EDIT: Combined Chapters 1 and 2.

My first Silent Hill story.

Restless Dreams and Fantasies

Chapter 1

Mary…

Mary… I'm sorry…

Oh God… Mary…

Forgive me…

I blinked as dread filled me. The cause of my dread was silly, childish really. Only a young child should have this problem, not a 25 year old married woman. Yet, as I lay in my hospital bed, biting my lip, I contemplated on what to do. Pressure began to prod my sides. I had to go to the bathroom.

I pushed the red button at the tip of my index finger to call the nurse in charge of taking care me. Me, a 25 year old woman. It embarrassed me to no end to feel so useless and inevitably dependent of a younger woman. Don't get me wrong. My nurse, Rachael, is nice to me. She's more patient than the other nurses, but she is only 19 years old, an intern. It must be a pain to have to take care of a rapidly deforming patient that couldn't so much as even chew on her own. It was, in some way better than having my beloved James to take care of me. James…

I haven't seen James in a while.

Groaning after having to push the button five times and still no one to come to aid me, I looked around. I didn't see anyone pass by the window. The pressure grew more painful. I whimpered. What am I to do? I haven't the strength to stand on my own anymore… but I must try. Slowly, I prodded my elbows to give me a boost up. Strangely, my body did not ache nor feel weak. Could it be I'm making progress? I shifted my legs over to the edge of the bed and let them dangle a bit before slowly lowering them down onto the sterile floor. Taking a deep breath, I put some weight onto them. No pain came. Confused now, I gradually stood up. I stumbled a bit before regaining my balance. I was standing… I was walking… I'm walking!

Letting a sigh of relief, I made my way into the bathroom that was connected to my room.

I was happy, confused and surprised, but happy. I was standing on my own, and without pain. I breathe in sweet air without the agonizing gurgling in my lungs. My skin didn't chafe as I moved my limbs. I even had the strength to look at myself in the mirror and found a healthy, pale and round face staring back at me with wide hazel eyes. The disgusting scabs and bruises were gone, as if my sickness had never occurred. I scowled as doubt began to override the joy.

This had to be a dream.

I pinched myself to see if I woke up. Instead, a throbbing pain stayed in my arm as a small bluish bruise began to form in a tight circle on the spot where I pinched myself. A small, unbelievable laugh slipped out and I sat down on my bed, dumbfounded. A miracle…. Tears slipped out. I couldn't believe it. This was amazing… I had to tell and show James.

I… I had ruined James' life with my sickness. It pained me to see him struggling with the torture of having a terminally ill wife. I think his health is also in danger. He barely ate and lost sleep to the point of no sleep at all. The last times he came to visit, he was wearing the same clothes. They were dirty with God knows what and got filthier with each visit. He was more enigmatic than before, getting deeply lost into thought that it took me more than 10 minutes to snap him out of it. But now, I smiled softly for what seemed for the first time in a long time, we can be together again. We can live together again. We can grow old together like we had planned on our wedding night.

I needed to show my doctor so he can call James.

I stood back up and went to the door. I opened it and peeked outside. The white halls were clear of any people, not even a shadow. No sounds came, only white noise. "Hello?" my voice echoed down the emptiness. I walked out and down the hall. I looked through the windows of the other rooms and saw no patients. I felt fear begin to creep up my spine. Maybe… No, I shook away those bad thoughts, I can't. Not yet.

I made it to the nurse's station and still, no one was here. I bit my lower lip. Could it be…? Could it be that I had finally… ceased to live? I gulped down that harsh possibility. I couldn't die yet… I had to see James one more time… Apologize to him; tell him how much I love him… I just couldn't.

Further down, near the pediatric ward, I heard a girl's laughter. I furrowed my brows. There was someone else with me, hopefully someone who knew what was going on, or at the very least, someone to keep me company.

Hopefully…

I took in a deep breath and walked through the double door. I glanced down the hall. I could hear the laughter bounce off the walls and echo throughout the long halls. Who could it be? It sounded familiar to me… at the moment, nothing came to mind. At the same time, it came off to me as menacing, almost mocking. I continued down the snaking halls.

"N~ngh! Aaa~hh!" A shadow of a woman appeared on the floor. Her mouth opened wider, showing a gap form in the shadow, as she let out another sensual moan. "Ngh~ahhhhh!" I shuddered, and goose bumps involuntarily covered my pale arms. Seconds later, a man's shadow crawled on top of the woman. Their shadows combined to create a blob on the floor. Their moans intensified; the woman's shrill cries overpowered the man's low grunts. My blood began to run cold since most of the blood rushed to my face. I didn't mean to interrupt anything… I gulped as I approached the open room. Maybe I can sneak past them?

I stopped a few inches and took a deep breath. Don't peek, Mary, I told myself, it's rude to look. I slowly advanced forward, trying to ignore the sounds from the room. My eyes began to trail to the room before making them snap forward. The shadows vanished as I reached halfway. That was weird… I turned round the corner.

"NGGGGGHAAAAA~HHHHHH! AH… AH!"

Again? More shadows came from open doors and windows, all in a row and blackened large spots on the otherwise sanitized, pure white tiles.

"NGHHHHH! Ah…AH!... YESSSS~!"

A cacophony of moans and grunt filled the air as more shades joined in. I bit my lip and walked faster.

"JAAAAAAAA~MMMMMM-!"

"AH…AH…AH! JAAAAAA!"

"-EEEEESSSS!"

The hall elongated somehow; it felt like forever to run past it all. As I rushed past the last room, I didn't know why I decided to peek inside the room… But I did.

I turned my head to the right. The room gave out an erotic red light, making it hard to see the figures clearly. To my surprise, a pair of striking blue eyes stared directly at me, as if waiting for me to notice her. Her lush pink lips twitched into a victorious smirk. She was obviously pleased I peeked inside. Her moans grew louder as she tightly wrapped her thin pale arms around the man's neck. This caused the man to thrust into the woman harder and rougher. She moaned louder, never once taking her eyes off of me. This woman… why does she look like me? Her hair was shorter and dyed with pink highlights. But her face was similar to mine, save for the eyes.

My gaze trailed briefly to the man. The man's dirty blond hair hid his eyes, but by just looking at him from the side… He looked awfully familiar… I snapped my gaze back to the front.

I hurried into the elevator before my thoughts deepened further. The elevator was small, even a little cramped with just me in here. It must be a service elevator… I thought only hotels had these. I shrugged.

I pushed the button labeled "L". The elevator groaned and shook dramatically but nothing happened. "Ok…?" I breathed, "Come on elevator… I need to go down, please…" I tried the "1" button. The elevator moaned and shook a little before it began to descend down to the first floor. James… I thought and smiled softly. The doors opened with a ding! and I stepped out.

I combined chapters 1 and 2 because I had a complaint that I made the 1st chapter short and I could not make the 2nd chapter any longer.