It wasn't often that Hatake Kakashi drowned his sorrows in the sweet intoxication of alcoholic beverages, or to be more exact, sake. But this was one of the rare occasions where he let himself be overwhelmed with the joyous and carefree feeling of being completely intoxicated before the heavy feeling of his daily thoughts and emotions burdened him once more when he woke up the next morning. It wasn't like he couldn't handle the burden, infact he often thought it was the only thing keeping him rooted to the ground instead drifting off into the clouds, consumed in his own world, detached from reality. He liked the dull emotional pain that came with his thoughts, it reminded him just how far he had come since his days with Obito and Rin and the treacherous and violent days in ANBU.

Yet even he acknowledged that he was only human and could only handle so much before he had to let it all out in some way. The little orange book he carried around helped him quite a bit as a coping mechanism, an escape from reality but even that only helped to a certain point. So here he found himself at some bar, the name long forgotten, a glass of sake in hand, sitting on a stall, swaying dangerously, chatting happily away with a young blonde woman whom he had been buying drinks for for the past hour.

"So Kakashi, do you have anyone special in your life?" The young woman questioned. Letting out a small giggle, she placed her hand on his shoulder to stop him swaying.

"Special?" It took Kakashi a few moments to realize what she was asking. A flash of sun coloured hair, blue eyes and bright smile raced through his thoughts at the mention of 'someone special'. He grimaced and quickly erased that thought from his mind. It was wrong.

Becoming impatient after not really receiving a reply from the rather attractive man sat next to her she tried to coax him on. "Hmm yeah, someone special.. I mean someone you are romantically interested in?"

"...Someone that you love?" She continued, blushed slightly, removing her hand from his shoulder to rest on his knee.

"Ah...no." The copy nin replied.

"No there is no one special in my life." He lied. This was a night he was meant to be having some fun, to be getting away from real life for a few hours, to make the most of his free time between missions and teaching his genin team, to escape thoughts of his recent mission that had turned out to be a complete failure. To escape thoughts of him.

He felt the hand that was resting on his knee move slowly up his leg, stopping halfway up his thigh. He looked up at the young woman, trying to focus properly on her face. Through hazy vision he managed to make out that a pink tinge had gone to her cheeks. If a strategically placed hand that was not far from his crotch was any indication, she was not blushing because of the alcohol.

"Ooh that's... Good." The blondes blush deepened even further, sending a rather seductive smile his way. Moving her hand from its resting place, she slid it even further up. That's when Kakashi finally came to his senses, standing up suddenly, feeling her hand drop from the mere centimeters it had been from touching his clothed member, then promptly toppling over backwards, ninja skills all but forgotten.

A loud smash was heard through the bar as his sake glass hit the floor, the young woman squealed and rushed over to his side, bending over him, revealing her cleavage. The few onlookers that were scattered around the bar, previously in deep conversation with each other spared glances at the two people who had caused all the fuss, some laughing and some sporting unimpressed expressions across their face.

"Are you alright Kakashi?!" She said leaning over him, offering her hand out to help him up.

Before he could reply, the angry voice of the bar tender was heard over the pop music that was playing in the background.

"Hey you two! You're way too drunk, You're gunna have to leave or I'm gunna have to forcefully remove you!"

Rubbing the back of his head the silver haired jounin stared on in confusion and heaved himself up off the cold, tiled floor with the help of the young lady. Not long after managing to actually remain balanced on both his feet they walked out of the bar, or rather Kakashi stumbled out while his partner supported him by snaking her arm around his waist.

"Aah.. I'm sorry about that, I've never really been able to hold my drink well." A blush spread across his cheeks, grateful that he was under the protection of his mask that he had thought to pull up before leaving the establishment, one visible eye the only thing giving his smile away.

"Don't worry about it." She gave him a bright smile, revealing a set of perfect teeth beneath her rosy, plump red lips. Now that Kakashi really looked at her from head to toe she really was a rather attractive specimen.

She had long blonde hair, much like the colour of Naruto's, cascading down her back, stopping just above her hips, she had average breasts, not too big but not too small, he could say that one would have nothing to complain about. Eyeing his way further down her body revealed that she had a slim waste and was clad in a tight black dress, stopping a few centimeters above her knees. He also noticed that she was shorter than him, but not by much, the top of her head roughly reaching the height of his shoulders. The things that stood out to him most about her though were her bright green eyes, red lips and bright yellow hair, contrasted against her pale skin. The more he looked the more he could feel the stir of want within him. The need to possess her. The need to dominate her. The need to feel completed and whole.

The need to forget, even for a night.

The young lady, who did infact have a name... Akiko, noticed the lust filled stares she was receiving so openly from Kakashi and felt herself blush deeply before once again grabbing him around the waste, blocking his view of most of her body.

"So.. Um do you have a home I could tak- help you back to?" She stammered.

Lulled out of the thoughts he was having of the blonde woman withering beneath him in ecstasy, he managed to half tell and half show her the general direction they should be walking in. The whole while trying very hard not to picture his young blonde student in various erotic positions instead. Very wrong. He needed to stop this. He felt absolutely disgusted with himself for having these thoughts, his student was just a young boy for fuck sake! He needed to regain some sort of tight leash on his thoughts, this could cause him a lot of trouble if people were to find out about his true feelings for a certain genin. In all his years never before had he been stuck in such a dilemma as this.

Before he could let that train of thought carry on to the point that he was wallowing in his own guilt, he grabbed Akiko by the hand and dragged her into a small dim alley way, not far from his apartment. He needed a distraction and he needed it now.

"Wha-" she was promptly cut off by the feeling of soft lips against her own. Heat pooling in the pit of her stomach, spreading through her whole body, making her go weak at the knees. Akiko pulled her head back letting out a content sigh as Kakashi pulled her body flush against his, hands wondering down her sides, onto her buttocks, squeezing as he started nipping and sucking hungrily at her neck. She let out a series if erotic moans as she could feel the copy nins hard length press up against her. No. He was grinding against her, the noises she was making only coaxing him on.

Feeling his hot breath against her ear and hearing little moans escape past his lips, he carried on his thorough exploration of her neck with his mouth, leaving red marks behind in his wake, making her go limp with pleasure at the pure want for her he was radiating. she had not wanted someone so very much for a very long time. Hearing the quiet desperation from his moans she could tell he needed release. She too wanted his touch badly, feeling her wetness that had soaked through her underwear but decided she would pleasure him first.

Dropping to her knees onto the hard ground beneath her, she hastily undid his trouser buttons, nimble fingers unzipping them the rest of the way, behind them revealing his hard length enclosed behind black cotton briefs. Pulling down his briefs to reveal his erection, Kakashi gasped at the sudden cool air hitting his sensitive skin. Flicking out her tongue to lick the tip of his leaking arousal made the silver haired nin shiver in anticipation and want. She was teasing him but he needed that hot mouth around his cock right this minute. He grabbed her by the back of her head, sinking his fingers into her soft locks, wanting to move her head to sate his needs, hesitant, waiting for her approval. He needn't wait long before her hot mouth enclosed him fully, tearing gasp after gasp from him.

Leaning against the the stone wall, tilting his head back with his lips parted, muffled moans escaping him, he let his eye close, losing himself to the sensation of her wet mouth and talented tongue. He let his thoughts wonder to the young boy for a moment, wondering what it would feel like if it were Naruto's mouth on him instead of Akiko's. He started forcing her to take more of his length into her mouth, to go deeper, to gain even more of the sweet pleasure he was gaining, thrusting his hips slightly. Wondering if his student would be just as good, just as tight, just as hot, just as-STOP. He had to stop there, he couldn't think of Naruto in that way. It was wrong. He had to keep telling himself... But God he wanted him so bad! He wanted to thrust into him, feel how tight he was, feel how the warm body beneath him would tremble from the sheer pleasure that would be racing through his body like electricity and it would all be because of Kakashi, no one else. Just him. The things he would do to him.

He could feel himself reaching his peak and was soon pushed over the edge when he looked down and saw the blonde hair, pale face and red lips bobbing up and down on his cock, but all he could think about was Naruto. His hips jerked and suddenly he was shuddering and gasping, barely managing to hold back the name that was on the tip of his tongue as he spilled his seed down her throat.

Coming back down from his high he let his head drop and his posture slump against the wall. Dizzy from his release and the high intake of alcohol running through his system he tucked his now softening member back into his briefs and pulled his trousers back up.

Just standing there in silence with Akiko still knelt by his feet he felt overwhelming guilt submerge him. He thought of the one person he was trying to forget at the brink of orgasm. He hated himself. He hated himself so much for having such lack of self control, he hated himself for being such a sick perverted man, lusting over a young boy. A boy...he wasn't even gay! I mean, he hadn't thought he was. Surely that point was proven after having a beautiful young woman on her knees pleasuring him with her mouth but all he could think about was Naruto.

Guilt. Guilt because he couldn't bring himself to return the pleasure to the blonde haired woman infront of him. Guilt because he had used her in his moment of need, the need to forget when it hadn't even helped him forget. He was weak. Guilt because she didn't deserve this. Guilt because Naruto didn't deserve this.

He slumped to the ground, his head level with Akikos. His apartment wasn't far, he could easily teleport to his bedroom from here. He leaned into to her, locking his mouth to her own, kissing her lightly. She whimpered slightly at the loss of contact as he pulled away.

"I'm sorry." was all Kakashi could choke out before disappearing in a puff of smoke, leaving behind a very confused young lady in a dark, damp alley way, hearing splatters of water hitting the ground and nearby rubbish as it started to rain.