My dearest,
I hope one day you see this letter, then you will be able to understand a fraction of my feelings towards you...
You know, I was stupid, I wasted a lot of opportunities, I refused being with someone else, you don't have idea of how much lonely I felt, no, you don't, because you have lots of friends and people willing to be with you anytime, but do you remember…that I was the only one that really cared about you, because I was by your side, not all the time, but when we were together we were happy, when I was with you I forgot all my troubles, I was truly happy, and I know you were happy as well.
But, hey I know you blame me for what happened, but how could you? I had no control of what was happening at that time, I was helpless, and I didn't understand the situation we were in…
I didn't understand it was a goodbye, no it wasn't a goodbye, you don't have idea how much times I kept lying to myself, how much I cried, how much I wished you were by side, I kept thinking about you, dreaming about you for weeks, months, years… I loathe my feelings for you, even today...
Together again, yes we are going to be together just like the old times…
But the time passed and things changed for real, I met really interesting people, people that really liked me.. But I never really had someone, because I kept hoping that we were going to be together again.
Silly, naive me… you know what hurt the most? Is knowing that you move on, you left me, and you were, you are okay, better than never, you smile so bright , you have everything you ever wanted.
You changed, I know… I did as well, but I changed for the worst, I saw how the world can be cruel, how someone can use you, make promises, treat you like you are they most precious treasure, just to be used and forgotten.
You forgot me, It's time to me to let you go, I know deep inside I could never forget about you, but I have to live, I gave you time, and you didn't came to me, I'm closing this door forever, so I can breathe again.
goodbye,myfriend
goodbye,mybeloved
goodbye my