Title: My Suicide Note
Author: 1039Stjimmy1000
Rating: PG-13
Point of View: Remus Lupin
Notes: So this is something I was writing for an original story of mine but I was looking through this and thought that it would work really well as a Marauder's story If I chanced some of the original text. That's why some parts seem like Remus is talking to three, alive Marauders.
Summary: James and Sirius are dead. Peter is a tratior. This leaves Remus alone and feeling desperate. Desperate enough to kill himself. This is the note he writes to his fellow Marauders before he dies.
When you're little, you do stupid things like eat dirt, play with your parents' wands, and make promises you can't keep. We made a promise like that once. We said we'd be friends, brothers forever. I was stupid thinking that would actually happen. Things change, people chance, we changed. No we didn't. This is who we've always been, it is just more noticable now. Peter, the follower, James, the hero, Sirius, the fighter, and me. What was I? It doesn't matter anymore.
I wish it was the way it used to be; us four against the world. You three were all I ever had, then you left. Now I'm all alone. You three kept me sane during my transformations. There's no one that can do that anymore. I don't have anyone left to life for, that is why I'm doing this. It is cowardly and selfish, but I don't care. I want out, and this will get me out. Maybe when I'm gone you'll all see me again. You'll all love me again.
I'm writing this to you three so you know I miss you. It isn't your fault though. I'm all alone and no one cares enough to fix that, but I could live with that. I've been falling for a long time and I'm just finally hitting the ground. I'm drowning. No matter how loud I scream, no one can hear me. Who knew forever could end so soon? Goodbye. I still love you, I never stopped.
-Remus
Harry, if you ever read this, I'm sorry I left like everyone else.