I can't do this. I can't do this. I just can't. My heart beat heavily in my chest, my mouth was dry and I think I might throw up. I can't do this. I took one step toward that god awful creme colored front door, I only took one step before I took two steps back. What was he going to think. My head started to ache from mentally warring with myself. I still couldn't bring myself to move. Then I relished I wouldn't have to. HE was standing there partially hidden by the trees but there none the less. He'd been watching my stand there like the idiot I am. Debating rather or not to put my entire life on the line. Bare it all to risk being shot down. My eyes started watering. I was right. I really couldn't do this. I turned on my foot. Then I ran.