I Can't Hate You Anymore, a total drama series fanfic

N/A: Heyyy! I have been obsessed with Nick Lachey's music for the past month(He's part of 98 Degrees(it's a boyband, and I looove boybands)) so I've decided to make a song fic about it! Enjoy!

Courtney's POV

I couldn't believe Duncan! We were barely even together for a month, and he goes back to Gwen! Again! I hated him so much, but now, I'm starting to look back at everything.

I mean, the reason he left was cause he didn't want to be with me, obviously. But now, I guess I see why. I was so bitchy and controlling, if I were him, I probably would of left too. Though, there was no reason for him to cheat. Which was the thing I was really pissed about.

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

We had a lot of ups and downs, but they were all fun.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.

So, here I am, crying in my bed, again. This was his fault, and I'm really not gonna take any blame for it. I was the only one trying in this relationship, I gave the best of me. Even if I was bitchy, and controlling. He didn't try at all.

All he did was party, party, and oh, did I mention party?

But, can I really hate him?

We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.

When we first met, I thought he was nothing but cold-hearted. A jerk. He was more though, and I loved that side of him. Loved it!

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

And now, he's nothing like he was, nice, sweet, nothing. He's the same cold-hearted jerk I thought he was.

Just because I may be letting go of everything him and I used to be, doesn't mean I'm not hurt. I'm deeply hurt. I've been crying for the last two weeks, he's hurt me so much. 'Cause that's just who he is, a cold-hearted jerk!

We built up this whole relationship, just for it to crumble up. He acted like I was nothing, like we were nothing.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

He's the one who wanted me so bad. I knew this would happen again, 'cause it's happened more then once. I just can't believe this was so sudden, and he didn't even tell me why. I've hated a lot of people for so long. But him, I really can't hate him , will I really ever understand why?

You know what? Why am I sitting here, getting all upset? I'm over him, I've been over him.

I got out of bed and got onto Facebook. I went to 'Relationship Status' and changed it.

Single.

Then I posted, "Going out to the club tonite, I'm totally over him". I logged out and went over to the radio and turned it on. And a Nick Lachey song was playing it fit what I was thinking and feeling exactly.

" We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what you're looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore "

A/N: If Courtney was to OOC, I'm very sorry! Favorite or Review!