I AM SO ANGRY.

I just finished Fang. I was dreading reading it. I went out for a birthday dinner for a friend, and we went to B&N. I got it. Read it.

ARGH.

ARGHHHHHHHHHH.

SERIOUSLY, WTF.

And you know what's really a punch in the balls? He waited until the LAST EPILOGUE to do it. THE LAST FREAKING PAGE. AND THEN HE LEAVES. He's gone. Seriously. I threw the book across the room. I waded through three hundred pages of crap to get to a crap ending. Thank you, JP. THANK YOU SO MUCH.

This is me, justifying Fang's terrible decision for him.

The dick.

Enjoy?

Come here; please hold my hand, Lord, now

Help me, I'm scared please show me how

To fight this, God has a master plan

And I guess I am in his demand

I don't want to leave her. My heart turns just at the thought. But it's not my choice. My life has been screwed over nine ways from Sunday, and I don't think this is an exception. My DNA has been tampered with; I've been chased around the world, shot at from every angle, and tricked more times than I can count. But my heart has never been this broken, this damaged. I'm useless without her. I can almost be certain I won't survive this.

Please save me, this time I cannot run

And I'll see you when this is done

And now I have come to realize

That you are the one who's left behind

My hand trembles as I hold this note in my hands, crinkling the paper. She'll take one look at it and then burst into tears. I know her, and she doesn't cry much. But she knows that there are forces tearing us apart on purpose, trying to break us up, and that's too heavy of a burden for her. Even I'm crying as I look at my terrible handwriting. She'll wake up tomorrow and never see me again.

Please stay until I'm gone

I'm here, hold on to me

I'm right here waiting

I'm still going to be there for her, just not physically. She can think of me whenever she wants; think of me for her strength. And I'll do just the same. I know it won't be enough, but as much as I hate to admit it, Dylan is right for her. Hell, he was crafted for her. He's going to fill the broken gaps I leave without even trying, making her feel like I try so hard to do. I'm going to break her heart. Her wings. Her life.

But there isn't another choice.

I see the light; it feels good

And I'll come back soon just like you would

It's useless; my name has made the list

And I wish I gave you one last kiss

I think about going to her, kissing her, and then smirking as I walk away, seemingly to another room. But if I see her one more time, I'm going to trash the note and stay to see her smiling face and her gorgeous wings. I won't be able to fly into the sunset, knowing she's still there and crying her eyes out. I have to leave before I change my mind. But I need to kiss her. My mind is warring with my heart, and my mind is winning. I need to do what's right and logical, not what I feel. Not this time. Not now.

Please stay until I'm gone

I'm here; hold on to me

I'm right here waiting

And take my one last breath

And don't forget

That I will be right here waiting

I'll be waiting for her when all this is over. I'll be the one standing by her side, like always. Not Dylan. He can fill the holes I leave, and he can kiss her and love her and hug her until she forgets me. But I'll be the one waiting for her in the end. I'll be the one who tries to run away, knowing she'll be flying right behind me trying to catch me. Trying to ride my wind.

But I'm no fool. I'm running to where she'll never find me. She can't find me. Ever again.

Ever.

Please stay until I'm gone

I'm here; hold on to me

I'm right here waiting

And take my one last breath

And don't forget

That I will be right here waiting