"No, baby it's not you it's me" I chug down a glass of champagne , "No.. That's no-I mean yah" Simon on the other hand is doing these hand movements as if trying to...stop me " Fuck it" I mumble and Simon puts his head on his hands " No. You listen to me you little piece of shit, you don't own me and I don't fucking care if you dance with Jess or sleep with her. Feel free to never call again" I take a deep breath " That was very mature of you " Simon smiles " I know". I have never known how to ideally break up with people , but frankly Liam was just too much , the other millions of girls in the world might disagree " Are you okay?" Simon asks putting a concerned hand on my shoulder " It took me two seconds to get over him " I snort and open the television " I don't understand why most girls go into this depressive state " I wonder " Well , most girls are not super models and brand ambassador for seven companies and they don't have an awesome best friend. Like me " I roll my eyes " Touché".

So, this is my life. It isn't very exciting you see-

I am a model

I am the brand ambassador of 7 companies

I don't have cancer

I don't have a lesbian lover (I wish I did)

I don't do drugs

I am not in a cult

I am not Pregnant

And... I haven't had an epiphany (yet)

I am not in love either...

"Hey kiddo !" Luke comes in with a box of donuts and chocolate shake " Hi! " I smile and hug him. After my parents death , he took me in and raised me. I was left at a crappy orphanage and one day I ran away. He was the inspector that found me and I am so glad he did. " So, I was thinking about...School" he puts down the box of donuts " You are going back to school? " I ask as I almost choke on my milkshake. I hide the laughter with a cough " No, Clare " He takes the next seat " I was thinking about you going back to school " my eyes pop out, it's been almost five years since I attended school. I was home schooled for most of the time and I graduated an year early " I know you have finished schooling but ...considering what happened there months back . I think you might want something normal in your life"

" OK... "

" You are not gonna rebel or anything" Luke questions

"Nope. This isn't a chick flick where I rebel against the cause and fall in love with a high school guy " I attempt to smile

" Okay. The school is in New York , it's fully secured and you will go there with a proper cover. And just... have fun." He fidgets awkwardly

" What about my shoots and other stuff? " I question

"Don't worry about that. And Kiddo if you want to talk about what happened –"

"I don't want to talk about it " I reply harshly

You know some moments in your life... You could forget and just stop thinking about for one damn second.

This one was mine.