Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
I can't recall this strong emotion, Duo… what is it that I feel for you? You talk to me; your comical singsong becomes blurred as I watch your pert features. Your emotions so easy to read, I could recognize your smile anywhere, yet I wonder… as the cheerful buzz of your voice fills my ears.
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I compare my life to your bright face as I ask myself…I ask myself why I can't tell you… I remain an enigmatic soul.
So I speak to you in riddles
Because my words get in my word get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
I relieve none of my person to you; I leave you hanging on insults… I can't find the words, the letters to describe my passion as I drown in the violet abyss of your eyes. I could wait for you to come and take this listless façade from my heart.
'Cause I can't take any more of this
I want to come apart
Or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
I can't linger forever without spilling over; something inside me is on the brink of breaking. I need you. You mollify yet challenge my senses and I want you to be there next to me. I want you to witness the roguery that comes with years of silence. Keep your heart open for me, Duo Maxwell.
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Somewhere… past my mission, past my sense of duty, I find you there. Eating at my heart, the stone hurts. The niche you have made in my cold heart only gets deeper until without you, I'm nothing.
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
I look at my life in the past and I pity the vacuum, but you're the one who felt the real pain, not me. Before you were even old enough to walk you lost your family, and your families after were destroyed. And now I see that us, your new family, is constantly pushing you away as you try to pull us together… I feel like an idiot.
And I talk to you like children
But I don't' know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed
And I realized your strength greatly surpassed mine long ago, but I'll never admit my imperfection in life. I can't keep pushing you away from me any longer, but I'm too mixed up inside to give you all of me.
'Cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Just wait… oh wait for your Perfect Soldier. Keep me in your arms until this nightmare I call my life is over and the apocalypse comes. Then take me… take me away my beautiful soldier of Death.