I stood there as I watched the hurt in his eyes, I felt paralyzed as I wanted to yell or run after him but I couldn't bring my legs to move and no words could escape my mouth…

I guess Ricky felt the same way as we stood on the steps beside each other with barley anything on. He was in a pair of boxers as I wore his t-shirt that was trademark by his cologne.

Ben stared without words as he continue to stare at us, His eyes danced around my body as he tried to digest the fact that I was with another man, not just any man though his best friend.

He finally felt he had enough as a single tear slid down his cheek; he backed up and then turned around leaving out the door.

I slid down the wall as tears begin to escape my eyes; I had just betrayed the only man who ever loved me. Ricky looked down at me, as he then sat down beside me pulling me towards him as I laid my head on his chest.

He stroked my hair as my fingers gripped his chest.

…

Two weeks ago…

"I don't know why you feel the need to bring me over here," I said to Ben as he knocked on the door to Ricky's penthouse. He then looked down at me and smiled.

"I have some business I have to take care of it won't be long."

"Good cause I can't stand to be around him," I said with my arms folded.

Just as I said those words Ricky opened the door.

"The feeling is mutual," Ricky said as Ben and I walked in, I gave Ricky an evil glare as Ben and I made are way over to his black couch.

Ricky came over and sat across from us as Ben and him started to discuss whatever it is they had to discuss, I knew it couldn't have been too important because they wouldn't have discussed it in front of me.

Many people asked me why I couldn't stand Ricky and I never really had a valid answer for that question. That's how it always been with Ricky and I since we met in high school, we never could stand each other we only respected each other because of Ben. And half the time we didn't do that.

Ben and I were also best friends, he always had a crush on me and sometimes are relationship would become more than friends, but I would always remind him that we were better off friends. Ben was too good for me I always found myself attracted to the guy that everybody warns me about, I liked the chase of having something that's dangerous, something that could hurt me excited me.

Ben would only get hurt by me, in the end are love would never grow. I would be constantly doing something he would find unforgivable. I didn't want to risk a good friendship for just simple lustful encounters. I would cherish him like a best friend should.

Ricky and Ben were engrossed in their conversation when I saw Adrian Ricky's girlfriend coming down the steps. I honestly didn't care too much for her either. I don't know what it was but the girl was always sneaky to me. I always felt she was hiding something. Ricky couldn't see that though, Adrian had him in the palms of her hands like bird food.

"Hey ben, Amy," Adrian said giving me an evil glare as she made her way into the kitchen, I couldn't help but turn my nose up at her, the bitch was to full of herself for me. Unlike Ricky I could read her like a book. One day when the snake bite the hand he would realize what I was saying was real. And I defiantly would be there to say I told you so in the end. Like always.

"Alright so I need you to set up a meeting with Nate and the five families," Ricky said to Ben.

"Alright," Ben said shaking his head. I didn't know anything that they were talking about other than there line of work was illegal. Ben really didn't tell me too much about it and I didn't ask.

"Well that's about it with that how is everything else?" Ricky asked sitting back on his couch with his drink in his hand.

"All the warehouses are fine I think we also need to have a meeting with Eddie that new kid ,I don't think he is understanding the business to well but other than that things are good." Ben said to Ricky as he got up and poured him a glass of water.

"Well since everything is fine, can we go now," I asked Ben charming in.

"Can't you see were handling business here, act like a lady and keep your mouth closed" Ricky said as I instantly became pissed.

"For one I wasn't talking to you and for two I am a lady and I speak when I won't. I'm not a dog I just don't lie on my back and bark when I am spoken to." I said eyeing Ricky as he turned his attention to Ben.

"Ben you better get her," Ricky said yelling.

"Both of yall just need to calm down." Ben said turning around with the glass in his hand.

"No your friend just need to learn how to keep her mouth closed every time she comes over here she brings that disrespectful mouth of hers as well." Adrian said walking back from the kitchen with a bowl in her hand.

"As I recall I wasn't talking to you either but both Ricky and Ben know how I am this isn't anything new." I said staring Adrian down as she took a seat next to Ricky biting into a strawberry.

"Well I think were about to get going," Ben said grabbing my arm pulling me off the couch.

"Fine with me I'm tired of them anyway," I said grabbing my purse off the couch and following Ben.

….

It's hard to believe that was two weeks ago.

I don't even understand how this started with Ricky and me.

And I honestly didn't mean to hurt Ben...

I still lay in Ricky's arms on the stairs as I finally pulled myself away, this was wrong. I couldn't be here with Ricky like this. I had to put my shield up to protect myself.

"You knew he was coming here didn't you?" I blurted out as I begin to execute my plan. Push them away before they can hurt you.

Ricky looked down at me as his whole face change to anger.

"He is my best friend you think I wanted him to see me with you?" Ricky said pushing me a little as he stood to his feet.

I looked up at him with tears in my eyes.

"You would do anything to hurt me." I said while pointing my finger at him.

"Please you not worth that much Amy, you know what just go." Ricky said walking back up the stairs as I sat there crying, feeling so guilty for Ben… How could I betray him like this.