A/N: Hoping this will turn into something bigger ! Reviews help a lot. The italics are thoughts. But there's none in this chapter.

Olivia was sitting at her desk. She was the only one in the precinct since it was only six in the morning. She didn't get much sleep the night before and didn't want to sit in her apartment alone. Olivia was staring off, thinking about the past nine years at SVU and how her feelings for her partner grew into something it shouldn't have. She didn't even hear Cragen come into the precinct until he shook her shoulder.

"Olivia, are you ok?" he asked as he leaned up against her desk and studied her drained appearance.

"Yeah, Cap. Sorry, I guess I just zoned out again. It's not a big deal, I was just thinking." she replied as she rubbed her face and attempted to look more awake and alive than she actually felt.

"Olivia, you've been out of it lately. Is anything wrong?"

"No, Cap. Really it's just that I haven't been sleeping much that's all." Olivia said pretending to get interested in a file that she still needed to complete. Cragen didn't believe her but he decided just to let her be for the meantime and left to go into his office.

Cragen watched her from the window. Once he got into his office and the door was closed Olivia put her hands in her head and sighed. He hated seeing her like this but he couldn't do anything if he didn't know what was wrong. He decided to wait until Elliot arrived and ask him if he knew anything. Part of him knew he wasn't going to get anything out of Elliot if he knew something because he and Olivia were so close. His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "Come in."

It was Olivia looking shaky and definitely nothing like herself. "Hey Cap, I'm not feeling too good today so I think I'm just going to head out and go home."

Cragen was considering making her stay and talk to him but he decided against it when he saw Elliot walking over to his desk. "Ok, Olivia. But if you need anything you can call." Olivia just nodded and made her way back to her desk to grab her coat and keys.

"Hey, Liv. Are you ok?" Elliot asked as he sat down at his desk and looked up at her. Olivia didn't hear him and just walked through the doors and to the elevator, lost in her own thoughts. Elliot looked puzzled as he watched her getting on the elevator. He walked over to Cragen's door and knocked and opened it when he got an answer. "Hey Cap, what's going on with Liv?"

"I was actually hoping you could tell me. I know how close you guys are and I thought you would've noticed that she was a little off lately." he said putting his papers down and motioning for Elliot to sit in one of the chairs. Elliot sat and looked at Cragen.

"I thought it was just her time of the month or something but now that you mention it, it has been going on longer than it should - like if it was her time of the month" he clarified and Cragen nodded to show that he understood. "Do you think it's anything serious?"

"Well, Olivia is normally good with keeping her feelings and her emotions in check and when she can't it's mostly something too big to keep to herself even thought she tries." Cragen said. "I want you to keep an eye on her Elliot. Make sure she's ok. Olivia is like a daughter to me and you know that. I don't want her getting hurt so I'm giving you the day off to go over to her apartment and keep her company and figure out what's going on."

Elliot nodded but remained where he was. "What if it's something bigger than we can handle?" Elliot's mind was running rampant with thoughts of what could be bothering Olivia this much, many of them were not good and he didn't even want to think about them with Olivia.

"We'll handle it when we come to it, Elliot." Cragen said. He didn't admit it but he was having the same thoughts that Elliot was having, he just didn't want to confront them by saying them out loud. Elliot nodded and stood. He went back to his desk and hurried as he grabbed his coat and his keys. He was surprised when he didn't pass Munch or Fin as he was leaving.

Elliot drove to Olivia's favorite coffee/tea shop and got her a tea and himself a coffee. He parked in the first spot he found when he got to Olivia's apartment. He knew Olivia too well and knew that if he rang her doorbell she wouldn't let him in. Knowing this, he pulled out the key Olivia gave him for emergencies and opened the door. He pushed the button for the elevator and got in pushing the button for Olivia's floor. He knocked on her door but got no response. He put the key in the door and opened it slowly. At first he saw no one and wondered if she wasn't even here at all. Then he saw something out of the corner of his eye.

In the corner of the room he saw a small figure curled up into a ball shaking. He shut the door and put the drinks on the coffee table. He edged closer to Olivia trying not to alarm her. "Liv? Liv, honey are you ok?"

Olivia looked up at him and he saw her tear streaked face and her red rimmed eyes. He took it as a sign that it was safe to walk over to her and hug her. As soon as Elliot got close enough, Olivia buried her face in his chest. Olivia cried for what seemed like hours. Elliot settled into a comfortable position on the floor and rubbed her back in an attempt to calm her down. He thought he felt a liquid on his back but he brushed it off as sweat or tears from her hand. As her tears started to become less and less violent she pulled away a little.

"Why did you have to do that?" she asked as she tried to stand but ended up falling back down on top of Elliot.

"What do you mean, Liv?" he asked as he went to reach for her hand but she pulled it away before he could reach it.

"I mean why do you have to do this? Be so caring." Olivia successfully got up and stumbled to the bathroom. "There's an extra shirt in the closet, unless you like walking around with blood stains on you."

Elliot looked at his shirt and only saw tear stains and didn't know what she was talking about. Then he remember the liquid he thought he felt on his back earlier. He quickly pulled his shirt over his head and looked at the back. Sure enough, there was a big blood stain on it. He quickly got up and ran to the bathroom where Olivia was. "Liv, open up. I mean it. We have to talk."

"Why can't we just talk through the door?" she asked through tears. Elliot was scared that she was hurting herself even more and looked around for something that he could use to pick the lock with. He finally found a safety pin that was on the coffee table and started working on picking the lock. All the while, talking to her and trying to keep her from doing something stupid and trying to figure out what could make her so depressed.

A/N: Elliot and Cragen find out what's been bothering Olivia so much in the next chapter.