A/N: This is my first attempt at writing a calzona story. I am hopefully going to continue this or just leave it as a one shot for now. Please excuses mistakes and what not, I'm a little rusty. I love this couple on the show and thought I would give it a go myself.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters, they belong to Shonda rhimes!
Arizona's POV
wish upon the sea of stars
I want to be okay but I just lost a leg. Why did the plane have to crash? Why did really good surgeons have to die? Why do people leave and how do I begin to live again knowing things are never going to be the same again? How? She promised me, she fucking promised me that she would try to save my leg! She should have just let me die. I know I am being irrational and that she was only doing what she thought was best for me, but how is loosing a leg best for me? I used to be something, Head Peds Surgeon, frigging awesome and now I'm a complete mess, no job, no leg, can't even take a shower or go to the bathroom by myself. What the hell?
Your trying but all you want to do is give up
I want to tell her she is not alone than I am right here, but venom spits out my mouth as I show her what she has done to me. I'm sorry my Calliope I am no longer the woman you married. I so desperately want to say everything will be okay but its not. How can it be? You just told me Mark is dead at least he died in peace. I'm supposed to be a good man in a storm, but I just lost a leg and can't seem to deal with it. I can't seem to deal with anything anymore. I haven't smiled, laughed, make love to my wife, played with my daughter, nothing...all because I am pissed my leg is gone after she promised me!
For better or worse they say, in sickness and in health they say
Is this what they meant when your taking your vows in marriage. Calliope is still here but I keep pushing her away. I feel a part of me is slowly dying but the thought of her and my daughter is keeping me alive yet why can't I just tell her how grateful I am, its just a leg. I still am here, Mark is not neither is Lexie so why can't I just say that to her?
Moments after she left I just stare at the door. I let out my tears wanting so badly for this to be just a bad nightmare and I'm going to wake up any second. Why can't I wake up? This is real and I'm slowly loosing grasp on reality. I'm sorry Calliope.
"Your not alone, please don't leave." I whisper out knowing she can't hear me. Just have to believe again that there is still hope, but I know if I don't try harder I'm going to loose everything because Calliope and Sofia is all I have left.