AN: Hey, that summary sucked, I'm really sooorry, but this is my first, so read it maybe?
Okay, so this is my first fanfic! Yay! I got a case of summer boredom... and yeah. Do feel free to leave a review and the like. *wink* It would be greatly appreciated. ;u;
Ooh, almost forgot.
Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of the characters. Unfortunately. But, I'm still waiting for that letter in the mail from Square Enix telling me that it's all mine. TuT
Chapter 1 - Life's Not Easy
Riku's POV
I sighed lightly, shifting my position to get more comfortable in the sand. It was nice, just sitting on the beach, letting my mind drift off. Letting my head carry me to a place away from Destiny Island.
A place where things actually went the way that I so desperately wished they would.
"Riku, there you are, baby!" a familiar female voice yelled from behind me. I didn't bother answering or turning around; I knew it was Kairi.
"I've been looking for you!" she whispered in my ear as she hugged me from behind, nuzzling her face into my neck.
When I ignored her, she tapped my shoulder. "Okay, Mr. Unresponsive, what's the deal with you lately? You're not quite yourself. Aren't you excited?" she asked before I moved again, indicating silently that I wanted her to get off me. Unfortunately, she didn't take the hint.
"I'm excited," I deadpanned. I honestly wished she would go away so I could return to the perfect world in my head.
"Ku, something's wrong. You don't seem happy. Lighten up, love, there's only one more week!" She pinched my face.
"Ouch, Kairi, jeez," I said, rubbing my cheek before forcing a smile onto my face. "Sorry I don't seem excited or anything; I really am. I think I'm just tired."
"You should get home soon, then, silly." She giggled and snuggled into the curve of my neck again.
I nodded slowly. "I will. I just want to relax here a little longer."
"Okay, well, my dad will start freaking out if I don't get home soon. You know how he is. See you tomorrow! I'm so excited, Ku!" she exclaimed, "I love you so much."
She kissed my cheek before standing up and dusting sand off of her knees.
"L-Love you too, Kairi."
She ruffled my hair and ran off, her bare feet kicking up sand.
Man, I thought, this is all messed up. I shivered at the thought that I was marrying Kairi in just a matter of seven small days. If only I could make myself fall for Kairi the way I did when we were kids. Then everything might not seem so twisted. But that's how it is. Life's not easy.
I let out a deep sigh of frustration. "Life's certainly not easy," I said aloud to myself.
"Oh, damn it all," I muttered before laying back onto the sand and staring blankly into the darkening evening sky.
I love you, Sora. I had repeated that sentence countless times in my mind ever since we'd come back home.
Of course, I didn't intend to tell him for all my life.
I love you, Sora. But, it was forever a one-sided love.
When we'd all gotten back to Destiny Island, I started to find myself being conscious of everything about him whenever I was with him. His words, his attitude, appearance… I started to find myself falling madly in love with Sora.
But, we were both guys. And, I knew that he, like any normal male, preferred girls. Like any normal male, he would start dating a girl… and eventually get married.
No matter how much I thought about him, no matter how much time we would spend together, we would always be best friends. Nothing more.
Even though my feelings were pointless, I knew I was always going to wish on a hopeless star, wish that I could be something more special to him than a "best friend."
That was why I'd decided on Kairi. When Sora and I were younger, we both had a huge crush on her and it seemed like everything we did was to try and compete for her.
Since Sora told me that he had no interest at all in Kairi anymore, I figured that maybe I could make myself attracted to her again, and maybe that would get me over my aimless devotion to Sora.
So, she and I dated for a couple of years. She told me she'd always had an undeniable crush on me (even though she'd always seemed to be closer to Sora).
When she turned nineteen and I was twenty, I asked her to marry me. She was so happy and she cried for a really long time. She really did seem to love me a lot, much more than I loved her.
I proposed in January and she wanted the ceremony to be in December. I agreed; it wasn't like I cared about it that much.
She told me her elaborate plans of a beautiful white winter wedding on the beach.
A wedding on the same beach where Sora and I used to play-fight with wooden swords and run and swim alone. Just the two of us, before she came here from Radiant Garden.
So, here I was, one week before the wedding, one week before Kairi and I would spend the rest of our lives together, and I was still in love with Sora.
And I was still trying to give up on him.
"But, goddamn it," I said to no one, "it's way too hard."
Soooo, what'd you think of the first chapter? ;D There is more coming. I have too many ideas in my noggin.
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