Posted: 10-31-04
Tartarus
AN: Well, here it is! My Terra story. It's very sad when you have to write an AU fic so your favorite character can be alive, you know? I can't believe what that &$!# Slade did to her! I mean yes, part of it was her, but inside she was always good. That jerk (not as strong as the word I'm thinking, but censoring gets old and I don't like swearing) brainwashed her! And she and Beast Boy were such a good couple! DOWN WITH YOU BB/RAE!!! DOWN WITH YOU, I SAY!!!! Sniff sniff Oh well, it is the magical world of super hero cartoons, there's a slim chance that they'll bring her back sometime. Yes, it's very unlikely, but I can dream, can't I? This fic is more or less what I wish they had done with her character. And, in order to make everything work, "Aftershock" didn't happen. "Betrayal" obviously did, but Terra's reaction to what Beast Boy said wasn't as extreme, obviously, otherwise "Aftershock" would have taken place. You know, I think the title of "Betrayal" works both ways, you know? Oh, yeah! I don't own Teen Titans. If I only did... Terra would still be in commission!!! clears throat Anyway, I hope you Terra fans (and even those of you who aren't) enjoy this. This is dedicated to you!
Prologue
This is my life. It is what I have chosen to do. You may think that I have picked the wrong road and that I am a terrible person for doing what I've done to the people who cared about me, but this was the only way. You may not believe me when I say that, but it is the truth. There was never any other choice for me. I have nothing to regret, because this is what I am supposed to do. It's where I'm supposed to be. If I wasn't here, everyone would be in terrible danger. Now, I have nothing to fear. I can control my energy because of this choice. Don't hate me for doing what I had to do. There was no way around it. This is how my life was destined to be.
You may think that I am a liar and a traitor. I fell from what most would consider a wonderful life to where I am now. But I was betrayed first, and even when I was beginning to doubt my decision, I was betrayed again. I am doing what I need to do. I am willing to do what it takes to save myself. I will never have to run again. I was once called Tara Markov; I was once cared for. Now, I am only called Terra, and I will not be the abomination I have become anymore.