I am unbreakable. I am unbreakable. I am unbreakable.
I repeated the words to myself in my mind. This girl, this demon, was not going to be my downfall. I swear to it. I cannot let everything I have worked so hard for be destroyed over one petty girl. I am stronger than this.
My eyes will not lust and my instincts will be suppressed. I can make it through this.
As I walked through the crowded hallway of Forks High I felt alone. My family had left me to fend for myself in the midst of humans. I scanned the hallway for that one distinctive scent; the one that would grind my fingers into fists and stain my eyes black.
After a few seconds I thought perhaps she wasn't here, and that my torment would not have to be endured today. Relief was coursing its way through me when there it was…
Lavender.
I took a sharp intake of air, a reflex for holding my breath, so I could not smell. But the scent of her was so inviting, and so unbearable. I saw her as I passed the cafeteria. She looked completely unaware of my struggle; the struggle not to manipulate her to follow me so I could slaughter her with my bare hands. She looked like everything was fine.
And that is just it. She was normal looking. There was nothing strikingly different about her from all the other girls here. And still, she was everything I wanted, everything I thirsted for. Every movement she made did not go unnoticed. I watch her with passion and anger. My mind was spilt between asking her out to dinner or having her for dinner. Sick, masochistic, vampire….
I stopped across from her and I could tell she noticed I was staring through the passing bodies. If only I could read her thoughts, perhaps it would make me less drawn to her. She looked up at me, noticed I was staring and then looked away and blushed.
I growled silently in my throat and walked quickly away from her. What power did she have over me? Surely this will fade.
I am unbreakable. I am unbreakable. I am unbreakable.