Chapter 1

Want To

BELLA'S POV

It's finally warming up. Summer is around the corner and soon we will be graduating. Ugh just the thought of it made my stomach do nervous flip flops. I'm not really one for change. I am all too comfortable having a set schedule and knowing what to expect in the near future. I have it good right now. Going to a university close to home with my best friends in the whole wide world.

There are four of us. Rosalie, the strongest most beautiful woman I have ever met. Alice, with her pixie like looks and enormous personality. She is so much fun. Ah and last but definitely not least, Edward. Always there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on or an ear to bitch to. Oh and I can't forget his severe big brother complex.

He's played big brother and body guard to us since senior year in high school. Rosalie, 'cause her boyfriend, (might as well be fiancée) Emmett, is in the Marines. He joined right out if high school and is getting out next year. Alice… well 'cause he is actually her twin brother. That and her boyfriend, Jasper, joined the Air Force last year and made Edward promise not to let anything happen to Alice while he is gone.

As for me… I really don't know why Edward is so protective over me. Not that I mind though. Ha, we all know that he has gotten me out of a few pickles in the past. I honestly don't know what I would have done without him these last few years.

We all kinda grew up together but it wasn't until the boys (Emmett and Jasper) graduated high school a year before us that I actually started to get to know him. He is easily one of my favorite people.

I did have a little crush on him our sophomore year of college but I didn't tell anyone. Are you kidding, I would have never heard the end of it. A little after that I got my first college boyfriend and I just kinda went back to seeing Edward as my best guy friend.

Once in a while I will catch myself totally checking him out. Ok well maybe its more than once in a while. I can't help it. The guy is unbelievably HOT!! Oh and he knows it too.

Sometimes I swear he knows I find him attractive. He gives me this stare and I can't help but want to fall to putty. But I compose myself and try not to do stupid things. Believe me, sometimes are harder than others.

Most of the time I am able to keep my mind in check when he decides to throw me a dazzling look. I just remind myself that he is an extremely dear friend and almost like a brother. Not to mention he has a new girl (ho) on his arm every week. Thinking that usually keeps the naughty thoughts at bay. But hos and hoochies aside, he makes sure that we know that we come first. That is pretty much all we can ask for.

So here I sit, in my dorm room by the window, enjoying the rarely seen sun. With my eyes closed taking in deep breaths and feeling the sun's heat on my face.

"Oh my god! Are you not going? Your not even showered yet!" Alice was screaming as she walked into my room.

Tonight is just one of a series of parties within a months time to celebrate the ending of a semester. And for some, me and my group for example, a way to celebrate college graduation.

Exhaling sharply I open my and let them fall on my small, scary friend.

"Yes yes I am going to take a shower now. We have like four hours till the party, and its not like we are going as soon as it starts." I said getting up and dragging my feet to my closet.

"So!" She snapped, not know what to say. "C'mon Bella there are gonna be a lot of cute guys there tonight. I bet you haven't even picked out anything to wear!" she said reaching the closet before I did.

I smiled sweetly at her. "That's what I have you for! You know I love you right?"

She looked at me wide eyed, "Is Ms. Bella Swan going to let me, Alice Cullen pick out her clothes?" I nodded and she started jumping up and down.

"Yay! You are gonna look so hot!" Rolling my eyes I left the room to take a shower.

When I was done with my wonderfully hot shower, I wrapped a towel around me and grabbed another one to start drying my hair. When I walked out Rosalie was sitting on my bed while Alice painting her toe nails.

I said hi and went to pick up the clothes Alice had picked out for me on my bed. As I made my way to my drawer to grab panties and a bra there was a quick knock at my door and then it swung open.

"Hey guys I……. whoa Bella! OH MY GOD I'M SO SORRY!" Edward clapped his hands over his eyes and stood as still as I had ever seen him. Too scared to move. I am not even sure he was breathing.

My wonderful friends took it upon them selves to lighten the mood and roll around my bed in laughter as I stood there not really sure what to do. Should I run into the bathroom? What if my towel falls when I run? Do I look ok like this? Oh shit is anything sticking out? No, ok good. Just act cool. Just act cool. I thought to myself. Deciding to be brave, I spoke.

EDWARD'S POV

Oh my god did I just really walk in and see Bella in just a towel? She probably thinks I'm a perv. So many times I have done the quick knock and enter. Never has this happened. Too embarrassed to move, I just stood there with my hands over my eyes like a dumb ass trying to make my self invisible. It did not work

"Edward? What do you want?" I heard Bella's slightly aggravated but mostly embarrassed voice. I can imagine how cute her face looked with her cheeks surely flushed. I wanted to moved my hands and open my eyes to see if I was right but I thought again.

I could still hear Alice and Rosalie cracking up on Bella's bed. The least they could do is help me out. I don't know. Do something.

"Edward, hello? What did you want?' Bella's voice came through again. This time with a slight giggle. What did I want? I don't even remember.

"Ugh just open your eyes. I am covered, nothing is sticking out. I promise I will not flash you." Wow! I'm sure I was the one blushing now at the thought of Bella flashing me.

Um.. Should I open my eyes? I could act like it's no big deal that she is nearly naked in front of me. Yeah yeah! Here goes nothing. I thought to myself as I pulled my hands away from my eyes and looked at a now blurry towel covered Bella and red-faced Alice and Rosalie. I quickly decided that Alice and Rosalie were the safest things to let my eyes lay on.

Rosalie decided to speak, "Gosh you act like you haven't seen a half naked girl before." I laughed to myself. I've seen plenty of girls in less than what Bella was in. I just didn't want to admit that only Bella would make me react that way.

I've always kinda had a small thing for Bella. Ok, I'm lying, I have had strong feelings for Bella for a long time now. One major thing keeps me from voicing how I feel. She is too good of a friend. I have known her forever and I know what would happen if I told her the truth.

You know, the truth about how I think that she is the most beautiful creature that has ever walked the earth, the truth about how every time she walks into a room my heart beats crazy fast and I forget to breath, or how sometimes I imagine what it would be like to feel her soft full lips pressed softly on mine. I know if I told her all of that she would, as sweetly as she could, turn me down and then things would be weird between us. I would rather her be my best friend than someone who felt uncomfortable around me.

And so, because I am too scared of rejection from my beautiful Bella, I keep my mouth shut and surround myself with girls that don't mean much to me. But that's just one of my problems. Right now, I have to find a way to remember what it is I came in here for.

"Um… I..I just um…" Bella laughed and put her hand to her mouth to try to stop herself and I felt myself relax. Taking a deep breath, I decided to move my eyes to her. Bad idea!

She stood there with a hand over her lips wrapped in that dark blue towel. The skin on her shoulders glistening from just getting out of the shower, her hair hanging stringy down her back. I suddenly envied that towel that reach down to just mid thigh. I had to stop myself from letting my mind wonder as I watched a drop of water fall from her hair down the front of the towel.

As I, shamelessly, looked her up and down. She did the worst thing she could have done to me. She blushed! UGH, she is driving me crazy. I was very close to messing every thing up. Very close to closing the space between us in two quick strides and taking her in my arms, but thankfully Alice snapped me out of my stupidity.

"Geez, Brother, stop molesting my friend with your eyes." I looked down quickly and she spoke again, " Bella, hurry and get dressed so I can do your hair."

Bella looked away from me and quickly made her way across the room into the bathroom. I then remembered why I came. "I was just coming to see if you lady's would be making an appearance at tonight's festivities."

Alice nodded "Yeah as soon as we are ready we will be down. Worry not brother, we will find a way to keep the boys off of us until we have you there to keep us safe." I sighed. I worry about these girls sometimes. It is an not easy job keeping guys away from them.

"Thank you! I will see you later." I walked over to the bathroom door and put my face to it. "I'm sorry, Bella. I promise you, it wont happen again."

I heard a soft "It's ok" from the other side of the door and I turned to walk away. As I was walking by the girls I heard Rose whisper to me, "Don't give me that shit, you know you liked it."

I smiled and shook my head closing the door behind me. "See you lady's there."

That was extremely interesting. And the nights just begun.