I have a secret I can't tell anyone. Or rather, I won't tell anyone.

It's a secret that drives me to the brink of insanity yet it makes me feel like I'm alive. I'm…obsessed with my best friend, Kira. Ever since we were young…I always wanted him to be with me, never letting go of his hand whenever his mom comes to pick him up. But as I got older, slowly I started to want more and more of him to the point that just having his company wasn't enough anymore.

I want ALL of him. Body and soul.

There is Kira's twin Cagalli…but she's just a substitute besides who needs substitutes when you have the real thing? I've wanted Kira for as long as I can remember but I know this kind of thinking is dangerous. There are times when I just want to destroy everything between me and Kira but I can't. I'm bound to him and he doesn't even know it…that idiot.

No one can imagine how many sleepless nights I've had thinking of ways to lock him in my room and make him mine. I want to hear him scream my name, to see him writhe beneath me as I fuck his brains out. No one can tell how many times I've resisted the almost uncontrollable urge to sleep with him.

But it's gotten worse now. I've reached my limits…14 years of wanting and wanting and wanting…if this keeps up I won't be able to stop. Not now when Kira's so near to me. No matter how many times he begs me to stop, I won't. He's so innocent…but that only makes me want him more. Even if he cries, even if our friendship is destroyed, even if he hates me for the rest of his life…nothing can stop me from taking him.

I'm so cruel…

My heartbeat accelerates as I hear his even breathing in the dark room we're in. He's just on the other side of the bed, sleeping…I imagine myself pouncing on him, savoring his surprised look as I slowly take off his clothes. I'm sure he'll try to stop me but like hell he'll be able to overpower me. This is his entire fault anyway. He brought this upon himself. He should've never made me want him so much in the first place.

I got off my bed heading for the door, in an attempt to somehow stop these feelings I'm getting right now. I may have gone insane but a small part of me still wants to see Kira smile. And I can still think rationally…but it seemed like those small parts of me just completely vanished when Kira turned around, his face meeting mine.

Thump, thump, thump…

I gulped. His face was so much like a girl's…he's so beautiful, perhaps even more than anyone I've ever met. My will to get out of the room slips away oh so slowly as I stare at him. My thoughts, little by little, gradually dissipate until all I can think about is Kira. I slowly realize, as I advance towards him, that I'm about to destroy everything that Kira and I ever had.

But none of it mattered now…

Despite how hard I tried to forget Kira to stop myself from doing this…my mind still called out to him, my body kept longing for him, my heart kept beating only for him…

The bed made a soft creak as I positioned myself on top of Kira but he didn't stir. His head was still turned away from me giving me a good view of his neck. It's so sultry no matter how I think about it. I took off his blanket and examined his sleeping form. Such a sinewy body…

Ever so slowly I undid the buttons of his shirt. My body quivered with intense yearning as my hands felt the heat generated by his body.

I gazed at him one last time before time stopped as I leaned down towards him.

Tonight, Kira…

I make you mine…

A/N: It's up to you guys what happens next...