look at me while he said this.

"What, how can you expect me to promise you that I'll wait, when you can't tell me you will come back? Vash that's not fair, not to me and especially not to your…" I had to catch myself I almost let myself slip. I have to get a hold of my emotions.

"What Meryl?" He was staring at me, trying to read my face, but I put up my barriers.

"Promise me you'll return and I'll tell you when you come back." He was shocked he almost looked hurt.

"Okay, Meryl. I promise."

That was three months ago and I have been waiting ever since. When he left that morning I only got up to wish him a safe journey and a speedy return. Since then Milly and myself have been trying to make a living with what we have. I told her yesterday that I was thinking about leaving Bernardelli Insurance Society, moving out here and keeping my waitress job for a while, I was really starting to like it. Besides the fact that every male customer had grabbed my butt, the people were quit nice.

"But Meryl, what about Alex?" she asked me about Alex everyday, it was true I missed him terrible and I wanted to see him.

"I don't know Milly, you know why I had to leave him I couldn't put him in harms way." I said rubbing my temples

"But Meryl it's been 3 months I sure he misses you miserably and don't you think it's about time they met." Milly was right, she always was, that's what I love about her.

"Yea it is, you know what Milly I'm going to get him." I said with determination.

"When?" Milly became extremely excited.

"Tomorrow," she was jumping up and down like a child. She was so carefree.

"Wow I can't wait till he gets here! Oh Meryl, can I go?" She asked putting her hands in a pray position.

"No Milly, stay here in case Vash gets back before I do." She slumped down into her chair.

"Oh okay Meryl, but don't be too long. I can't wait to see Alex." She said as her mood immediately improved.

"Sure, I'll only be gone for a week if I hurry."